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got on the scale at the doc & i finally broke out of being 135lbs.

ya’ll i’m 126lbs😭🥺

so since i’m an actual witch, this post is gonna be a plateau breaking spell ✨✨✨

like charge, reblogs cast to get over that plateau & start losing weight again!!!!!

stay safe everyone!!!!

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Story of my life

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It has been a rough few days. I did SO well yesterday until I decided to have lunch around 3, then it all went down hill. I ended up eating like 3,000 calories so today I have to be strong. It’s already 7:30 and I’ve only had a coffee w/ cream (20cal coffee + 30cal creamer) and half of a peanut bar (85 cals)

Wish me luck that I don’t fuck it up like I did yesterday. I swear I shouldn’t be allowed to have a day off from work :/

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I’ve been stuck at 154 for legit months now it seems and I cannot get any fucking lower than that. I try not to eat much, I stay below my calorie limit and STILL I can’t budge the fucking scale. I’m so irritated with myself because I’ve been teaching my calorie goal every single day to the calorie, so I need to lower it. I’m at 1200 calories a day with about -400 calories in exercise AND IM STILL FAT. I cannot understand it but I’m going to lower my count to 1000 per day and hopefully that’ll help. I carry most of my weight in my hips and thighs and I’m so tired of looking curvy. I want to be stick thin with no curves 🥲

If anyone has any tips for getting over this small speed bump that would be much appreciated.

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I haven’t come out to any of my friends as trans yet but I’m officially doing it here where nobody can see and nobody knows me…so hello.

My name is Cole and I’m a trans guy 🏳️‍⚧️

I also have an ED ok secrets out thanks for your time byeeeeee

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What’s up friends it’s been a while. I was attempting to recover but my gender dysphoria has been so bad that I stopped eating again. I teetered between 153-159 for a while bc I was eating normally but I really want to be under 150 before thanksgiving and possibly under 140 before next year??? My pants started getting a little tight and I freaked so I’m back baby lol

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TW: ED

161 BABIES!! Omggggg I’m almost in the 150’s for the first time since literally 7th grade probably?? Holy fuck guys. Three people have already basically gasped and said “have you lost weight?” And omg I always respond “oh? I didn’t notice! Maybe?” But here I am, weighing myself 2 times a day acting like I didn’t watch every single ounce of that weight come off. This disorder is like so sickening and so thrilling at the same time. Its horrible but I mean. I’m getting thinner by the week now and I’m actually almost happy with my body now. I feel confident and good looking and idk. You know? Just needed to rant

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I’ve been eating pretty normal and haven’t gained any weight, I’m still 170 after a week of just eating and drinking whatever I want. But it’s just not doing it for me. I’m not even hungry and I’m eating garbage just to eat bc I’m bored. I want to be 140 by my bday in June. I know it’s so far away and like how hard a losing 30lbs in like 4 months??? Like that’s 10lbs a month, maybe a little less, which should be so easy. But I haven’t lost weight since OCTOBER. Yeah. I know. I’m fucking mad.

I let myself eat what I wanted today bc it’s my day off and I didn’t want to deal with trying to burn calories all day bc I’m so tired. I work the rest of the week until Monday starting tomorrow so I’m hoping to eat 1000 calories or under a day. I can do this. Send me good vibes ✨

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It’s so dumb I keep waking up hoping I’m gonna be skinny as If I deserve to be skinny after binging the night before 🙄

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I gained 3.7 pounds and it just keeps getting worse. I’m in the binge phase of my disorder. I can go days without eating sometimes and others I literally can’t go 10 minutes without another fucking snack or 200 calorie drink.

I know I’ve said this before and I’ll probably say it 100 more times but today it STOPS.

I’ve had 198 calories today so far (caramel premier protein shake +cold brew + tbs of creamer) and I’m trying so hard to not add more than 300 more for the day.

My plan is to wait until my gf gets home and only have dinner with her but eat like 1/3 of the dinner so.....fingers crossed

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“you know drinking diet soda is bad for you, right?”

I haven’t eaten in 3 days, Brenda, does it look like I care what’s bad for me?

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me: *loses two pounds a day*

me: can u like….. go faster

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U know when ur scale isn’t balanced or calibrated and you don’t know so you step on it and the number is like way less than it normally is so you think you finally passed your plateau but it turns out the scale is just WRONG

I stepped on and it was 165 and I almost cried when I found out I’m actually still 170 :) wow

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My starving organs trying to process 15 pounds of binge food after having nothing for a week

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If I could be 165 by the New Years that would be very swag money

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I know it’s not much but I’m feeling really good!! 14.5 hours down, 15.5 hours to go!! I don’t even feel hungry at ALL. I’ve had 2 cups of coffee, a bunch of water, a cup of tea and a few sips from a bang (I bought the birthday cake one by accident so it was nasty) but ya:) I don’t fast like everyone else, I do allow myself liquids of any kind as long as they’re low in/zero calories ! If my stomach is completely empty, I throw up bile and it’s really horrible so :/

I also burned 213 calories cleaning for an hour and a half! :) I reearanged my entire living room and I’m so happy! So far so goooooood.

Also, I take caffine pills and they really suppress my appetite and help me have a lot of energy to clean and do projects! They’re basic ones, 200mg a capsule so I try to break it in half and only have one whole pill a day at MOST.

I don’t recommend any of this I’m just sayin.

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I’m disappointed. I did okay Monday but ONE DAY LATER? 1400 cALORIES!! I was killing it too. I only had 160 calories allllll day until like 8. Then it went down hill bc I was bored and we went to target and I got Starbucks :( and a bunch of snacks to binge the second I got home. Like where’s the self control at??? I started a 30 hours fast last night around 11 and it’ll be going until tomorrow morning at 11. I can’t stand it. I gained 3 pounds between this week and last week and the number are just not going down. I’m gonna make a change :) a 30 hour fast, eat on Thursday between 11-7 and then another 30 hour fast after. That should do it for now. Right?

I know this is a long post but just to keep myself accountable, this will be my schedule for today

Wake up @ 8:30 ✔️

Walk/job at least 2 miles before noon

Drink one cup of water an hour starting at 10AM

I’m allowed 1 Bang, 1 Coke Zero, as much tea as I want and water. (All 0 calories minus the 40mg of sodium in the Coke and 40mg for the bang but that’s only 4% of my daily value so.....)

I have work in the morning so if I REALLY am struggling I’m allowing myself one 160cal premier protein shake. I only allow this because there’s 1g of sugar, and 30 grams of protein so it keeps my full and has barely anything else to it. But that’s a lay resort

So ya :) wish me luck and if u wanna fast with me today, we’re starting!!