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Chapter 1 of Now I know your name, but not who you are is coming soon

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Me watching all the other teams make moves at the trade deadline but all the cubs have done is DFA a few terrible players:

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Now I know your name, but not who you are

Oh... the title is just perfect. 🥹

Some of Noah Kahan’s finest

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Anthony, Viscount Bridgerton and Miss Kate Sharma in Now I know your name, but not who you are

Anthony tried not to clench the fist at his side as he held his hand out to help his mother down from the carriage. Already the music floating out of the ballroom behind them was making his spine prickle. He clenched his teeth and squeezed his eyes closed for a moment, holding himself against the wave of memories one of these parties always brought on. The wind almost carried her voice back to him for a moment. He could have sworn he heard her derisive laugh before she cut his ego down to size, carried back to him on the wind.

“At least try to look as though this isn’t extremely painful, Darling.”

Anthony gave his mother a smile that was half a grimace as he tucked her hand into the crook of his arm. “I’ll try for you, Mama.”

She sighed, patting his cheek. “You’re a sweet boy.”

Anthony laughed, most of it genuine, almost none of it filled with bitterness. “I don’t think you would have said that in years gone by.”

“Perhaps not.”

Every year, as they stood here waiting to be announced he felt as though he was going to itch out of his skin with he urge to run away, back to the country with all of the other ghosts. It had dulled since that first year when it felt as though everyone’s eyes were on him as he’d moved quietly to the corner to stand by his mother, daring the other Mamas to come near him and introduce their daughters. Eventually the pointed suggestions that he might make his way to the dance floor had dwindled until only the bravest attempted it at all anymore. A bachelor confirmed now. Far too set in his ways. Once a rake, now a recluse.

He hardly noticed they’d moved to the corner, his eyes fixed on a spot on the ceiling while he waited for Benedict and Sophie to arrive, the small moment of joy they would bring with them and the news of his nephew. He’d go tomorrow to visit Charlie, bring him a new toy, Anthony decidedly absently.

“Darling,” His mother’s voice said urgently in his ear.

Anthony let his eyes wander around the room, in no hurry to meet his mother’s. He let them slide over the faces, realising how much had changed in the landscape of the Ton.

“I know you didn’t want to hear this before but I really think you-“

His heart stuttered in his chest and the world seemed to dull around him, matching the echo of himself that he truly was now.

It couldn’t be her. He was imagining it surely. It was someone else and his traitorous mind was filling in the gaps, trying to set him at ease.

He noticed the flicker of shock in the eyes that met his across the room and it felt as though the wind had been knocked out of him as he stared back at her. After all this time.

“Mrs Bagwell’s sister is in London for the season.”

Anthony barely had time to let his mother’s words sink in. Barely had time to hear them at all before Kate Sharma turned her head and broke their gaze.

Five years later, Anthony and Kate meet again

A Canon Divergence story, coming Friday

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After telling the landlord for months that the shower is leaking because it needs to be re-siliconed and several people coming and not doing that I left two plumbers in my shower this morning fixing the fucking silicone sealant and now can’t use my shower until tomorrow morning. I just want to scream into the void.

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5 years later Anthony being insufferable when Kate is pregnant is just... darling. I mean it's a future he didn't think he would ever have! Of course he's going to be extra careful, extra doting, extra worried... As if Kate wasn't already precious to him!

Anthony had given up on getting to become a father. Even though when he was young it was one of the things he wanted most. Sure, not anytime soon but he wanted a family of his own. He wanted the love and the laughter and even after everything he’d done it might have been possible with Kate Sharma. But he let it go and resigned himself to being on the outskirts of his siblings families. Never the centre of anything. Never loved the way he loved others.

But now Kate’s back and he’s barely getting used to the idea of being a husband whose company someone actually enjoys when Kate smiles at him one afternoon.

“I have a secret.”

Anthony chuckled, kissing her cheek as she makes them both tea. “Is Gregory stealing sandwiches from the kitchen again?”

Kate snorted, “That’s not a secret, Darling.”

“Well, I’m very intrigued.”

Kate leaned forward, letting her lips brush his ear gently. “You’re going to be a Papa.”

For the second time in the last few months Anthony feels the entire world shift under him. A father. He and Kate are having a baby. She was already the most precious thing in the world to him and now… this as well.

He can’t help but fuss over her. He wants her to be happy, and healthy, the baby as well. So there he finds himself scurrying after Kate as she leaves the Viscountess’s sitting room.

“Darling, where are you going?”

Kate quirked an eyebrow, “Your mother thought we might have tea?”

Anthony hurried after her, “Well, can I at least carry that for you?!”

Kate blinked at him, “This?”

“Yes.”

She held out the letter she was holding. “If you must?”

“I must insist.”

“Have at it then.”

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5 years later Anthony would be making the biggest nuisance of himself whilst Kate’s pregnant. I know he would. The man is hovering relentlessly. Kate has not had a minute’s peace since she told him. Anthony is constantly recommending things he’s heard from his mother and sisters. He’s constantly suggesting names for the baby.

And as annoying as that is: Kate finds it a little endearing. He’s excited to be a Dad. That’s all this is. Excitement.

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TBF, That probably WOULD be Neddy's reaction. I remember when my sister got her hair cut when my oldest niece was like 6 months old. The sheer terror on that baby's face when "Mommy" came back and tried to take her out of my arms, because she did not know this woman.

My nephew is nearly 2 and sometimes I have to take off my cap and reveal my egregious hat hair because he looks at me like he’s never seen me before 😂😂 Bruv. Who else would bring you a babycino when your mother specifically said no to a babycino??? It is I. Who else will bring you a hash brown and a sausage McMuffin?! Who else is gonna share a matcha iced latte with you bro? The cheek of this kid.

