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you’re sitting across from me in a shitty diner in anywhere, america, and i watch you pour too much creamer in your coffee and i think “i love you.” you look up, catching me staring, and for a moment i think i’m brave enough to say it, but i take too long and the moment passes. i take the balled up straw wraper and flick it at you, pretending that was my plan all along. you laugh. i never want to go another day without hearing that laugh. i think i will have all the time in the world to say it.

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Growing up my parents taught me that if you’re too sick to [insert responsibility here] then you’re too sick to [insert something that makes you happy here].

It took me a really long time to unlearn this. When I would get sick or have a “bad day” I would deprive myself of anything that made me happy. Watching movies, eating something I enjoyed, going for a walk, playing video games or just browsing online looking at funny cat videos. I wouldn’t let myself do these things because I was always told that if I’m too sick to go to work, or do homework, or go to school then I must be too sick to play Mortal Kombat or watch Unsolved Mysteries lol.

Whenever I wouldn’t feel good, which I later learned as an adult was due to sleep deprivation caused by my ADHD and depression (and of course the depression itself would cause me to feel like shit), my parents would tell me “if you’re not throwing up, then you’re not sick.” And when I would stay home from school (or even work in my later teen years) my parents would make sure that I didn’t have any “fun.” No TV, no movies, no games, no going outside, no arts and crafts, no books, no nothing. Just lay in bed and feel miserable.

I’m happy to say that I no longer do this to myself. Now when I’m having a bad day or I’m sick (cold, flu or whatever) I allow myself to do the things (within reason lol) that I actually love doing. If I’m not too sick to step outside for a few minutes then I’ll go for a walk. I’ll watch my favorite movies and if it’s a bad day or a cold (something that doesn’t hinder my appetite too much) I’ll eat my favorite foods. I don’t guilt trip myself anymore for having a “sick day.”

Just because you’re sick (whether physically, emotionally or mentally) doesn’t mean that you can’t do things you enjoy. You’re not any less sick because you watch TV. You’re not any less sick because you’re playing video games. 

Actually you SHOULD be doing these things when you’re not feeling good because they make you feel better. The better you feel, the faster your heal. 

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アラ紅ちゃん

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This is the way you’re supposed to do pranks!

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“Lemur has an adorable way of letting kids know it wants more pets“

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it is disgusting to be alive in america right now. what have they told us? “let them eat cake” comes out of the mouths of every other politician. we are told to send kids back to school, that only their friends will die, and their teachers, and maybe you. we are told to just find another job in the middle of a hiring freeze and massive unemployment. we are told that healthcare is a privilege while being encouraged to “be smart” about covid. we are told to move somewhere else if the rent is too high. to just grow more vegetables if food is running thin. to spend less on coffee. if you don’t like it, they assure us, the problem is you. america is the land of opportunity! there are a million ways for you to be taken advantage of, and we will blame you for all of them.

jeff besos could end world hunger, could help yemen, could pay his employees an actual wage - and still be the richest man in history. the police continue to open fire on protesters, but the media has moved on. citizens are kidnapped by federal officers. children are in cages. flint still doesn’t have clean water. disney, gleefully paying minimum wage, happily opens to crowds. 

i click on another article where another rich white man tells us to simply be brave and to be proud when we are afraid and dying and aware we are being mulched for profit. there is a parable, somewhere, about what happens when the wolves are starved but the mayor has hundreds of sheep.

i am getting hungrier and hungrier. and there is no more bread to eat.

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We need more herb emojis. Would like to end a text with some rosemary or thyme

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STAY THE FUCK HOME AND WEAR YOUR DAMN MASK IF YOU HAVE TO LEAVE

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I don’t like bars

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me_irl

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time for a 

little horny posting

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🐲😈🖤

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POP SOCKETS ARE HERE!!! Click here for Kirby Flatten and hiss Click here for Eat The Rich Click here for Leliana Art done by the wonderful @william-snekspeare, purchased with permission to sell ofc :)

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harold, they’re lesbians

people are gay, steven 

i’m a lesbian, carl 

don’t be a transphobe, chad 

we support the gays, david 

i’m not jealous, flavio. i’m gay

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not to be a hopeless romantic or anything, but i can’t wait to wear your oversized sweaters and get forehead kisses.

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Dependent Personality Disorder is characterized as a lack of confidence and an excessive need to be looked after. These people depend on others to meet their emotional and physical needs, rarely ever achieving normal levels of independence. Anyone who knows someone with this disorder may see them as clingy, passive, and indecisive. They are unable to make their their own everyday life decisions and leave it to other people to decide for them, requiring constant advice and reassurances. Someone with Dependent PD greatly fears abandonment and may go to extreme lengths to maintain a relationship. When they are alone they may feel uncomfortable and helpless, as they feel incapable of taking care of themselves. Since sufferers of Dependent PD see themselves as inadequate, they surrender responsibility and submit themselves to one or more people who they feel can ‘’protect’’ and coddle them. It is no surprise at all that those with this disorder are susceptible to abusive relationships as they possess a naïve and child-like mentality and lack insight into themselves and others, making it easy for people to manipulate and take advantage of them. 

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No offense but why do I feel like obsessiveness and possessiveness are attractive qualities that I need in a relationship, or else I fear they must not like or want me