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[nightdiary-blog1]

I’m not happy. I’m not sad. I am numb. I don’t know what and how to feel.

I wish I could take care of me like I take care of the others. I always find a reason for them to smile. Don’t get me wrong I still smile and joke but only if I have to. At night I cry, sometimes for no reason.

I feel empty. Alone.

If I only knew how to express myself. How can you tell people your not happy? I am intense. Some people call it drama. But I am me, and for some reason, I never get to truly express myself because I'm always scared that people will think I'm crazy. Not crazy, but maybe a little.

There's a storm in my head.

I am grateful to have people around me that like me and I think that is why I fell sad. Because of my stupid smile and my - I'm okay :).

I'm not, I know I'm not. But why should I make others worry about me? I've been through so much alone and now any small thing makes me break.