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Calming Sanji down each time he’s stressed by taking his hands and untangling his fingers from the strands they’re tugging on. Guiding him to sit or lay down and massaging his scalp, kissing into his hair. Moving onto his hands and rubbing them, kissing along his palms and each joint and fingertip. Trying to show him to be gentle with himself and going until he melts into your lap, finally relaxing.

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felassan things that kept me awake last night:

the 4,000 year time span between the veil and the masked empire during which felassan could only ever have spoken to solas in dreams when at all.

the years solas spent in the lighthouse with all those fucking notes from felassan around. "don't cause too much trouble before i get there."

the only time anyone says felassan's name out loud in the video games is when solas says it in an ancient arlathan memory

solas not painting felassan a mural in the lighthouse and only referring to him as "my agent," once, but still regretting what happened with him so much that it's one of the three big revenants powered by his regret, after the titans and mythal???? sir your repression

the ambiguity of "the betrayal of felassan" as the name of that revenant. whose betrayal of whom.

the heart of corruption/revenant dragon residing in the same place felassan used to go to get away from everything.

felassan calling it "our rebellion."

felassan being aware that he would die if he reported back to solas, seeing a plausible way he could run instead, and reporting back anyway.

the tone he takes during his death scene being so friendly and nonchalant, "what's the harm really" and "i suspect you'll hate this," like he's still trying to talk to solas like they are friends and equals even while he is aware solas is about to kill him.

felassan isn't even his real/original name and in one of his veilguard notes he refers to being felassan at all as being "solas's friend felassan" like that identity is inextricably tied to his friendship with solas, he cannot be felassan without also being solas's friend.

"and you are the slow arrow?" / "i hope so."

in conclusion,

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The reciprocity of Solas and Lavellan

It's easy to read the Solavellan ending as Lavellan stepping in to save Solas and deliver him a happy ending. But the thing I really love about it is that to me, they save each other. Neither one could have a happy ending without the other. 

Lavellan had an incredibly lonely journey in which she was elevated against her will into a religious figure of a religion she probably doesn't even believe in. Even when she tried to move past that, it kept calling her back. She may have disbanded the Inquisition, but eight years later when Thedas was in crisis everyone still looked to the Herald of Andraste to save them, and what choice did she have? 

Even eight years on, everyone refers to her as 'The Inquisitor,' instead of her name.

Lavellan needs Solas because he's the only person who can really know what that feels like. He too was unwillingly deified, his myth swallowing the truth of who he really was. Ironically, only two years after their relationship ended, when she learns the truth about his past, does Lavellan come to know why he was able to see her and empathize with her very specific situation in a way that no one else did. 

Lavellan is clearly a strong and dynamic person. She hasn't been moping all this time; she's moved on, made a life, no doubt achieved more amazing things in the intervening time. And yet - for eight years she's carried this piercing, bone-deep loneliness. Though she has close friends who love her, like maybe Dorian and Cassandra, they still can't really understand. The secret, painful longing in her to be witnessed; to be known.

The relief she must feel, after everything, when Solas finally lays down his plans. She doesn't have to be alone any longer. He's the one person who can still see her for what she really is, and he's finally ready to come back to her. It doesn't matter to her what he's done, because she knows his heart in a way that no one else does, just as he knows her in a way that no one else does. They speak elvhen to each other, echoing one another's cadence, because they are bound in a very deep way that no one else can really understand. 

When she says 'We'll make this journey together, forever,' she's not simply offering herself to him. She's acknowledging that they need each other. 'There is no fate but the love we share' - because it is fate, in a way. They're incredibly lucky that they were brought together in this way, because no one else could have known them in the way they know each other. And I think that's one of the things that really draws people to their story - it's this beautiful dream about finding a person who truly understands and sees everything that you truly are.

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I'm haunted by the idea of Lavellan visiting the Lighthouse after meeting with Rook the second time, after all the murals are unveiled. I'm tormented by the idea of her wandering around, seeing Solas in the small details as well as the paintings on the walls. I'm in agony over the thought of her seeing the memories through her unique perspective tinted with compassion and empathy (as opposed to the heavy judgement from the resident gang). I'm going feral thinking how the Caretaker would welcome her: how she would be instantly recognised.