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So accurate ant neddy’s reaction to clean cheeks anthony. He thought it was Papa but he’s never seen this man a day in his life. He’s scared and confused and doesn’t start fully trusting himself in Anthony’s arms until the stubble is dark enough to kinda look like a beard 💀 anthony is very grateful his hair grows fast

Kate is also glad that Anthony’s beard grows in very quickly. She pretends it’s because she knows it upsets Anthony that Neddy’s wary of them. And she doesn’t want Anthony to be upset. she does want his beard back though.

Neddy looks at him as though he’s never seen Anthony ever before.

“It’s me, Neddy.” Anthony said gently, “It’s Papa.”

Neddy stared at Anthony for a long moment before he screamed. “No! Amma!”

He scrambled over to Kate, hiding behind her skirt. Kate hummed soothingly, settling him on her hip. “Maybe you shouldn’t have shaved.”

Anthony blinked at her. “Alright! Alright! Nobody likes my chin! I understand!”

“I like your chin.” Kate shrugged, “I’m very fond of your face. I’m fonder of it with the little bits of grey in your beard. Neddy’s never seen your chin before.”

Anthony rolled his eyes. “And it’s terrifying apparently.”

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Okay but what happens when five years later Anthony has to shave his beard for some reason? How long does Kate morn?

Kate is literally in mourning until it grows back.

Anthony decided to shave it for a bit of a change. He doesn’t feel he needs it anymore, and his face was itchy. But he can see how his wife’s face falls just a little when she sees him at breakfast.

“Oh! Darling!”

“I felt like a change.” Truth be told it did feel strange to feel his face under his hand again. He’d grown used to running his hand over his beard absentmindedly and now, no longer.

“Oh.” Kate’s voice is a little dry, almost disappointed. “And how long will you… feel like a change for?”

Anthony rolled his eyes, “I’m not sure.”

“Nanny’s bringing Edmund in.” Kate says, still eying Anthony from the corner of her eye.

“Kate, please.”

“I’m not staring!”

“You are! Otherwise you wouldn’t have known what I was talking about.”

Kate clamped her lips closed as footsteps sounded in the corridor and Neddy’s giggle ran through the hall.

Neddy toddled in, guided by his Nanny and Anthony bent to scoop him off the ground just as he always did. Only this time Neddy paused, staring at Anthony as though he’d never seen before. Then promptly burst into tears.

“Oh, sweetheart.” Kate said soothingly, picking him up. “Oh, I know. Papa looks different.”

“Fine! I’m growing it back!”

“Lovely.”

“There’s no need to sound so pleased.”

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ill never admit it out loud but I agree with your got ship lmao

The Ned and Cat parallels are elite. They were perfect foils for each other’s weaknesses.

An opportunity SQUANDERED

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Yet to lose my desired 20kg but the horrors persist and so must I. By whisking a dozen eggs and nearly half a kg of egg whites

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Surely your ship was no more delusional than mine.. Sansa and Sandor. Do tell!!

Funny you should say… mine was in a similar sort of vein.

I would like to explain that I was a Sansa Stark stan from day one. Ride or die for her through all the early hate she got. And so I knew in my heart that she and Jon snow were not brother and sister.

Jon and Sansa baby. I’m still at that restaurant tbh.

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hi! I might be hallucinating but you are a GOT fan right? Did you ever ship Jaime and Brienne? I just thought they would be your thing, lots of feelings, trauma and pain

I am a GOT fan but not Brienne and Jaime. She was too good for him in my opinion.

My ship was more delusional I think 😂😂😂

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Do you think Kate has ever looked at all the portraits at Bridgerton house/Aubrey Hall and commented on s1 anthony’s fluffier hair and mutton chops? And if so what she thought if them? I think she would think the hair was kinda adorable and is amused when it gets long again when Neddy is born and he’s too exhausted to keep up with his maintenance

Oh I think Kate secretly likes Anthony’s more roguish appearance. She likes when he wakes up in the morning and his hair’s sticking up and his voice sounds gravelly.

She doesn’t particularly care for the mutton chops but she doesn’t mind when Anthony hasn’t shaved in a few days and the stubble creeps in. Unfortunately her husband seems to be very handsome, in all his forms. And according to the portrait where Anthony is sat proudly in front of his father, no older than three years old: Very adorable before that.

Fluffy haired adorable rake Anthony isn’t her Anthony though. Oh there’s still flashes of him in his smile when he pretends to stumble in the drawing room and ends up conveniently with his head under Kate’s skirts. And Kate likes seeing the young man who turned into her husband proudly on their walls. But she loves seeing the portraits of them side by side. Young Anthony with his siblings directly beside a portrait of them as newlyweds. And beside that Anthony standing proudly with their son just as he once stood with his father.

Man about town to loving husband to devoted family man. Kate loves seeing the evolution of Anthony displayed for everyone to see and more than that she loves Anthony in all his forms

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The way I’d be leaving the clubhouse after being traded away from the Rockies

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AUNTIE WHEEZE 🥹 im also… so obsessed with the idea of baby anthony and simon thinking they could trick their teacher like twins as if they arent two different races 💀

Sadly I didn’t come up with that: I saw a Twitter post about someone whose kid had tried it with their best friend. And I honestly thought it had Anthony and Simon written all over it.

Only they’re allowed to tech each other about their relationships. Because they’re practically brothers. And despite what he says: Anthony can’t think of anybody better for Daphne. So yeah, he is glad to be Simon’s best man, he’ll even half threaten Daphne to not hurt his boy. Simon doesn’t have a lot of family and Anthony’s proud to be the family he chose.