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This will be my last post tumblr. This picture of my feet was taken by the most amazing girl In the world. When I first met her we fell for eachother at first sight. We went back and fourth on facebook and we shared many laughs and we made many memories. Through out the year and a half we spent together. We did so many things together. she was really my partner in crime. We did so many things together like gone to the movies. stayed home and watch movies. I remember falling asleep while we snuggled at her house when Her parents said 11pm was my time to go. id fall asleep and wake up at 4am at her house. and shed still be asleep. Id kiss her on her forehead and tuck her in before i snuk out. then the next day shed be mad at me for not waking her up. but how could I do it, she looked like an angel asleep. Shes the first girl ive ever fallen inlove with. I lost my virginity to her and im proud of it. We hung out litterly everyday one time we sat in a field for an hour and 45 mins looking for four leaf clovers. and one time we tried to move a rock that weight over a ton. I love her and am still inlove with her. but towards the last months. I made mistake. I let her go. Thinkingg that i didnt want to ruin her life by having her chase a dreamer. I thought I wanted to meet someone new. but i didnt know I made the worst mistake of my life and i would give anything to take it back. I was so frustrated with the thoughts of losing her that I pushed her away. I hurt her. Shes moved on. I know I will never meet anyone like her ever again and I really dont want to because then she wouldnt be as special as she is. You have to hold on to the special things we have because good things do go. Thats why we have to appreciate them while we have them. That fake rose you see. we ran from her house to mine in the rain while my house was like 8 blocks away i picked her that rose on the way thinking it wass a real rose and we tried to break off the stem to shorten it. I told her the cheesy "Ill love you until this rose dies." but well that rose will never die. Now im here regretting every bad thing Ive done, hurting. waking up to dreams about her, still hearing her in my head. sometimes when i lick my lips I feel like I can taste hers. I lost a big piece of me.. and tumblr this is my last post ever. bye

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The more you suffer, the more it shows you really care

Spades

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We'll sweep their bitches of their feet.

Attila

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Wow

She doesn't see that her so called "Friends" are trying flirt with me

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I love my hair<3

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