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DIE WITH A SMILE - MARK LEE

003. 비로소 내 세상이 되어줘

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written 1.28k word count

The air was electric with excitement as you , Vi ,Seojun and Minji approached the lavish venue where Somi’s listening party was being held. Colorful lights twinkled around the polished space, and a low hum of chatter wrapped around her like a cozy blanket. Spotting familiar faces from the K-pop scene mingling, laughing, and enjoying the evening. It was overwhelming, yet thrilling.

“That’s fucking mingyu from seventeen..” seojun calls out , group collectively gawking in awe at the guy from far away. Slowly maneuvering through the crowd, still trying to find their footing. You finally caught sight of Somi.

“Y/N!” Somi called, her voice cutting through the clamor. She rushed over, her signature bright smile illuminating the room. “I’ve been looking for you guys! welcome”

“Hey! The place is amazing,” you say, returning the smile, trying to shake off the nerves of being around so many people.

“I’m so glad you came! But I wanted you to meet someone,” Somi said excitedly, her eyes sparkling. “there’s a good friend of mine I met when I moved here , and he’s actually Canadian too! I thought you guys would hit it off.”

Heart sinking at the thought. “Um, I don’t know, Somi. I’m not really great at talking to new people. What if he hits on me?” You cringed, recalling your long awkward past experiences with guys—the blushing, the stammering, and the overall feeling of going through the awkward process of making friends.

“Y/N, come on! It’s just a friendly meetup. I promise he’s cool. If anything, he’s probably more interested in the music than anything else,” Somi reassured her, a playful glint in her eye. “Now, let’s go!”

Before you could object further, Somi took your hand , telling your friend group that’s you’d be back in a minute and dragged you through the crowd, weaving through groups of animated guests. heart racing, half-anticipating and half-dreading what was about to unfold. Just as you both reached a quieter area near the back of the venue, Somi turned to face her.

“Alright, so! Y/N, meet my good friend—”

But just as Somi’s sentence left her lips, time seemed to freeze. Your eyes landed on the guy standing there, and everything outside of the moment became a blur. The world around you faded away, leaving only the piercing gaze of the man in front of you.

Mark.

Finding it hard to breathe as your breath seemingly caught in your throat as you locked eyes, and for a heartbeat, it felt as if the universe colluded to draw only the two of you into its orbit. His features were sharper now, more defined, but everything about him was achingly familiar. Those eyes—his big brown sparkling eyes , his smirk like smile that always made you laugh cause he wouldn’t show his teeth , his now longer dark hair that swept over his face —made her heart race, but also filled her with a gnawing sense of hurt because those very same eyes she was looking into didn’t recognize her like she did him.

“Mark? Here?” She says in almost a whisper.

Memories flooded her mind in an overwhelming rush: the promises they had made beneath that old oak tree, the laughter they shared, the way things had once felt so simple. And then, like a sharp blade, came the recollection of his sudden disappearance from her life—no word, no explanation, just silence. She had watched from the sidelines as he soared into the spotlight, her heart aching with every success he achieved without her.

“What… what is happening?” You thought, stepping backward instinctively, disbelief rendering you anchored to the spot in front of him.

Somi’s voice faded into the background as you tried to process the whirlwind of emotions crashing over you like waves against a rocky shore. Mark stood there, just a few feet away, seemingly just as taken aback. His expression shifted between confusion and a flicker of recognition, as if he too was grappling with this surreal twist of fate. Finally realizing who he was looking at.

“What are you doing here?” you finally managed to whisper, unable to mask the surprise in your voice. The thought had never crossed your mind that you would see him, not here, not now—not like this.

As Somi instinctively sensed the weight of the atmosphere shift, she quietly stepped back, leaving them in their own world. She was off to prepare for the party, feeling the electric tension trailing behind her.

Mark opened his mouth as if to say something, but no words came. His gaze held hers firmly, filled with unspoken questions. When did it become so complicated? How had you both landed on opposite ends of a path that had once seemed like a straight line?

