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[natahlie]

okay i finally got everything that i needed to get done done, but if i missed something or you just want to write something i'm here <3

feeling pretty proud of myself so i'm going to treat myself to the rest of my chocolate bar !

[natahlie]

they warn you about this in school, in grad, hell in every step of becoming a nurse. they teach you how to handle it, how to process as best as they can in a simple setting. you just never expect it to be you, like you're special or impenetrable which is possibly the stupidest thing ever she realizes as she's sat in the floor, shock and surprise laying over her shoulders like an unwanted and too heavy blanket.

" oh, you're here. " the words are spoken before she can realize them as she looks into his eyes, seeing an anger she's unfamiliar with and if it were anyone else but jack, she would be backing away but instead she shakes her head, wincing at the pain which she's sure is a broken nose and hopefully not a concussion, " i'm not telling you that, won't end well. " her voice muffled by her hands over her nose, sleeves under her scrubbed stained with blood as gentle hands nudge them aside.

@natahlie  gets  this  plotted  devastating  thing  we  discussed  based  on  this  meme!

violence  against  healthcare  workers  is  a  nationwide  crisis.  they've  all  riffed  off  that  line  a  thousand  times,  and  pretty  much  every  staff  member  in  the  pitt  has  been  assaulted  by  an  unruly,  unhappy,  or  unstable  patient.  even  him.  jack's  just  been  dreading  the  day  that  it's  natalie's  turn.  it  comes  and  he's  a  thousand  times  less  collected  about  it  than  even  he  anticipated  being.  jack  always  protects  the  nurses,  PAs,  staff  members,  transport  team,  and  ducklings,  he  always  puts  himself  in  between  them  and  the  danger.  he's  not  quick  enough  this  time,  though,  can't  get  to  south  16  with  enough  haste.  instead,  jack  hears  about  it  from  donnie.  he  finds  her  bloodied  and  drops  to  a  knee,  hands  holding  her  jaw.  thumbs  press  her  cheek  bones,  inspecting  for  facial  fractures.  ❝  which  patient  was  it,  nat?  tell  me.━donnie,  get  ahmaud.  ❞  he's  insistent  on  security.  examines  her  neck,  her  eyes.  his  eyes,  though,  have  darkened  with  a  protective  glaze. 

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between both their schedules it's hard sometimes to find moments like this, soft and easy like they've done it a hundred times before and they'll do it a hundred times before. she laughs, fondness lacing the happy sound, " just read it before, probably wasn't a good idea after a shift, "

she leans happily into the kiss, having missed him, even missed the taste of bad coffee, familiar in its taste that will ridiculously remind her of him and when he pulls back, she leans her forehead against his, " how was your shift ? "

sender kisses receiver to say good morning.

she doesn't know what she finds comfortable about the floor, but it's always been a comfort spot for her .. still she doesn't mean to fall asleep, face tucked away in the crease of one of her books. she expects to wake up to a stiff neck and a quiet apartment, but instead there's a press of soft lips against her cheek and she stretches with a stuttered yawn, a sleepy smile lighting up her features with softness as she tilts her head up to see @x32142 knelt down next to her and she stretches up this time to meet him in a kiss highlighted by too early morning light, " missed you, "

[natahlie]

okay i've hit the muse well for natalie, i'm really sorry i promise i'll write tonight because i don't have work tomorrow and doing some chores always gives me muse for some reason <3

thank you all for understanding, you're the best around <3 you can always find me on disco or ims i love talking to all of you <3

[natahlie]

okay had to clean up some of natalie's timeline, but it's all good and clear now !

consider this a plotting call because i haven't written with a lot of you nearly enough and you're all so talented i would love to <3

[natahlie]

natalie admittedly was not the best at picking out wines, especially the nicer wines because her parents had always kept it out of her reach, enjoyed their nights out separate from each other and definitely separate from natalie herself, but the girl behind the desk had been very helpful .. and very cute which was what probably led her to to buy a wine just based by the cute label .. she's not surprised serena holds out what is sure to be a lovely glass and she laughs a litte,

" i don't think i've ever actually had anything with dragonfruit, " she follows serena's directions with ease, sniffing and catching a lovely and bright scent before taking a sip, dipping her glass back, " that's actually really good, definitely not goat wine.

natalie's sprawled out on the floor, books spread around her and sure, she's already taken her tests and she's not due until next year, but well she's never been one to back down from some studying especially when its something she cares about. she doesn't realize how wrapped up she's become until a glass of wine and a burrito are waved in front of her face .. there's just a few moments between their appearance and her dragging herself up to happily grab them,

" is this the wine i picked out with the cute goat on the label ? the girl at the shop said she really liked it. "

.. @wihlted

[natahlie]

who  did  this  to  you  ?

she scolds herself for jumping at his voice because jay is a good man, someone you can trust with ease, but still she finds herself flinching from her curled up position in the stairwell. it's not that she's hiding ( except that she is ) , but she hadn't expected anyone to find her at least not for a few moments so she could gather herself back up again.

his footsteps grow closer towards her before @x51163 settles down next to her and natalie resumes her curled up position, finger shaped bruised arms wrapped around her knees, " it was no one .. just a scared patient waiting for psych to come get him. he was just scared and i was there. he - he didn't mean it. "

[natahlie]

good morning good morning !! hope everyone is enjoying their day and staying safe in this hot weather <3 i have a few chores to get done at work and then i should be here ! you can also find me on disco or ims !!

remember i adore you all and i'm so proud of you <3

[natahlie]

send  “  who  did  this  to  you  ?  ”  for  the  sender  to  find  the  receiver  injured  and  demand  to  know  who  did  it.

