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i love when we just randomly start talking about physical abuse in class with absolutely no warning ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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haha broke a 3 1/2 year clean streak ✌🏼

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incomplete list of things that are more important than me according to my mother:

-smoking

-drinking

-my siblings

-her boyfriends

-half off drinks at the bar

-partying on a thursday night

-weed

kinda hurts still

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i Hate when i complain about something and people offer to help me. they have the best of intentions but it just makes me wanna scream I DONT NEED HELP I JUST WANT TO COMPLAIN FUCK OFF

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Friendships

30//08//19

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{only reblog if you’re a trauma survivor}

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me: starts on anxiety meds

every other mental illness i have: so it’s my turn to fuck up your life, perfect!

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you ever peel back one layer of mental illness only to find another, possibly worse mental illness hiding in wait?

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me: needs to talk to my bf abt something important but has to wait until he’s available

me: starts dissociating like i’m gonna switch out

me: @ alters 🔫

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my medication rly is fucking with my appetite. I ate half a bag of chips for dinner and a muffin for breakfast and i’m So full i can’t even drink my coffee

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Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov Chapter 4: A Hymn and a Secret (1880)

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My psychiatrist: this medication should help with your anxiety but be on the lookout for side effects like weight loss (other things blah blah)

Me, trying to recover from anorexia but also very tempted at the idea of losing weight: