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Lucas is like that one really excited little kid with add. Anyway I love him-

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I still miss you

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@sm don’t b a coward. go all the way. give jaehyun a crop top.

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joHNNY NO

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sometimes it’s just you n your emotional support kpop boy

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Because my post are about victims of violence & most of the tags are "rest in peace" your account popped up & I was surprised since I frckn love NCT💖 Hope you're doing well!

I’m alive! And thank you so much, that’s really kind of you and I’m happy you enjoy my blog!

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i honestly love your blog 🥰💛 and thats the tea ☕️☕️☕️

Omg omg I somehow never ever got a notification I love you so much you’re my first ever ask I’m hYPE wow thanks! I really like knowing that someone appreciates them, it makes me more motivated.

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Hello there!

I love and appreciate each and everyone of my followers, and I’m always open and eager for interaction of any sorts! Ask, chat or even just letting me know if you liked something, it’s always good for encouragement. No pressure, of course! I hope everyone is having a great day, and if not, I’m really sorry and I hope tomorrow is Better!

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Y’all my mom say how crushed I’ve been all year because of how much I loved and admired Jong-hyun so she looked him up and got me this moon that you can turn aqua I’m going to cry

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Lucas: I will not be awkward today

Jungwoo: hey!

Lucas: good, thanks.

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I’m trying to see things from your point of view, but I can’t stick my head that far up my ass.-Johnny seo

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Johnny: my goal for today is to move only enough so that people know I’m not dead.

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Haechan: always remember that you’re unique

Haechan: just like everyone else.

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Renjun: some people are like clouds. When they disappear, it’s a beautiful day.

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Jungwoo: life is short, smile. while you still have teeth.

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Tonight I light a candle for you, my role model, who inspired me to try. To try to live again, to try to be happy again because you never got to be. To try to be a better person and put my depression aside to better my relationship with my family. Who is quite possibly the only reason I haven’t yet joined him up there. I’m so so sorry. I love you, for all the good you did, you were and remain to be a wonderful person who I will emulate and miss for the rest of my life, I’m scared there will be a day that you don’t mean that to me, but for now and probably the rest of my life, I miss you, I love you, and I’m so sorry so many people failed you when you put so much love and support out for everyone.

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Not a day has gone by, where I haven’t thought of you.

You’ve always crossed my mind be it in the day or as I’m falling asleep. I still pray for you every night, hoping you’ve found your peace. And I’m so so sorry.

I remember on your birthday this year, I wrote to long pages of a letter to you while sobbing. Because you were and continue to be my role model, you were t just my ultimate bias, you are someone I emulate and hope to be like, I have had to take your poster down, because I couldn’t see it without crying, and Im not able to listen to your songs everyday no matter how much I love them, because it kills me.

at first when i saw the news I didn’t believe it. Maybe it was just a lie? A rumor? But it took a bit for the news to get past all my apathy and emotional issues to make me so soul crushingly sad. And Still not a day has gone by, where I haven’t had to take a moment of silence to gather myself.

Because you didn’t deserve this. And I know almost everything you did was for other people. You have so much to the world and got nothing back. And I’m so so sorry, I’m so sorry so many people screwed you over and I’m so sorry you were never answered in your pleas for help I’m so sorry for how alone you must’ve felt.