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a proper introduction! hi nice to meet you!

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already stated the normal things; hi i'm chloë, i'm a little socially nervous and i'm a selfshipper who writes for her faves to show her love. that's the basics. i'm 20, she/her masc woman, and bi-aroace. when i'm not writing x-reader content, i am writing selfship stuff or being really gay on my socials. speaking of those, here's some places you can find me...

intro carrd • main tumblr • selfship tumblr • main twitter • priv twitter

otherwise uhmm vague gesture i'll give. whatever i feel may garner more interest. like how does a nonsharing selfshipper make x-reader content. simple answer: i like word vomiting all the fucking time and not all x-reader content suits my tastes so why not just spill and create. maybe people feel similarly. i also love seeing people's reactions and seeing my faves get love also. i'm weirdly okay with doubles on this account and i cannot explain to you the "why" of this reason. the air is different here. i also don't draw often sooo this is my best way of showing love. you can find all of my personal sickness on my selfship tumblr or my priv twitter if that intrigues you for some reason.

live action media isn't new for me but before may of 2024, it definitely wasn't something i was heavily into. unfortunately colt seavers made his existence known and it just kinda snowballed from there. i adore all the characters i have listed that i will mainly write for, but colt by far is the one i think about the most. he's very cutieful 🫶

aside from mainly writing and occasionally designing my s/is and rarely drawing, as you can tell, i'm a little normal about content. i always am open to recommendations (movies are preferred, i do not have the focus for shows because my brain will jump around and take me a WHILE to finish) or listening to gushes. makes me happy seeing people happy! for recs i wouldn't go based on actors because i'm not an actor fanatic and if someone appears bald for .3 seconds i'm gonna walk away. i don't have any favorite movies because i like too many and having to narrow it down will be stressful.

i like thinking about men on the receiving end and being pathetic in some manner. personally i just get tired of the constant innocent/dainty girl content like give me a man who's sick and ill and at his lady's affections and crying for a kiss. i also think the characters deserve a lot of focus content and deserve to be spoiled, so you know. you'll see a lot of self-indulgent content here.

I LIKE RAMBLING. if this wasn't obvious. ranging from the content i write to this post. i just can talk a lot. so what else do i like?

i like orcas and foxes and longhorn cattle! those are my major faves. i'm also a big fan of animals and nature in general and i love learning about them!! i also like space. not as knowledgeable on that stuff but i find it very fascinating until you introduce math.

i like music a lot. my repetitive listens involve: sleep token, måneskin, soccer mommy, deftones, remi wolf, and slowly getting more interested in bad omens and tyler, the creator! i have many more unlisted but whatever let's keep it short.

i like the color red and red aesthetics and i'm sure that's very obvious. red's my favorite color it just looks pretty. red also plays a role in me liking autumn.

my main faves are currently: colt seavers (the fall guy 2024), driver/paul west (drive 2011, name from the novel's sequel), courtland gentry (the gray man 2022), ken carson (barbie: the movie 2023), luke glanton (the place beyond the pines 2012), holland march (the nice guys 2016), alexei vronsky (anna karenina 2012), tangerine (bullet train 2022), and i miiight be getting into ryland grace (project hail mary, currently the novel). this'll update over time, knowing myself.

my favorite trope ever unfortunately is childhood friends to lovers because it helps me cope and also a lot of the characters i like could use a long-term friend turned lover. i think it's cute. miiiight be what i mean when i say "implied long relationship" and the reader having a lot of knowledge on a character, but i'll never outright say that because you could always just know them for a few years. shrug

i don't know what else to put here. my dms are open and i'm totally ok with talking i'm just kinda shy and socially awkward probably. yeah that's kinda it for the intro

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ok working on new necessity posts (an extended personal intro + the masterlist). woohoo! progress day by day!