"Your memory has walked these halls. The Dread Wolf's heart is welcomed here."

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We're gonna make a collaborative list and we're gonna LIKE IT

Your topic is: Things that make Emmrich Volkarin cry sexually.

Reblog to add yours. Feel free to use YOUR Rook's pronouns. Best one will get my undying love and devotion (as if you all don't already have that 😘)

To start:

1. The first time he fingered her, after he unfastened her pants and slipped his hand inside, Rook scrambled her hand into his and intertwined their fingers, kissed the back of his hand and cuddled his palm against her racing heart. He had to bury his nose against her neck and pretend the moisture was from his tongue against her skin and not his eyes welling up.

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I know Solavellan is on Fade Break after successfully escaping the narrative. But lately I have been thinking about AUs in which they either get out somehow, or they don’t go to the Fade at all.

That is because I’ve been finding myself intrigued by the idea of them being part of a group once again, and travelling around Thedas helping people. This time though, Solas doesn’t have to hide (he does have to maintain a low profile for obvious reasons, but his companions know who he is). He can actually truly let other people close to him, with Lavellan by his side, holding his hand in encouragement. I like to think about scenarios where he can finally start breaking down the thousands of years worth of walls he has built around him. Where he can learn to let go of the idea that he is completely separate and isolated from everyone else, and lets himself find companionship without guilt.

Also, Solavellan can exist like a normal couple. Especially with a disbanded Inquisition, they can just be Lavellan and Solas, not The Inquisitor and The Dread Wolf. They can be corny and publicly in love without the constant looming threat of their identities harming their relationship. Just enjoy the simple blessings of the love they share in peace and normality.

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They’re multiplying

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I can’t believe they recycled Valta’s storyline for Harding then put her in the game as a stone statue that has zero impact on the story

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It is so important to me that Solas goes to seek atonement alone. Even after his reunion with Lavellan, he doesn't ask her to come with him, he doesn't try to wrap her up in a long or emotional goodbye, he doesn't even look at her between accepting Rook's proposal and walking over to the tear in the Veil. We know his documented greatest fear is dying alone--we can, I think, safely assume he would prefer her to come--but even so, he does nothing here that might put the slightest pressure on Lavellan to choose him. Even when she says she forgives him, he does not seem to assume this means she wants to be together again; it's not even clear it's a possibility in his mind he might not go alone.

She comes to him--and even then, he tries to dissuade her, telling her how terrible it will be in the Fade. He does not want her to make this choice out of obligation or responsibility or guilt; he doesn't want to trap her in his fate. And yet when she comes, freely and voluntarily, we can see what it means to him.

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I’ll crawl home to her.

Fenlin belongs to @pixdoodles 🤲

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By asphodellesart

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Something something post veilguard defintely involves a viago bid for the throne... the crows rule antiva... why shouldn't they... why shouldn't I... and definitely involves a Lucanis First Talon realising no one takes him seriously... esp Viago who knows him... having to put down a rebellion... vague formed notions half formed ideas something something

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Rook talking about Solas in the end of Veilguard:

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Hear me out.

Lavellan already harboring feelings for Solas in In Hushed Whispers. Lavellan searching for him in this future timeline and finding him corrupted by red lyrium and close to death. Lavellan watching him give up his life to give her and Dorian a chance to go back to their own timeline. Lavellan losing grip of her feelings for the first time after she goes back and sees him alive again. Solas being extremely confused and pretty concerned. And also a little flustered.

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Dragon Age: Inquisition | Elven Mountain Ruins

Fen'Harel mosaics

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sounds of solas trying to reach his first aid kit after stubbing his toe really hard

sounds of solas after reaching his destination

sounds of solas recovering

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Dragon Age: Inquisition | Repair Pont Agur Operation

Nobody tosses a dwarf.