necrud

[necrud]

its a mess

memories and promises strewn like crumbs

sediments

layers building up like a geology of the soul

i forgot what is like to be alive

i forgot what is like to want something

two trips no luck

broken soles withered indicating inevitable shifts

dodges and broken ankles

spent some time drowning

dog paddling back to the safety of being 15 again

i’ve never seen anyone grow up

i don’t know how it’s possible

[necrud]

the trees don’t feel as green as they did just a few days ago

the stench of waste is all consuming

numbing

12 hours of psycho analysis

still just the same

[necrud]

#antiaesthetic

[necrud]

you learn something new about how people think about each other every day

the othering of social Darwinism

in stark contrast to the inherent oneness of evolution.

irrational rationalization of crimes and inequities.

L

[necrud]

Refuel? What the fuck is that?

I don't want to be an astro-naught anymore

I don't want to fly. I don't want to work

Work is primitive. Stuff for the computers.

I want to experience every job. the

clothes they wear the way they talk

your aesthetic is the keratin of my crustacean

body. slipping off and cracking as I pull my soft

limp claws out of

let me wear your scars and logos and silhouettes

let me change how I appear because appearance means

so much to you. Every movie reference

a contextualization for your own

personal world. Fuck You. You Suck.

[necrud]

[necrud]

personify objects dishes and spaces

objectify bodies actions behavior

dehumanize folks friends and everyone you know

see what happens went the compass turns clockwise and your

north also turns zed

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[necrud]

dirt on my glasses most likely

pollen and dead skin

reminds me of writing

im a published poet

a faint memory of some dumb cloud poem

[necrud]

fatalism is a word i learned recently and it sucks

diagnosed

witzelsucht is a word i learned recently and it suchts

diagnosed

[necrud]

“how do you pick a lane haha

just do everything”

normal distribution bookends

[necrud]

currently thinking about a bunch of stuff that i forgot to think about

no matter

itll be thought of

how often do you think about the back of your knees?

ive stopped thinking about my fingers sometimes

theyre just for pulling the split hair ends of my beard out

maybe theyre rubbing the eyebrows off of you if you still have them

[necrud]

THIS IS EVERY DAY

THIS IS EVERY DAY

[necrud]

tiq taq toah

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