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I don't know why I feel comfortable typing this here; but lately I've been having suicidal thoughts. To the point I've actually held a gun in my hand wanting to pull the trigger. I don't know how to explain it to my family. My brother was put in a hospital for his suicidal thoughts & tendencies. I'll be 21 in a week today (October 24th is my birthday.) I really want to end it but want to wait until after my birthday... I was taking anti-depressants but I was constantly tired from them and had no energy so i quit taking them. Everything was fine for 5-6 months after I quit taking them but now I'm back to feeling how I was before everything... I don't know what to do.