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i should make a masterlist eventually, huh

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IT'S DONE. I'M GOING TO BED. BYE

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in every melody and in every little scar — caring for the wounded, ft. colt, driver, and court.

notes: structured a little differently than normal, only because i'm testing this with more than one character this time. i'm very fond of caring for characters and it's very tender to see. i see a lot of the reader being the one cared for, but. i don't often see the characters being cared for. also you'll hear driver probably be also referred to as 'paul' here because. I Have Decided That Just Is His Name for a while (for myself) and makes things simple for my mind. would find it funny if 'west' was the only change. slice of divergence but otherwise...using a pseudonym as an actual name is fun and funny. i do that sometimes.

notes (bonus): for the writing content itself, there's probably gonna be mentions of injuries or whatever. if i'm lucky, emotional turmoil. all relationships here are implied to be a thing before story events and is implied a pretty long relationship at that. what with knowing character ins and outs and all that. implied same occupation for colt/court, but with driver it's implied the reader also has night-life stuff i guess. ok anyways! content utc have fun

i'm gonna be honest here, with how much of a...guuuuy he is, i know colt brushes pain off. already mentions how much the stuff he does hurts, i just think he keeps quiet because he wouldn't want to trouble you. could have his shin bone sticking out of his leg and he's on the verge of tears but he's like "no no it's fine"— you're too familiar with this. you don't need impressing. you wanna smack him over the head, but that'll just add insult to injury...literally.

even though he loves to try and be "cool" for you (even after such a long and thoroughly dedicated relationship), which you constantly remind colt that isn't necessary, he can't help but become a sap in your arms when you offer care. he'll ask you if he did good and you'll roll your eyes. says it doesn't matter but yes, he did, and you grab cotton balls and gauze and things to clean wounds. some conversation happens that leads you to telling colt that he can be honest and tired after being a human ragdoll for the day and not fret over his performance in your eyes...

on the OTHER end of the spectrum, with how much you do care for colt in regards to pain he experiences with all the stunt work he does, sometimes he'll be overdramatic about an injury for you to have your hands on him. your care's a little addictive, and he's comfortable enough to play weak in your presence. oh god, he's bruised his arm and it hurts sooooo bad...he is literally giving you puppy-dog eyes and asking for a kiss. grown ass man.

in his moments of being sore and his limbs are crying in absolute exhaust, you like to run colt baths. he'll probably protest getting up from wherever he's resting, but the payoff of warm water surrounding him feels heavenly. not to mention there's things added to the bath to help him relax or help his aching body...and then you take care to wash his body, wash his hair...you could be in the same amount of soreness as colt himself, and yet, here you are, tending to him. colt feels spoiled by you sometimes. you ought to join him in the bath, because there's a high probability he might doze off for a bit and you can keep him from drowning.

more mild injuries always get kissed by you and it makes colt a little. ssssick. it's an act of care, at least to him, to have you kiss over bandaids or bruises or lightly bandaged wounds...all things colt can handle, and these little injuries don't hurt too bad (if there's any pain at all). but your kisses to his body in general tend to make him feel better. you should kiss him all day, just saying...

okay let's stir away from the physical and let's get down and dirty into the personal. people can have insecurities. he sure seemed to grow some. with how long you guys have known each other, you'd obviously know a little more of what hides in his brain. like when colt is in that state of being tired and too sleep deprived more than he himself can handle, and he tiredly asks you if he's too worrying. burdening. you know it's his mind moving too much and he's too tired to keep quiet. your words are something along the lines of your worry coming from a place of care and concern— even in jobs like this, the worry remains even if he's good at what he does.

i can't say i see colt as the overly jealous type. nor particularly insecure about the relationship you guys share. but i'm sure he gets bouts of moments where he wonders if there'd be someone better suited for you, even if you constantly show that you love him very much. and since the incident where he broke his back and he went into hiding (and you miraculously chased him down months prior to his resurfacing), he ends up wondering this more. since he ended up hurting you in the process of that ordeal. is he everything you need or want? and even despite these worries, you spend your time holding him in your arms, carding your fingers through his hair, and reminding colt why you guys are in a relationship. why you love him. why you care.

