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13.05.2018

I wish I could send him this:

" I know I probably shouldn't bring this up or contact you, but they told me when we broke up that you didn't understand why. You have the right to know so you know for your future wife. I felt like you disrespected me most if not all the time we were together. My opinion didn't matter to you, you didn't want to be seen with me in public, nor be with me in private. I felt like I had to beg for your attention. Yet, you treated everyone around me with utmost respect, kindness and generosity and that confused the eff out of me.

I felt like I was some kind of charity case that you had to do. So just the fact that you were marrying me was supposedly enough and I had to be thankful for with that. I wasn't a priority. I wasn't an interest. I was a good deed that could have been done with anyone but I was "lucky" to be that one. And I "should" feel satisfied by just that fact and didn't need anything else.

In one sentence,

You can never win a woman's heart without respecting her!

Without mutual respect, no relationship would ever work. "

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Building a culture of Excellence

Learning a language in 15 days

Driven but we'll rounded

Good planning and good execution. And only then can we say حسبنا الله و نعم الوكيل

Success is a choice.

Sahabas role was to reshape their society even though they were a minority and the society was so bad.

If our example is not there then

Our example will speak louder than the islamphobia we hear today.

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Hope and Fear

When angels aaked Allah , اتجعل فيها من يفسد فيها

قال الله اني اعلم مالا تعلمون

Deffering (what you don't understand) to Allahs justice and mercy. Deflecting is to be paralyzed by the situation.

How to balance?

Remember Omar bn Abdulaziz. In 2 years his concern moved him to change so much and bring so much justice.

Omar said. اني لا احمل هم الإجابة ،

You just make the duaa. You worry about making the good deed not how it plans out.

Move from why Allah to what Allah can I do?

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Omar Sulaiman's talk

الامام الالوسي، فوائد النخلة.

خير الناس أنفسهم للناس

كل شي في الشخص المومن ممكن يفيده

ربنا ممكن يعاقب و ممكن يسامح أمة بسبب كم شخص فلا تتهاون في الفايدة و لو كانت في نفسك بس

خيركم من يرجى خيره و يكفى شره

اخلاق moral and manners

It's ok to make people uncomfortable but with balance to speak the truth

Meat is moral and topping is manners

What about all your terrorists. We're not disproportionately more crazy than others

Question the premise of the question.

We do good because that's what we're supposed to do. Not to change people's minds about Islam.

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5 misconceptions in Islam

Violence

Women

Jihad

Sharia

Life of the prophet

Whyislam.org

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24.09.2017

They raised us in a way we could only live in Saudi.

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17.08.2017

All my cousins are off the marriage table. Relieved to know that for sure alhamdulillah.

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14.08.2017

I don’t allow myself to make mistakes. I’m hard on myself and I put so much pressure. You make mistakes. It’s ok to make mistakes. The biggest mistake is to give up.

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14.08.2017

Only he knows that you’re crying. Only he knows how to fix you. Only you know that faith can heal you.

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18.08.2017

Important realization: I make great first impressions. Then after a while I get bored and loose touch with those people. I thinks it's not because I'm bored of them but bored of myself. I feel so insecure and anxious because I don't know what else I can offer them to keep in touch and to keep things fun and interesting or whatever

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02.08.2017

As kids, we grow up thinking are parents are perfect. And who can blame us. It's normal and lovely as a matter of fact. Part of the growing up process is realizing that they're only human. They're figuring out life just as much as we are they just know a little bit more. Once you fully comprehend that you will truly accept them as they are. And be able to love them truly. At least that's the case for me. I was a kid, thought they were perfect. I was a teenager, thought they were so messed up. I was an adult, realized they were human and I loved them. That especially happened when they forced me to get married. I am happy things happened the way they did. عجيب امر المؤمن. كله خير.

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28.07.2017

I thought I would be able to do whatever I wanted after I left my family and my whole country. But I'm not. I still have eyes on me. I'm so uncomfortable.

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27.07.2017

I wish I was a doctor

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25.07.2017

I’m doing good. I hung out with Lena and I feel better. I need attention and when I lack it I feel hated. Even if this attention is little, fake or just to pass by time. I need attention from people every once in a while. Just a healthy amount. Not too much please.

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25.07.2017

People don’t want or don’t have the time to do things with me. It hurts and I don’t know how to deal with it. Or what to think of it.

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24.07.2017

I'm feeling at peace alhamdulillah. I read the book لأنك الله اسم الله الشكور. And it gave me such strength and love. I'm so grateful. I'm getting house chores done, working out and preparing for uni. Just focusing on being at peace with myself. And feeling content with what I have.