Your heart raced, a mixture of anger, sadness, and the flicker of something else you were too afraid to name. You couldn't shake the feeling that he was seeing you, really seeing you for the first time in years. Just as you gathered her strength to confront him, to demand answers, the world around you both blurred back into existence.

Mark stepped forward, his brow furrowed with concern. “Y/N,” he said softly, voice tinged with the warmth and familiarity that made the memories flood her mind all over again. “I didn’t expect to see you here.”

“That makes two of us,” you reply, fighting the wave of emotions threatening to surge within yourself. Trusting this moment felt terrifying.

“I gotta go” disappearing into the crowd , you left him alone with his thoughts.

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Note : im not too proud of this I don’t think my English is so good 😭 I hope you enjoy :3

tags (open) : @bugshideaway @dudekiss3r @revlada @kittydollzz @mmjhh1998 @docilismo @doughyk

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DIE WITH A SMILE - MARK LEE

003. 비로소 내 세상이 되어줘

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written 1.28k word count

The air was electric with excitement as you , Vi ,Seojun and Minji approached the lavish venue where Somi’s listening party was being held. Colorful lights twinkled around the polished space, and a low hum of chatter wrapped around her like a cozy blanket. Spotting familiar faces from the K-pop scene mingling, laughing, and enjoying the evening. It was overwhelming, yet thrilling.

“That’s fucking mingyu from seventeen..” seojun calls out , group collectively gawking in awe at the guy from far away. Slowly maneuvering through the crowd, still trying to find their footing. You finally caught sight of Somi.

“Y/N!” Somi called, her voice cutting through the clamor. She rushed over, her signature bright smile illuminating the room. “I’ve been looking for you guys! welcome”

“Hey! The place is amazing,” you say, returning the smile, trying to shake off the nerves of being around so many people.

“I’m so glad you came! But I wanted you to meet someone,” Somi said excitedly, her eyes sparkling. “there’s a good friend of mine I met when I moved here , and he’s actually Canadian too! I thought you guys would hit it off.”

Heart sinking at the thought. “Um, I don’t know, Somi. I’m not really great at talking to new people. What if he hits on me?” You cringed, recalling your long awkward past experiences with guys—the blushing, the stammering, and the overall feeling of going through the awkward process of making friends.

“Y/N, come on! It’s just a friendly meetup. I promise he’s cool. If anything, he’s probably more interested in the music than anything else,” Somi reassured her, a playful glint in her eye. “Now, let’s go!”

Before you could object further, Somi took your hand , telling your friend group that’s you’d be back in a minute and dragged you through the crowd, weaving through groups of animated guests. heart racing, half-anticipating and half-dreading what was about to unfold. Just as you both reached a quieter area near the back of the venue, Somi turned to face her.

“Alright, so! Y/N, meet my good friend—”

But just as Somi’s sentence left her lips, time seemed to freeze. Your eyes landed on the guy standing there, and everything outside of the moment became a blur. The world around you faded away, leaving only the piercing gaze of the man in front of you.

Mark.

Finding it hard to breathe as your breath seemingly caught in your throat as you locked eyes, and for a heartbeat, it felt as if the universe colluded to draw only the two of you into its orbit. His features were sharper now, more defined, but everything about him was achingly familiar. Those eyes—his big brown sparkling eyes , his smirk like smile that always made you laugh cause he wouldn’t show his teeth , his now longer dark hair that swept over his face —made her heart race, but also filled her with a gnawing sense of hurt because those very same eyes she was looking into didn’t recognize her like she did him.

“Mark? Here?” She says in almost a whisper.

Memories flooded her mind in an overwhelming rush: the promises they had made beneath that old oak tree, the laughter they shared, the way things had once felt so simple. And then, like a sharp blade, came the recollection of his sudden disappearance from her life—no word, no explanation, just silence. She had watched from the sidelines as he soared into the spotlight, her heart aching with every success he achieved without her.

“What… what is happening?” You thought, stepping backward instinctively, disbelief rendering you anchored to the spot in front of him.

