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𝐁𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐓𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐬

“It will be the best of the times.” 

Yes it will. From the step on the school’s floor to the step on stage of graduation. I will graduate with a diploma and show to my parents how proud i am.Senior High School has made me changed myself.A bunch of emotions that every student has experienced and so am i.  Those two years i’ve had gave me a valuable lessons and realizations.All the works that i have done from the chaos will never end but i’ll continue to fight for what is right and what is wrong.I will always cherish the precious memories in my heart and as a pioneer, i will not forget what did my school made me so special to have people that i have met from 2 years who made me so special and fully accepted from who i am.

I.

I stayed in my old school within 9 years with anxiety. All of those ended when i become a junior high school student.I had the worst anxiety last 2 years ago, I was a graduating student when i had that condition.It all started when i failed a subject and my adviser told me that i might be having summer class which made my mental health have a worst breakdown unexpectedly It took me 2-3 weeks without going to school.I’ve been locking myself in my room crying and screaming what will i do to myself I really wanted to hurt myself but i was too scared to do that even though i was already suicdal. I was really scared going back to school because I’ve been thinking about how people will accept me after i had this condition but my mom and my aunt really helped alot they called the school to seek for a help and they cooperated. In the end, i continued my journey and got my jhs diploma.

Last year, I’ve decided to move to another school which made me anxious again because of the surrounding.From 1st day to present my mom brings me to the school from 5:30am and i always appreciate that because all the works that she has done for me.I always do my priorities not only a student but also a daughter of her. A young daughter who has a mission to take care of her parents and it’s what they deserve.My dad is in abroad he goes home dependently from the company.Both of them gave their very best to make me feel better and happy and yes, i am happy and thankful that i have parents like them. 

When i first entered in my new school, my classmates were really different from my school.They were so genuine and friendly. I’ve never experienced having a section who biases someone to be in.But they considered everyone as their family and i felt that.We helped and understood each other. We shared our own stories openly. I will cherish them because they made me special and accepted from who i am and that’s one of the best things i wanted to experience they made it come true.

II.

Every student has a goal in life and it is to learn something more.As a normal person, i have duties or roles in my existence . I can be a daughter, a student,a worker or more and one of my goals is to learn and apply it in my daily life.Because once i’ve encountered those things that made me changed as a whole. I will tell it to my future kids what i have learned when i was in their stage too.Everything that surrounds us has something to tell us that we still don’t know and i take the responsibility to  analyze and discover it.Because as what the scientists said, our mind is the most powerful tool that we can use that’s why people invent things and we create things creatively because of our minds.

As a student, i have experienced procrastinating alot until now and i admit that i still have to change my time management because I usually panic at the time and i often sleep at 12-1 am. There were times i only had 30 minutes of sleep but i still have to wake up even though it was really short sleep because it will be wasteful efforts if i didn’t wake up and i usually commute whenever i go home.I have limitations i don’t usually use my time as a student but also give myself a leisure time to reduce stress.But also, i should limit myself from technology. Since the technology is a powerful source and discovery. We, ourselves should take the responsibility to manage how to use it in an advantageous way.

Because of limitations, I completed my requirements at a time with or without procrastination atleast you know your limits and how to handle it. Requirements aren’t that easy you should take efforts on it you shouldn’t rush it just for grades make it as an oppurtunity to express yourself from all the hardworks you will give to that requirement. Because not only in school but when you started working already.

III.

I’ve enountered alot of competent teachers since I moved in FEU-A and it was the best experience to have them as my professors because i learned more aboutthe things that i should care about specially in politics. They made me to realize that i shouldn’t be silent from all the situations that are happening now. Because in this generation, We are the future of change. Fight for what is right and what is wrong.

In this phase, I’m in graduating phase again,  It may be difficult for me because of the things i have encountered all the griefs and suffers that i’ve experienced my family and friends are there to help and support me.Although, I still what are the things that i will take in college and i’m still undecided about my course i have alot of options that i want to try and experience but i realized i have to follow my heart and what’s really my interest or something that i am really passionate about.My parents talked to me that they support my decisions and that’s the best feeling that i feel when I heard from my two ears that they accepted my decision.

I therefore conclude that all of these hardships that i have experienced will still continue to the future.Being a student will never be easy it’s part of your normal life as person. It is also a part of the challenge you’ll be facing until you reach your goal that you want to achieve.FEU-A gave me alot of precious memories that i have never experienced from my school and i am thankful that these people exist in my life and gave me a hope to change and find out my truly self.