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John Keats / Gillian Flynn, Gone Girl / Garbage, #1 crush

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twenty years across the sea

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im sorry i always leave

@serethereal // we dont have to dance (orphaned fic) // past lives, dir. celine song // gone away blues, thomas mcgrath // where the truth lies, anna bailey // @/abrirightback via twitter // you can tell so much about a person by the way they leave you, redvers bailey // we dont have to dance // @valtsv

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I'm here for Draco Malfoy; The Real Draco Malfoy

• I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who was curious to meet another Hogwarts kid at Madam Malkins, and was trying to communicate in the only way he knew how. I mean really. • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who realized *shiiiiiiittttt that speccy kid that I met at Malkins was Harry Potter* on the train, and wanted to be his friend regardless of his family’s affiliations • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who was sorted into Slytherin right as the sorting hat barely touched his hair. • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy that befriended Pansy, Blaise, Crabbe and Goyle • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who was really fucking terrified in the Forbidden Forest with Hagrid, Neville, Hermione, and Harry • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who is canonically very intelligent yet fails to be first in his class • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who talks about how perfect Potter always beats him out • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who was spoiled rotten by his parents • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who the Golden Trio assumes is the Heir of Slytherin • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who somehow doesn’t realize that his friends were knocked out and that Harry and Ron were disguised as them • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who tries and fails (many times) to beat Harry at Quidditch • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who always taunts Harry first • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who got kicked around by Buckbeak • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who successfully devises a plan to impersonate a dementor just to scare the hell out of Harry Potter • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who sees Harry in Hogsmeade and tries to get him in trouble (rightfully so, I might add) • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who gets bitch-slapped by Hermione • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who gets awesome seats at the World Cup and brags about them just to be an asshole • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who makes “Potter Stinks” badges–those had to have taken a lot of work • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who was made Prefect • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who tirelessly wrote Weasley is our King • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who joined the Inquisitorial Squad • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who was distracted by Harry Potter in his OWL examinations • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who’s father was arrested • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who got hexed to oblivion on the train back from Hogwarts • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who was marked as a Death Eater at the age of 16 • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who made it into NEWT level classes with ease. • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who befriended a ghost because he was so lost and broken • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who fixed the Vanishing Cabinet • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who couldn’t kill Albus Dumbledore • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who lived in the same house as arguably the darkest wizard of all time • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who didn’t give up Harry Potter and his friends when they were brought to the Manor by Snatchers • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who was the rightful owner of the Elder Wand (until Harry disarmed him) • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who lost his best friend to the Fiendfyre in the Room of Requirement • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy who’s mother risked everything for him • I’m here for the Draco Malfoy that a lot of people seem to ignore. I’m here for the flawed Draco. The messy Draco. The one with a shit ton of faults. I love snarky, asshole Draco.

• I am here for Draco Malfoy

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“Pluvias  Parmularum”

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1. illicit affairs, taylor swift / 2. [you fit into me], margaret atwood / 3. alone together (2012), maria kreyn / 4. bag of bones, mitski / 5. love poems, anne sexton / 6, 11. my dark vanessa, kate elizabeth russell / 7. save me, aimee mann / 8. @mountainqoats (going to scotland, the mountain goats + two girls (lovers) (1911), egon schiele) / 9. when the party’s over, billie eilish / 10. cardigan, taylor swift / 12. your love is killing me, sharon van etten / 13. romeo and juliet (1968), dir. franco zeffirelli / 14. letters to milena, franz kafka / 15. the unabridged journals of sylvia plath, sylvia plath

imagine this: love as self-destruction.

is emotional self-harm a thing? because sometimes that’s what i think i was doing when it all went down.

at the time, i was so depressed, so full of self-loathing. i didn’t want to die, not quite, but i wanted to self-destruct.

i knew doing that shit with him was gonna traumatize me, but i didn’t care. i not only didn’t care, i actively craved it. i WANTED it to hurt me. i WANTED to be ruined.

i knew exactly how much it was gonna leave me bleeding, tear me apart, turn the knife inside me, etc…i knew and yet i did it anyways.

the truth is, i wasn’t stupid. i wasn’t even naïve. i just hated myself.

sometimes i really do wonder if that’s any better. i don’t think it is.

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revolutionary girl utena // deathless by catherynne m. valente

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I want my time back

Post by @ryebreadgf / Androgue by Jorge Luis Borges / internetfavorite on Pinterest / I Saw the TV Glow / Photography by Dominic Dähncke / Art by Julia Gootzeit / Class of 2013 by Mitski / @ megannn_lynne / Unknown / Would've Could've Should've by Taylor Swift / astyb.art on Instagram (Astrid Butt) / Unknown

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i get that slightly taller draco was mentioned in book 7 and that’s cool like whatever you want to like, go with canon etc on that even if you’re shipping drarry

on the OTHER hand if you want to make the argument for taller harry (and i do) let’s come at it from an emotional angle

for YEARS draco has been leaning down over harry. bodyguards aside (RIP vince), it was SUPER darn delightful for him to square off against this shrimpy little kid who happened to be a darn POWERHOUSE of magic and still have the height advantage. draco sprang up early and got to be taller than most kids in their year, excepting ron and a few others

he got used to it. smirk in place, glaring down, always DOWN at potter. so fucking good for his nasty little ego to be able to force potter to tilt his chin up to look defiantly back when they were trading barbs

suddenly, it’s post-war, and like a lot of dudes, harry has kept growing into his late teens and twenties. he eats on the regular now, stuff he learned to cook as a kid when he was forced to make food for the dursleys, and exercises. kid’s gotten fit and a bit taller.

now: they meet again. say in diagon alley. and they’re trying to be courteous…maybe draco goes over to all weirdly, stiltedly thank potter for testifying on his behalf at the war trials, etc

but then this horrible thing happens:

draco has to look UP at potter. just a little. the perspective has totally changed and he’s weirdly shaken by it when they talk, even when they lower their voices because the press is ALWAYS around and they’re speaking kissing-close. he’s eye level with harry’s nose, not his forehead.

draco THINKS about it later. like a lot. it bothers him more than it should, the removal of that last little piece of physical authority he had over a guy who bested him in every possible way.

he thinks about it at night. he thinks about it again the next day, and the next time he goes to speak with potter. he thinks about it the first time they kiss. he NEVER gets over it. they’ve been together for ages and draco’s still definitely (and vocally) pissed every time he notices short fucking harry potter grinning from just above him.

“hell, potter, why did you have to keep growing? you’re supposed to be shorter than me! you were MEANT to be shorter than me, i just know it. i probably got my growth stunted by having the Mark put on me, beastly thing. it’s not fair. it’s not right. look at you up there, you absolute MISTAKE. come down here. i WILL break your legs.”

draco’s ego + harry being taller than him = constant bitching and i LOVE IT

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“Show me my/your mark.”

I LOVE the scars of Sectumsempra.

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*insert draco malfoy audio where it’s just his name repeated a million times*

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the vanishing cabinet

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Draco stands in Harry’s way in the kitchen when Harry is cooking just so Harry has touch him and pay him attention even for a split second to get what he needs. Harry is so used to it, he just physically moves Draco around whenever he needs to get into a drawer or cupboard without pause and Draco melts every single time.

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i just think it's important to understand that love is not the antithesis of horror in fact it's often the catalyst

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flowers in the attic: the origin (2022) dir. declan o'dwyer & robin sheppard / the collector by the everly brothers

requested @monstraduplicia