Somi’s voice faded into the background as you tried to process the whirlwind of emotions crashing over you like waves against a rocky shore. Mark stood there, just a few feet away, seemingly just as taken aback. His expression shifted between confusion and a flicker of recognition, as if he too was grappling with this surreal twist of fate. Finally realizing who he was looking at.

“What are you doing here?” you finally managed to whisper, unable to mask the surprise in your voice. The thought had never crossed your mind that you would see him, not here, not now—not like this.

As Somi instinctively sensed the weight of the atmosphere shift, she quietly stepped back, leaving them in their own world. She was off to prepare for the party, feeling the electric tension trailing behind her.

Mark opened his mouth as if to say something, but no words came. His gaze held hers firmly, filled with unspoken questions. When did it become so complicated? How had you both landed on opposite ends of a path that had once seemed like a straight line?

Your heart raced, a mixture of anger, sadness, and the flicker of something else you were too afraid to name. You couldn't shake the feeling that he was seeing you, really seeing you for the first time in years. Just as you gathered her strength to confront him, to demand answers, the world around you both blurred back into existence.

Mark stepped forward, his brow furrowed with concern. “Y/N,” he said softly, voice tinged with the warmth and familiarity that made the memories flood her mind all over again. “I didn’t expect to see you here.”

“That makes two of us,” you reply, fighting the wave of emotions threatening to surge within yourself. Trusting this moment felt terrifying.

“I gotta go” disappearing into the crowd , you left him alone with his thoughts.

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Note : im not too proud of this I don’t think my English is so good 😭 I hope you enjoy :3

tags (open) : @bugshideaway @dudekiss3r @revlada @kittydollzz @mmjhh1998 @docilismo @doughyk

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“porque o rosto e a pele sobre a carne, o que são enfim, uma cobertura, um disfarce, um blush para o horror insuportável da nossa natureza viva.”　───　rouge, mona awad.

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DIE WITH A SMILE - MARK LEE a smau by nayeonzz

002. thinking about you

“love refers to the fragility of the human heart. It suggests that the heart can be hurt by life's hardships and may harden as people age. In their search for peace, individuals may seek something to rest their tired hearts. They can find this peace within their sanctuary, their lover. Once they do, the whole world is in their hands.”

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Note : i didn’t know somis real name was ennik till like this morning LMAOO but im feeling next chapter is just gonna be a filler till the drama starts 😋

taglist : @bugshideaway @dudekiss3r @revlada @kittydollzz @mmjhh1998 @docilismo @doughyk

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DIE WITH A SMILE - MARK LEE a smau by nayeonzz

002. thinking about you

“love refers to the fragility of the human heart. It suggests that the heart can be hurt by life's hardships and may harden as people age. In their search for peace, individuals may seek something to rest their tired hearts. They can find this peace within their sanctuary, their lover. Once they do, the whole world is in their hands.”

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Note : i didn’t know somis real name was ennik till like this morning LMAOO but im feeling next chapter is just gonna be a filler till the drama starts 😋

taglist : @bugshideaway @dudekiss3r @revlada @kittydollzz @mmjhh1998 @docilismo @doughyk

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DIE WITH A SMILE - MARK LEE a smau by nayeonzzz

001 : written in the stars

written , word count ; 930

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The sun hovered just above the horizon, casting a warm golden hue over the small suburban neighborhood where y/n and Mark spent their childhood. The air was thick with the sweet scent of blooming flowers, and the sounds of children playing echoed down the street—a soundtrack to their long-held dreams of eternity.

Mark adjusted his baseball cap, a mischievous grin plastered across his face. “I’ll race you to the top of the hill!” he shouted, taking off down the path that led to their secret spot—an ancient oak tree that stood guard over their childhood adventures. y/n followed, her laughter trailing behind like the flutter of a kite in the wind.

They reached the tree, breathless and giggling. Leaning against the sturdy trunk, Mark clasped y/n’s hand. “Promise me something,” he said, seriousness creeping into his tone. “No matter what happens, we’ll always find each other again. Even if life changes, no matter where we end up, we’ll come back. Deal?”

