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blurb of recent drawings because i NEED to calm the fuck down

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my xbox for my life of me will not work and i want to watch sonic this is my last straw

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which, uh, could mean nothing

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my oc on mspaint, as if i know what im doing

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i miss doing things that felt fulfilling

now im either doing what fulfills you or trying to breathe

sigh

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i have been blorbo-posting because i have nowhere else to put it but i would like to pick back up on using this as a journal of sorts. that said, im nauseous and need to get my shit together because im tired of rotting lol

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getting better at drawing blorbo

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got nutrition blasted real quick by my lions mane vitamin and a smoothie with coffee and protein in it now i can feel colors help

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someone said to draw your blorbo like this

did this on mspaint instead of an essay and have nowhere to post it 👍 idk how to do digital art at all like actually

the “like this” in question:

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does anyone know how to stop dissociating as soon as i experience the slightest bit of compression from clothing :)

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i dropped out when i was 16 and am all at once enrolled into a 22+ diploma program that starts tomorrow. stressful

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love when i realize that my szpd diagnosis was accurate actually yikes

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im so tired apparently that im shaking and the words on my screen are incomprehensible

i need to use this blog more i think

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appalachia is beatiful but i’m going to go ahead and blame at least some of my body pain, brain fog, high blood pressure and occasional food repulsion on my high probability of lymes disease

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cant sleep, cigarette, rain on my metal roof, learning about something i enjoyed since i was a kid. it really isnt so bad when you practice gratitude

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i got really sick and really depressed so i have failed on my drawing every day thing for this year, but sigh, i am only human. i hope to pick it back up soon

i saw sonic 3 right before i got sick, so at least i had something to fixate on while i was coughing up a lung. that, and lots of minecraft. sonic was very important to me growing up :)

i abandoned meta but unfortunately found that i need instagram to keep up with my community. but even having it on my phone rots my fucking brain. so i guess i am deleting it again lol. i hate being a victim of controlled media. im trying to get peoples phone numbers, though.

my mental health is struggling immensely right now. depression at the likes of which i havent endured since i was a teenager. im trying to get my shit together and subsequently get out of it, bit by little bit.