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I Feel you

Please bear with me, as I am not a writer by any means, however I do have things to say!

I was deep in though the other night, thinking about the astral plane and how it effects people differently. Some not knowing that it exists, some all aware that is is there, and other who don't realize that they are even experiencing this plane.

It all started because I felt a little crazy about a thought that I had had, okie maybe not just a though but multiple thoughts. This  has been going on in my life for the passed year.

Now I don't presume to be all knowing, or even remotely touching the iceberg of knowing everything about being "awoken" or "enlightened" but what I do know puts me at peace.

Onto my story, about a year ago I had started to have some weird occurrences, some minor like "Deja vu" and others that just seemed out of the ordinary; like my watch being out of time and date.

Like any normal person I went to the jeweler and got the battery replaced, only to be stricken by the same issue , my watch was yet again 3 days and 5 hours behind (or forward!) always the same amount of time.

I started to joke with my boyfriend that I was going back in time, or forward in time, laughing it off like my watch was just crazy and something was wrong with the mechanics inside of it.

That is until one late night dream. My boyfriend had left for work it was a particularly cold night; we had just gotten a pretty severe winter storm the night before and the roads were still pretty covered in snow and ice, I received a text from him saying he almost got hit by a car on his way out of the drive. I consoled him ofcourse and thanked the higher powers that he was still here, but then i remembered a dream that I had had. In this dream, the same scenario played out, but the car hit him and he did not make it. I of course did not repeat this to him until a few days later and I hadn't told him of the dream at all.

The next occurrence I had was alittle bit different. We were driving home from town and I had gotten a weird taste in my mouth (okie everyone has cravings !) but it wasn't just the taste, I could physically feel myself chewing even though I was not currently chewing or eating anything. Popcorn..... "I don’t eat popcorn.. I haven't eaten popcorn since I was young, I don’t really care for it all that much" this particular popcorn is one that I used to eat with my uncle when I was younger, the most amazing popcorn there is "white cheddar popcorn" in the chip isle... pre popped and full of yumminess.

We pulled over a rest stop and I got out and grabbed myself a snack (staying away from the popcorn...I didn't want to feed into that ) at that same moment I looked down at my watch again 3 days 5 hours ahead... "why do you keep deceiving me of the time..." My phone was in the car at the time, and I just wanted to know what time it was so that i could know when we could be returning back into town. (well that was a bust, and now I have to reset the time and date yet again for the umpteenth time)

lets fast forward a fair bit now, recently I went over to someone's house and I swore that the road crew had fixed the road a certain way, upon bringing this up to him I got the "are you serious" look on his face and the "ummm you're nuts" look. I brushed it off.

However, that night after feeling completely crazy because of this "altercation" (which really wasn't an altercation but for a lack of a better word..) I still felt a little down, like there was something off. I started googling schizophrenia(oh lord what a rabbit hole that was!!) But my question was, what is people dont actually have a "disease" as everyone calls it; but they are awoken, or enlightened ? What if (and bear with me on this one) these people are actually seeing, and experiencing things that "normal" people are not? Such as parallel planes, or worlds within our own? Lives that we are living that we don't know about. Different paths that we are on, different forks that in one parallel we went left but in the other we went to the right? I started to think real hard about how many times I had remembered something, that didn't happen. How many times I had swore I told my mother or my sister or my boyfriend or my children's father something but "I" didn't , and how many times that left me feeling crazy, or empty... disappointed in myself. Then I started to wonder, if I indeed had but that I was remembering it from a parallel plane, from a different astral ... that somehow I put myself into one of these parallel (matrix's I guess other people would understand) and went about life for a little while. When is this happening ? Is this why I feel tired when I wake up from 8 hours of rest? Is this why I am always exhausted even though Im not tired? Is this why my body feels like it never shuts off???? So many questions come to my mind, and all i want to do is understand, and not feel like I am crazy for even thinking these things....

And the today happened. I had been talking to two people about this, my boyfriend and my friend I will start calling them Bert and Norma, Norma came into my life abruptly she’s been here for about a month now and I am so very thankful for her presence. She makes even the craziest scenarios sound realistic and like I'm not losing my mind, and she helps me cope with the feelings that come with them(they are not bad feelings by any means. They are just overwhelming feelings, if anything they are excitement happiness and a little bit of fear) Bert has been in my life for 2 years now, though I feel like he has been here for a lot more ( I do believe that has to do with the parallel worlds... which by the way I have counted a total of 4, that is including the one "I" am currently living.) He is a wonderful being, and stand beside me even when I tell him of the craziness that is happening. He has also had some pretty crazy things happen to him and we have in turn had them happen together , I'm not sure if I bring it out in him or if I have just awoken his scenes of "knowing" that it is happening vs just going with the flow and ignoring it.

The whole point in me starting this blog, is to somehow keep track of all of these occurrence's but also to hear about others occurrences and oddities in their lives. Am I going crazy? IS this a "normal" thing that happens to some people? I honestly believe I’m not crazy (say everyone who has ever been "diagnosed" ) but I honestly believe in my heart that I have just opened another astral.

I have always believe my spirit has been alive for a very long time, I have read into auras and chakras , I used to practice runes, and I still to this day read Tarot. I have never feared the unknown, and I have never feared what else could be out there that we do not "see" things we can feel but not touch. I believe I have spirits watching over me, that manifest from time to time. I believe that I have some kind of kinetic energy that I can pass onto others should I choose, and I also believe that even if "you" don't believe in any of these things, that you are also doing the same right now to everyone around you.

I feel you....