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it IS spooky season. to me.

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bound to the weave

when i catch you mystra. (also gale is my muse now?? anyway this is my fav digital piece i’ve ever done, tried a new palette and finally found a brush set i love. i’m pretty proud of it.)

also i’ve never posted my art on tumblr…

if you’d like to share it, that would be great! please link back to this page or my instagram, and i kindly ask it not be reposted on pinterest.

dividers by @uzmacchiato

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This was news from thee newscast here (Tagesschau) so the article is only in German but here my favourite parts:

- for a long time the only reason they knew the worm existed were the traces it left on the corals it ate, no one ever saw it

- until one day they found a one point five metre long part of the worm that was still wiggling

- only the part was missing the head, and the corals continued to be eaten, so apparently the worm just got rid of its bum and continued on like normal

- DNA tests of the bum could not determine its species, only that it is in some way related to the bobbit worm (also called eunice aphroditois), so this might be an entirely new species

- the worm is called 'Phantom'

- they installed cameras for four days, but didn't manage to capture the worm, after removing the cameras the worm continued eating the corals - right where the cameras had been

- the guy who positioned the camera said to that 'Lots of material, sadly extremly little worm, as in neither a long nor the short worm. We haven't seen anything.'

- now they have installed a camera again and a popular german news channel is streaming the whole night so that everyone can search for Phantom:

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Vere doodle I did months ago on whiteboard (ft. Goofy looking ahh Ais)

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Projecting my irl nat1 onto Karlach sorry

act 2 revelations

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“do you think you’ll still be writing fanfic when you’re 90?” yes, I do, and I hope AO3 is still here with me when I’m a 90 year old childless fanfic writer who writes slow burn dead dove do not eat dubcon gay sex enemies to lovers. next

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honestly people think homestuck's allure and specialty is its subversive meta nature but frankly theres much much better examples of narrative metatextual subversiveness in other medias (house of leaves etc) but i honestly believe that it is rather homestuck's ability to build a narrative that requires respect to the digital format its created and presented through. this is partly why homestuck is in an undead meta narrative due to its poorly handled archival.

we notice when part of the story dies, when the switch from flash to html5 severed some of the archival, same with the flashes being turned to video. when it is transferred to paper, we lose SWATHS of the story through gifs and animations and games and music, and that is often why it is treated as a commentary sidepiece to the main digital story. its collective creative nature is deeply binding to the online experience and the grief of loss of digital spaces.

homestuck is a comic built on irony, and of course i think its ironic the story that humanizes the creative indie collaboration of the internet is slowly being snuffed out by corporate cannibalization of digital spaces. it makes me miss my internet friends. it makes me want to protect the online as something sacred.

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dont piss me off. next time you go on a trip im filling your house with galapagos finches. by the time you return, they've evolved to fill your niche. they're a better spouse to your partner. they're a better parent for your child. and? they're a better friend to me than you ever were.

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homestuck if it was written by vivziepop

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as a californian i do unfortunately have to say that i fuck with the rhcp the long way actually

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something about how censorship and capitalism are so closely intertwined. that the slow push of right-wing conservative ideals are closely mirrored by corporate rebranding. how fast fashion restyles "femininity" into ever-more-modest aesthetics. how sydney sweeney can say my jeans are blue in a re-formatting of an advertisement that originally featured a child; but meanwhile corporations are halting DEI initiatives in their tracks.

but okay. i can't say fuck in my instagram poetry, that's fine. it always bothers me when a content creator changes their closed captions to a different word - HOH/deaf communities aren't composed of infants, and can read a swear word without fainting. but you have to censor if you don't want to get shadowbanned.

can't make a video about a person who is being violent, abusive. but the president of the united states can literally say whatever he wants, forever. you can't even really say that you think the president is a pedophile - pedophile is a word that the AI will flag.

marx wrote about how capitalism alienates us from ourselves and from others. social media continues to enhance that alienation, and now there is another layer happening - one where The Corporation gets to decide how we talk/think/interact. (don't even fucking get me started on how tumblr loves to see trans people as a threat.)

books are getting published that include the "word" unalive. this gives you a strange disassociation for a moment; feeling like 1984 exists in the real life. is this for maximum profit? but also - who could possibly be seeking out a book where violence takes place but is also the type of person who does not want to name the violence? is that even a significant portion of society - someone who wants to read the hunger games but, like, without all the child killing and anti-capitalist critique. or maybe, who knows. that fucking post about how disco elysium should be about a witch.

you watch as the late night show gets cancelled because god forbid anyone critique The Corporation. in the past year, you've watched media slowly back down from "making a stand" into bland everybody-wins gruel. you've watched plenty of corporations switch from saying (in rainbow font) "we'll always protect our FAMILY" to saying, "we value differences, but you're not a right fit for our team". in job interviews, HR is forced to talk around their policy, not wanting to specifically say identity. it's eerie.

one of the first rules of resisting fascism is "do not obey in advance."

and what is the next step anyway? will ticketmaster stop selling tickets for concerts that use swear words? will mastercard no longer cover art sales for any form of nudity, regardless of the context? god forbid there be violence in your violent video games. god forbid a person interacts with anything, ever, that might make them uncomfortable in any small way.

it reminds me of how the rest of life has also become less colorful (literally). how you need to keep your car pristine and undamaged with no bumper stickers, what if you resell it. how you'll never afford a house, so your apartment is a palatable resell-value grey. how you don't even own the tv you enjoy.

it's just - it's not enough that capitalism controls what i eat and where i go and what i do. these days, the terrible white & bloated body of capitalism is shoving his hands down my throat and holding my tongue. i need to be a brand, somehow. i, as a person existing on this site, need to reflect the brand ideals of this site.

they need to make a buck off of me, somehow.

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Sun’s up!

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didn’t know there was a chemistry between me n him til i saw his wallet with cash in it

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Emily Dickinson, from a letter to Otis P. Lord, featured in The Letters of Emily Dickinson

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strange things go down in the sticks

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Neuschwanstein Castle, Germany (by lewek Gnos)