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i need pepple to understand that in the first place leather has always been made from the byproducts of butchering animals for meat, otherwise the skin is just tossed and unused. there were some companies farming for leather for a while, particuarly alligator leather, but those were not the norm. peta did so much harm in their campaigns against leather as a concept (its not unethical. yoi get the skin when an animal dies. thats why most leather clothes in the usa are cow leather, bc thats the biggest meat animal here) that its almost impossible to buy anything "leather" that isnt made of plastic that it so fragile and shitty that the very Thread Holding It Together rips the fibers apart. it will last for maybe a year two if youre lucky, and wont biodegrade and was made out of something that isnt naturally occurring in the first place and is one of the biggest causes of pollution globally

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Reblog if you are Team Kastle

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Buddie Countdown to Season 8b:

38 days.

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Please stay I want you, I need you, oh God Don't take These beautiful things that I've got

inspired by this video from Fans Of 911 on ABC

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ao3 mcu a:aou abo bdsm ot3 hs au pwp

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not flesh and blood (but the heart) (rated t, 2803 words, graphic christopher injury, forged family, hurt/comfort, buddie is all over the vibes)

"The ride to the scene is tense, since getting the rundown from dispatch. Buck can still hear it in his head.

A mass-cas event, a bus got hit going 80… jumped the barricade and got hit by oncoming traffic… still on fire, rolled over into the ditch on the side of the road. Looks like it was one of those airport buses, going from LAX to downtown.

Getting stuck in traffic going to Los Angeles International Airport is the bane of all Angelinos, but getting stuck in traffic, sirens blaring, on your way to a devastating medical scene has to be a special level of hell. "

or; Christopher gets injured and asks Buck for what he really wants.

(read on ao3)

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happy 120k!

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No one, and I mean no one, will ever be more fond of Buck & his yapping than Eddie “Heart Eyes” Diaz 🥹

Also on a completely unrelated note, Eddie to Chris about his late wife: “To be honest, she did most of the talking. I was just happy to be near her.”

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Bobby + Looking at His Kid Buck

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I think the reason Eddie was cool with Tommy but suddenly dropped him after he starts dating Buck isn't because he dislikes Tommy or even jealous. Because jealousy usually comes from a place of insecurity, and I don't think Eddie would doubt the foundation of that relationship.

For all of Buck's partners, I think it just comes from the fact that Eddie thinks that no one deserves Buck but especially these people because they don't even know how to treat him the way he deserves and that's why he is unsurprised and supportive when he gets broken up with.

Like in s2x01, Eddie doesn't know Buck, but he hears how Abby dumped him and he's still in denial living in her apartment. He throws it in Buck's face when Buck and he clash. But in the train derailment episode? Eddie does not like her at all, as is well established. Season 2 Eddie had been there for the immediate aftermath but Season 3 calls Buck his best friend and loves him with with whole heart.

The only time we see him actively jealous though is with Taylor Kelly which 1) he is a private person who doesn't like cameras 2) he is allowed to be jealous of her being Buck's friend 3) he is protective of the 118. When Buck and Taylor do start dating, it moves from jealousy to you're not good enough for Buck and I won't let you hurt him.

That's why I think Eddie's reaction at Buck saying Natalia 'sees him' is confusion because Eddie's the one filling in the gaps. Oh Buck goes to the zoo with Chris a lot, The whole hospital convo with Tommy, Buck, and Eddie where Eddie completes Buck's sentences. Buck memorized fun facts about disasters. And so he rightfully doubts Buck could meet someone who can match Eddie in that regard (except Maddie).

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There’s always a lingering question that I ask myself, which is why do I, a cis bisexual woman, enjoy romance between two men so much?  

There are easy answers, like that it’s just fetishizing.  And like, I find men attractive, yes.  But I also find women attractive.  I don’t have a problem with enjoying het romance, assuming I can find good ones.  I enjoy stories with female characters I can relate to.

But there’s something much deeper at play, IMO.  A friend of mine who is a gender studies professor was the first person to point this out to me, but a lot of women enjoy m/m romance and gay porn because of the lack of women.  It removes a source of pressure and sexism.  Without any women present, you don’t have to constantly evaluate the sexism of their portrayal, or be reminded of negative experiences in your own life.  It allows women to experience romance and especially sexuality without all the baggage that comes with it in our patriarchal society.