“Deal,” y/n affirmed, her heart swelling with a mix of confusion and affection. They were barely ten years old, but it felt like a vow that transcended time. In that moment, they felt invincible.

Time unfolded like a flower blooming in slow motion. Days turned into months, and months into years. Yet, their bond remained. Until the day he never came back.

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The afternoon sunlight streamed through Y/N's bedroom window, dust particles dancing in the warm air. She was sprawled on her bed, staring at the ceiling when her mom called her from downstairs. “y/n , come down for a minute!”

Groaning, y/n pushed herself up, She padded down the stairs, her curiosity piquing. As she rounded the corner into the living room, she froze.

The TV flickered to life, a music video blaring, the screen dominated by a group of boys energetically performing on stage. y/n’s eyes narrowed as she felt a strange tug in her heart. And then—

“Is that…?”

y/n’s breath hitched as she stared in disbelief. The boy at the forefront, effortlessly captivating the audience with his charm and skill, was Mark. He looked different—stylish and grown, but there was that familiar grin, the one that used to light up her entire world.

The wave of emotions hit her like a tidal wave. It was like the years apart had instantly condensed into this moment, flooding her with memories. All the times they’d spent together, laughing and dreaming of the future; their childhood promises echoed in her mind, bittersweet and haunting.

Before she even knew it, tears brimmed in her eyes. Not just from the happiness of seeing her best friend but from the sorrow of loss. How had they lost each other? Why hadn’t he come back when he said he would?

Suddenly, news anchors rushed in to inform viewers of the latest idol group to hit the K-pop scene, a new hit sensation named “NCT.” Mark was the lead dancer and rapper , adored by thousands, his life completely transformed while y/n stayed rooted in a time where they promised to never drift apart.

Distraught, y/n turned away from the screen. “Mom, why didn’t you tell me?” Her voice cracked, filled with hurt. “Why didn’t Mark come back?”

Her mother exchanged a knowing look with y/n recognizing the depths of her confusion and pain. “I thought he might… You were both so young. Sometimes, life takes us on different paths. He’s doing well, sweetheart.”

Something within y/n twisted painfully. “He never even said goodbye ...or anything , All those years... I stayed waiting for him. We were supposed to find each other..”

As the music video continued to play behind her, the joyful energy that radiated from the screen felt like a slap in the face. Rage bubbled within her, confusion morphing into a visceral ache. Mark had promised..?They were supposed to be inseparable, yet here he was—a star in a world that would never understand or allow their bond.

“I need a second.” she whispered, fleeing the room, the echo of laughter replaced by the hollow pangs of betrayal , hope and confusion consuming her. She left the tv—and the childhood she thought would last forever—behind.

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Y/N stood beneath the ancient oak tree later that night, the same place where it all began. The branches whispered secrets in the night breeze, and the stars twinkled overhead, but nothing felt right. All those promises felt like ashes in her mouth.

She clasped her hands tightly around a pendant necklace Mark had given her long ago—a small, silver star to always remind her to reach for her dreams. As she gazed up at the constellations, she made a silent vow. No matter how lost Mark had become in his new life, she would find a way to remind him of their promise, even if it meant traversing an entire world to do so.

Because while life may pull them apart, Y/N knew deep down that the threads connecting their hearts were woven too tightly to ever truly break.

“Mark,” she whispered to the stars, “wherever you are, I’ll always be waiting.”

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note : im changing up how i want this smau to go so , this is the official first chapter ! i hope you guys enjoy this :p ill get better at this with time since this is my first one !! i want it to be kinda like really emotional so it will be dramatic 😭💀

tags (open) : @bugshideaway @dudekiss3r @revlada @kittydollzz @mmjhh1998 @docilismo

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DIE WITH A SMILE - MARK LEE a smau by nayeonzzz

001 : written in the stars

written , word count ; 930

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The sun hovered just above the horizon, casting a warm golden hue over the small suburban neighborhood where y/n and Mark spent their childhood. The air was thick with the sweet scent of blooming flowers, and the sounds of children playing echoed down the street—a soundtrack to their long-held dreams of eternity.