[natahlie]

okay i got all of natalie's inbox done, i have four drafts left and i'm going to save those for later <3 love you all and catch me on nina if you'd like <3

[natahlie]

flower, sender gives receiver a flower.

she's halfway through a shift, working on charting in what was thankfully a q-word hour when she spots the familiar face of @x32142 entering the er and she feels a tired smile curve her lips, dimples peeking out as a coffee is slid her way and she grabs at it with quick hands, but it's the flower that's held out to her next that has her quickly setting the coffee down to take it between gentle fingers, " how'd you know i needed this ? "

[natahlie]

sender kisses receiver to say good morning.

she doesn't know what she finds comfortable about the floor, but it's always been a comfort spot for her .. still she doesn't mean to fall asleep, face tucked away in the crease of one of her books. she expects to wake up to a stiff neck and a quiet apartment, but instead there's a press of soft lips against her cheek and she stretches with a stuttered yawn, a sleepy smile lighting up her features with softness as she tilts her head up to see @x32142 knelt down next to her and she stretches up this time to meet him in a kiss highlighted by too early morning light, " missed you, "

[natahlie]

a peek at what's inside their.... + 26

natalie actually has quite a few playlists because she used music to fill the quiet of her two houses. she uses all of them quite a bit depending on what she's feeling and what she needs, but in her main verse it's a playlist she made with both incredibly soft songs and incredibly loud songs that she shuffles back and forth between depending on what she needs in the moment .. it's definitely her most creative playlist.

[natahlie]

uncle jack wants to see 19, 20, and 21 :)

⁽ sms .. uncle jack / @gobagx ⁾ .. asked if he wanted to come taste test her newest recipe ⁽ sms .. elle / @shesdaylight ⁾ .. sent her a photo of a dog she got to play with outside of the hospital ⁽ sms .. mel ⁾ .. told her she was saving her extra fries in the cafeteria ⁽ sms .. dr. robby ⁾ .. apologizing because she was running late because the subway had stalled ⁽ sms .. john / @dunkies ⁾ .. sent him a picture of his favorite coffee that she was bringing him on her day off

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natalie keeps staples in her fridge just because she's used to it since she did a lot of grocery shopping once her parents thought she was old enough. she also keeps ice cream in her freezer, always has a stash of juice , flavor depends on what she's feeling. she also keeps pop-tarts because she's usually craving them after a shift and she keeps them in the fridge because she likes a cold pop tart okay ??

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honestly, the only reason she has a home safe is because of jack, who impressed upon her the importance of keeping certain things safe no matter what happened. she keeps important documents in it, the one happy picture she has with her parents shortly after her birth, and a small go-bag with a few essentials in it.

[natahlie]

flower, sender gives receiver a flower.

she just needs a breather. everything was okay in the end, her patient is safe and recovering with his family by his side not having to live with a terrible grief that sometimes no amount of time can heal. she doesn't have to tear their life apart with just a few words that will nothing and everything to them.

but for a few terrible moments it wasn't, it wasn't okay, it felt like the end and she just needs to breathe. natalie doesn't even register the footsteps until someone sits by her side and she looks up to see john with a sympathetic smile .. and a flower held out in her direction. it's simple and sweet, a beautiful flower really and she accepts with still slightly shaking fingers, dipping her head to breathe in the sweetness and subtle smell of grass that somehow makes it easier to breathe in and out. an appreciative smile curves her lips as she looks at @dunkies.

" thank you. i .. umm .. i really needed this. you're sweet. "

[natahlie]

sign, sender walks into a sign and receiver sees.

she's tired, hair half hanging out of a messy bun and she's pretty sure her scrub top is turned inside out, but she's too tired to care ... especially after a day like today. a day where she feels the bad outweighs the good, where no matter how much she tries its not enough. footsteps echo towards her and she looks up to see john, opening her mouth to call out a warning before he knocks right into a cart, tripping over his own two feet barely catching himself before he hits the ground.

natalie finds herself running over to @dunkies before she's even aware of it, putting a hand on his back, waiting for an assurance that he's okay and once she gets a nod she can't help the laugh that bubbles up, trying to stifle it but it's near impossible, " i'm sorry, it's just .. it's been a long day, didn't mean to laugh at you. "

[natahlie]

[ KISSING BOOTH ] for my muse to be manning the kissing booth

a day like today feels like one of those carnivals she always wanted to go to as a kid, the ones her parents always said they would take her to only for something to always come up. there's cotton candy, games and even a kissing booth which she's not surprised john volunteered for .. what's surprising is she finds herself in line for it. it's not that she doesn't trust john, far from it, he might honestly be the only reason she's in line for it, it's just .. a kissing booth and embarassingly she can't remember the last time she kissed anybody,

" guess we're about to get real close, " she jokes, an almost nervous, almost excited laugh following her words before a hand wraps around hers tugging her close and .. and he tastes like cotton candy and too sweet lemonade, the kiss is soft and quick and she finds herself lingering, forehead nearly pressed to his before she realizes where she is and pulls away suddenly, " definitely picked out the right guy for the kissing booth. "

natalie means to lace a tease into her words, but it falls away quick and she feels a blush creep into her cheeks as she looks at @dunkies, " i .. uh .. promised mel i would meet her at the ferris wheel, should probably hurry over there. " and she practically trips away towards the direction of the ferris wheel hoping magically mel will pop up there, all sweet smile and comforting presence.