This was recently illustrated to me rather dramatically.  I read a recommendation for a het romance.  And it sounded cute, and came highly recommended.  The tropes at play were fun.  Until I read a snippet and realized this was a romance between a woman and her boss.  I had a visceral negative reaction.  

Instantly I’m thinking of sexual harassment stories I’ve read and heard from other women. I’m thinking of how uncomfortable it would be to have your boss develop feelings for you.  How icky the power dynamics would be, etc.  

And then I realized…this wouldn’t bother me if it were two men.  Now, there’s no logical reason for that.  Sexual harassment is just as wrong when its object is a man.  But I know I’ve read fics with a similar premise and never thought about it.  Because when it’s two men I can accept this is just a light romance, a fantasy, meant to be fun and sexy and not to represent the real world.

But I can’t when it’s a het relationship.  There’s too much baggage there.  Too much societal history of abuse.  I can’t relax enough with the premise to enjoy that story.  

Now some people can.  And that’s fine.  And some people are never going to be okay with power imbalances like that regardless of gender.  That’s also fine.  I don’t think having either reaction makes one morally superior.  It’s okay to just enjoy light entertainment for what it is without going into deep analysis.

But it’s much more difficult for me, and I think for many women, to relax and enjoy romantic and sexual stories when they involve female characters.  We’ve been burned too many times by shitty depictions, by shallow role models, by abuse portrayed as romantic.  We have developed a stress response, a trauma response to heterosexual romance.  We are hyper-reactive to a wide variety of triggers in regards to it.   But removing women from the equation makes stories safer for us.  And maybe it shouldn’t?  In an ideal world?  But for many of us, that’s the truth.

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Buddie canon when??? And more importantly: Christopher Diaz, please go home dude.

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Just noticed that in “Confessions”, Eddie tells Father Brian that he lied to “my son, my best friend and my girlfriend”.

Because clearly, that is the prioritization anyone would make.

Right?

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No one, and I mean no one, will ever be more fond of Buck & his yapping than Eddie “Heart Eyes” Diaz 🥹

Also on a completely unrelated note, Eddie to Chris about his late wife: “To be honest, she did most of the talking. I was just happy to be near her.”

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9-1-1 Season 3, Episode 10, "Christmas Spirit"

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In your HCs, does Chrsopher eventually call Buck dad/papa/papi/pops or the like?

How does Chris react when Buck and Eddie first get together and tell him that they are an item?

I think Chris, in my head anyway, pretty much always just calls buck buck but at a certain point of the Buckley-Diaz dynamic becoming romantic he does acknowledge that he sees Buck as a father-type figure and cares for him as such. I just think he's always been Chris' buck and neither one of them would really want that to change even if buck goes from Dad's Bestie Who's Kind of Parental In Some Ways to Step Dad Who Can't Just Be Fun Buck All The Time or whatever.

I think, like, my answer would have been different prior to everything that happened in 7b going into 8a, but I do think he might be a little hesitant. Like I do think he'll know that Buck and Eddie have a Different Relationship than either Eddie and Shannon or Eddie and either Ana or Marisol, but after everything I can see Chris being a bit like okay I'm glad you're happy and if Buck makes you happy that's good for me, but what happens if you break up, does that mean I'll never see Buck again? Because I never saw Ana or Marisol again, and when Buck and Tommy broke up I never saw Tommy again, so what happens if you and Buck break up. And obviously Eddie is like well that won't happen, it's me and Buck!!! But you know. I can just see Chris being a bit like. nervous about losing Buck, who's literally been there for half of his entire life at this point and who he's gone through some really horrific traumatic life events with. I think it'd be really really interesting to explore. But, obviously, eventually he's okay with it and he's happy for them and Buck's always been there anyway.

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Not to dampen the mood but am I the only one who saw last night not as a step closer to Buddie but the first phase of separating them? Like, make Eddie transfer to Lone Star or something stupid like that? Maybe I‘m just too traumatized from my countless queerbaiting fandoms, but I‘m just really worried over here.