Mark adjusted his baseball cap, a mischievous grin plastered across his face. “I’ll race you to the top of the hill!” he shouted, taking off down the path that led to their secret spot—an ancient oak tree that stood guard over their childhood adventures. y/n followed, her laughter trailing behind like the flutter of a kite in the wind.

They reached the tree, breathless and giggling. Leaning against the sturdy trunk, Mark clasped y/n’s hand. “Promise me something,” he said, seriousness creeping into his tone. “No matter what happens, we’ll always find each other again. Even if life changes, no matter where we end up, we’ll come back. Deal?”

“Deal,” y/n affirmed, her heart swelling with a mix of confusion and affection. They were barely ten years old, but it felt like a vow that transcended time. In that moment, they felt invincible.

Time unfolded like a flower blooming in slow motion. Days turned into months, and months into years. Yet, their bond remained. Until the day he never came back.

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The afternoon sunlight streamed through Y/N's bedroom window, dust particles dancing in the warm air. She was sprawled on her bed, staring at the ceiling when her mom called her from downstairs. “y/n , come down for a minute!”

Groaning, y/n pushed herself up, She padded down the stairs, her curiosity piquing. As she rounded the corner into the living room, she froze.

The TV flickered to life, a music video blaring, the screen dominated by a group of boys energetically performing on stage. y/n’s eyes narrowed as she felt a strange tug in her heart. And then—

“Is that…?”

y/n’s breath hitched as she stared in disbelief. The boy at the forefront, effortlessly captivating the audience with his charm and skill, was Mark. He looked different—stylish and grown, but there was that familiar grin, the one that used to light up her entire world.

The wave of emotions hit her like a tidal wave. It was like the years apart had instantly condensed into this moment, flooding her with memories. All the times they’d spent together, laughing and dreaming of the future; their childhood promises echoed in her mind, bittersweet and haunting.

Before she even knew it, tears brimmed in her eyes. Not just from the happiness of seeing her best friend but from the sorrow of loss. How had they lost each other? Why hadn’t he come back when he said he would?

Suddenly, news anchors rushed in to inform viewers of the latest idol group to hit the K-pop scene, a new hit sensation named “NCT.” Mark was the lead dancer and rapper , adored by thousands, his life completely transformed while y/n stayed rooted in a time where they promised to never drift apart.

Distraught, y/n turned away from the screen. “Mom, why didn’t you tell me?” Her voice cracked, filled with hurt. “Why didn’t Mark come back?”

Her mother exchanged a knowing look with y/n recognizing the depths of her confusion and pain. “I thought he might… You were both so young. Sometimes, life takes us on different paths. He’s doing well, sweetheart.”

Something within y/n twisted painfully. “He never even said goodbye ...or anything , All those years... I stayed waiting for him. We were supposed to find each other..”

As the music video continued to play behind her, the joyful energy that radiated from the screen felt like a slap in the face. Rage bubbled within her, confusion morphing into a visceral ache. Mark had promised..?They were supposed to be inseparable, yet here he was—a star in a world that would never understand or allow their bond.

“I need a second.” she whispered, fleeing the room, the echo of laughter replaced by the hollow pangs of betrayal , hope and confusion consuming her. She left the tv—and the childhood she thought would last forever—behind.

———————

Y/N stood beneath the ancient oak tree later that night, the same place where it all began. The branches whispered secrets in the night breeze, and the stars twinkled overhead, but nothing felt right. All those promises felt like ashes in her mouth.

She clasped her hands tightly around a pendant necklace Mark had given her long ago—a small, silver star to always remind her to reach for her dreams. As she gazed up at the constellations, she made a silent vow. No matter how lost Mark had become in his new life, she would find a way to remind him of their promise, even if it meant traversing an entire world to do so.

Because while life may pull them apart, Y/N knew deep down that the threads connecting their hearts were woven too tightly to ever truly break.

“Mark,” she whispered to the stars, “wherever you are, I’ll always be waiting.”

