myworldendswithyou

[myworldendswithyou]

This was meant to be a diary but now it's become a cemetery to my past thoughts and my past life.

[30/08/2023]

[myworldendswithyou]

Life happens...

[16/05/2023]

[myworldendswithyou]

I miss her so much, I will always love her...

[25/01/2023]

[myworldendswithyou]

You taught me how to love, but not how to stop.

[16/03/2022]

[myworldendswithyou]

We accept the love we think we deserve.

[15/03/2022]

[myworldendswithyou]

I'm not someone who has all the answers as I'm still making mistakes myself. I'm not someone who will give you advice if I haven't experienced your situation. All I can give you are alternatives that come within my heart.

When giving advice it's ok to say "I don't know". You shouldn't feel pressured to give an answer to something you haven't experienced. No advice is better than the wrong advice but there are cases where you don't need that experience to tell the difference between right and wrong, but I'm talking about experiences that doesn't exactly change your life but its important to go about it the right way such as how to prepare for exams, how to get over depression, how to be confident and all these things. These are things which seem easy to give advice on but it's really not because everyone's experience is different.

[12/02/2021]

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What is the cost of happiness? At what point do we put ourselves ahead of others. That's been my struggle for years...

I've never found joy in making myself happy not once in my life. My happiest moments has always been helping others. But I need to be more selfish because I can't keep sacrificing my time for those who wouldn't give me a second look.

I sometimes do envy those who can be happy without anyone else but themselves, it's amazing. Even if I can get just a slice of how that feels, maybe I can be happier as a person.

I've only ever made excuses as to why I don't focus on my self and it's because I feel empty when I do. I feel nothing when I put myself first. Is this how it's meant to feel? Or am I doing life wrong?

[17/09/2020]

[myworldendswithyou]

I truly envy those guys who never feel that their time is running out or ever feel their time is being wasted and doing what they want because they can even if it's amoral.

I have morals but it definitely has shifted in recent years and I don't want to be a bad person, I really don't. I want to be someone I can be proud of looking back at my life once i hit old age. If I ever do reach old age.

I'm jealous that things can be so easy for these people but for someone like me, I have to try harder than most and yes I agree some people might have it harder but not everyone does especially the people I have in mind.

I always wonder how I'd be in an alternative universe or if things did work out with the people I've met would things be better or worse? There is no right answer for this question because it's my fantasy it's not a reality.

This is why I don't want my emotions anymore. There is no right way of feeling about this... I've written many lyrics about the way I've felt and if I'm being honest even i get confused reading them due to many reasons.

[07/09/2020]

[myworldendswithyou]

Even I still wonder how I became like this... I shouldn't be like this. No one likes this. But this is who I became due to meaningless effort wasted on people who don't deserve me, because I am better than them.

I don't even know why I suddenly care so much about people who don't even give a shit about me. This is one of my bad traits. Always caring even to those who don't deserve it.

I really wish right now I can be without my emotions just for a month, just to see how I'll be. I definitely need a break, a long break. I need time to gather up my thoughts and emotions and reflect on who I am and who I want to be.

[07/09/2020]

[myworldendswithyou]

I will do my best to live a life without love from here on out. What was meant to give me the most happiness was the only thing that has ever given me the most pain.

All my life from a young age I felt if I chased love my life would change for the better but it hasn't. It's only made things worse every year. I will swear allegiance to nothing.

When all else has failed that even being myself failed I've only been looking at myself thinking why am I like this... Why does it constantly happen. But no more, I will live a new way of life.

Fuck Love from here on out.

[06/09/2020]

[myworldendswithyou]

Girls are confusing...

They would talk to someone who replies every now and then and once they start dating she wants him to reply more consistently which is a fair ask but don't expect it to happen.

The problem I have is that when you chase a non-consistent guy expect a non-consistent result and in very rare circumstances they do become consistent but in most cases they don't.

One other issue I have is that when someone is consistent in the beginning you don't give them a second look... Why is that?

It's clear they're trying but you shut them down and those who are more consistent will give you more consistent results than those who are non-consistent.

Do some of you girls get satisfaction from being able to change someone's habits which makes you like them more.

Why do you girls say one thing but want something else then when you get it, you want them to behave like someone you ignored.

And when they don't listen to you. You complain and have an argument. Then you guys break up and then you call men are trash. When it was your trash expectations in the beginning which caused it.

I agree men are trash. But you girls are also trash.

[16/08/2020]

[myworldendswithyou]

인내와 연민이 있다면 당신은 아무데도 갈 수 없습니다...

이 불평등 그리고 당신은 사람들이 자신의 접근 방식에 더 공격적이 될 때 일이 일어날 것을 볼 수 있습니다. 나는 그것이 그런 식으로 아니었으면 좋겠다 그러나 그것은 그리고 이것은 심지어 사회적 상황에 적용됩니다.

[19/07/2020]

[myworldendswithyou]

행복 할 매우 어렵다. 당신은 그것을 찾을 수 없습니다 당신은 그것을 얻을 수 없습니다.

이 감정은 마음에서 비롯됩니다.

[17/07/20]

[myworldendswithyou]

사랑이 당신의 묘사에 맞지 않을 때,그것이 존재하지 않는다는 것을 의미하지는 않습니다. TV 드라마는 중대하다 그러나 그들은 이상하고 소름 보이는 자신의 쇼에 로맨스에 이상한 접근 방식을 사용합니다.

사랑은 느리고 인내심이 필요합니다.

[14/07/2020]

[myworldendswithyou]

내 한국은 좋지 않다. 그러나 나는 나의 능력을 향상시키기 위해 한국어로 쓰기를 시도 할 것이다.

[10/07/2020]

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