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note : im changing up how i want this smau to go so , this is the official first chapter ! i hope you guys enjoy this :p ill get better at this with time since this is my first one !! i want it to be kinda like really emotional so it will be dramatic 😭💀

tags (open) : @bugshideaway @dudekiss3r @revlada @kittydollzz @mmjhh1998 @docilismo

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i lowkey hate the way the first chapter was.. might redo it 👀

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party rocking in the house tonight 👹👅‼️😈💦

gc profiles 1: three failures

kang y/n : 🐭

blogger / YouTuber / model

Kim minju : 🐸

moral support / best friend

Park seojun : 🐷

freeloader / gay / ?? / dilf lover

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tags : @bugshideaway @dudekiss3r @revlada @kittydollzz @mmjhh1998 @docilismo

notes : IM SO NERVOUS TO PUBLISH THE FIRST CHAPTER AGHHHHHHHH.

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party rocking in the house tonight 👹👅‼️😈💦

gc profiles 1: three failures

kang y/n : 🐭

blogger / YouTuber / model

Kim minju : 🐸

moral support / best friend

Park seojun : 🐷

freeloader / gay / ?? / dilf lover

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tags : @bugshideaway @dudekiss3r @revlada @kittydollzz @mmjhh1998 @docilismo

notes : IM SO NERVOUS TO PUBLISH THE FIRST CHAPTER AGHHHHHHHH.

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DIE WITH A SMILE - MARK LEE a smau

summary : In a world where unspoken feelings linger like shadows, from childhood friends their memories of a love that never fully bloomed. Despite her heart's longing for her best friend , who one day disappears and never comes back until she sees him on tv.

Genre : fluff , crack , childhood friends to strangers to ?? , mean jokes / sex jokes , sad ending

Status : ongoing

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001 : written in the stars

002 : thinking about you

Taglist? : ask to be tagged

Notes : this is instead going to be my smau , not I loved you 😭 I lowkey lost my motivation and got sick of social media for a day min but im back WE UP 💪💪 , this one will be updated pretty frequently :0

PLEASE do not steal / copy or repost my work without credits and or permission! I’ve taken my own time and ideas to make this so I’d appreciate it if it could stay on my page only :3

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can i join taglist?

of course :))

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Nerdy enough?

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this is going to be me i fear

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cr: cherry tomato

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ch. 2: for the plot!

y/n had just gotten out of the pool before she saw mark walking back to his house from the direction of Jeno’s house, still clad in her frank ocean hoodie. Caught by surprise she had let out a dramatic gasp before slapping her hand across her mouth. Mark turned, squinting in her direction.

"y/n?" he called out, his voice a mix of surprise and curiosity.

y/n, feeling like a deer caught in headlights, seriously considered pretending she didn’t even hear him or even making a run for it. But before she could decide, Mark jogged over to her, closing the distance between them.

"Hey, I tried talking to you earlier but you kinda, uh, ran away?" he said, attempting to bridge the awkward gap with conversation. “Speaking of earlier, did you take a picture of me? You never responded to my text."

"Uh, never mind that. Were you ever planning on giving back my favorite hoodie?" she quickly deflected, trying to regain her composure.

Mark chuckled, looking down at the hoodie. "Haha, this is yours, isn't it?"

They stood there in awkward silence for a moment, until Mark noticed y/n nervously wringing her hands. His eyes widened as he recognized two of his rings on her fingers.

"Hey, are those my rings?" he asked, surprised that she still had them after all this time.

y/n glanced down at her hands, a smirk forming on her lips. "Oh yeah, don’t they look way better on me than they ever did on you?"

There it was—the y/n that Mark knew so well. Slightly mean, but in a cute, endearing way. He laughed, shaking his head. "Nah, totally keep them. I'll wash your hoodie first, then give it back. When's the next time I'm gonna run into you like this?"

"I don't know? Whenever you see me, I guess," y/n shrugged, already turning to walk away.

Mark watched her retreating figure, a chuckle escaping his lips. "See you around, y/n," he called after her, not knowing that it would be a lot sooner than later.

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notes… yall i’m so excited to write the next chapter 😭

taglist: @winwintea @baekstans

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