you show your care towards colt in many ways, and despite banter you guys may have, if someone else crosses the line with their words or treatment towards him, you snap back. of course, mild teasing and little jokes are fine, you're not some defensive, prickly lover who knows no fun. no, you'll see colt deflate very vaguely when someone makes a comment that bruises him a little, and you're immediately telling said person to watch their mouth. it kinda catches him off guard. suppose with all the quips you two give each other, colt expects you to run with most comments in his direction, but no.

i think in general you're very attentive to colt, and you like giving him uplifting words or endearing actions just to raise his mood. holding this wounded puppy in your arms and rubbing his back and telling him a variety of things depending on his mood. "maybe you just need a day to rest." you reassure to colt when it seems like his work with stunts just feel sorta miss that day. which, everyone has their off days, it happens. maybe he feels just emotionally weird for some reason he can't place his finger on. maybe it takes a different method. like having you kiss his face and buttering up his brain and just spending time adoring him so he can feel a little better. and to that, colt is very appreciative! you do make him feel better in more ways than one.

[ pretty rough day for lack of a better description. just because the two of you are capable doesn't mean work goes without any trouble or exhaustion or just wanting to take a five hour nap on the couch and not move for the next several days. though colt's standing tall and looks relatively fine to most people commending him for his work on set today, you know that look on his face well enough. that strained smile and the tired look in his eyes— you're kinda observant like that. you wrap up conversations quickly and usher colt to his trailer. he seems a little taken aback.

"you're tired, don't try to tell me otherwise. i feel like if five minutes were to pass, you'd just end up taking a nap right there in the grass." you gesture with a wave of your free hand. the other holds colt by his bicep and walk him towards where he can rest. "ideally, i'd much rather get you to the hotel, but that's a long drive. and honestly? you look like you need some rest."

colt's tired eyes flutter a bit at the idea. rest. it sounds nice. really nice. "right, yeah. guess it was a rougher day today. i can return the favor if you want-"

you shush colt and take a seat, patting your lap. he follows with that "thank you" expression as always, leaning against you and resting his chin on your shoulder. he feels content with having his chest pressed to yours. but he feels a higher level of euphoria as you work your fingers into the uptight mucles of his back. his eyes, though closed, basically roll under his eyelids with a delighted groan leaving him. "you're so good to me. i'll treat you well after, i promise..."

"don't worry about that, just rest." you lightly chide, kissing the side of colt's head. ]

with his many occupations, it's not unlikely for driver to not be wounded by some means. whether on a minor or semi-grand scale. you're less likely to see him come home late at night with injuries as opposed to his day jobs. Your careful hands tend to soothe his mind from a night's high-end chase. but they're exceptionally good with the more mechanical injuries...you like hanging around with him and shannon, and though driver's unlikely to hurt himself on a grand scale, if he knicks himself, it's routine for you to examine the injury. and also, working with oil with an open wound isn't smart.

driver's not one to really tell you if he's hurting. well, i kind of take that back? he'll tell you, just not verbally. his body language and facial expressions are very loud with you. or maybe you just know him really well. why do his eyes look more pensive than normal...he's gotta be super focused on something...with like, the vaguest hint of a frown on his lips. you move that blue jacket off of his body and sure enough, there's a fucking welt. before driver can give you any means of protest, you sit him down on you guys' shared bed and put ice on the area.

...sometimes he'll intentionally seek you out. sometimes directly. sometimes through other means. if it's direct, you'll hear that low voice asking if you can stop by. you don't question it, you just beeline however you can to wherever he is. apparently the metal of the car he's working on gave him a pretty shitty hassle, and you take care of him pretty well. you're as careful as ever, disinfecting the wound and wrapping it up. on the other end? you get a call from shannon that driver looks like a wounded puppy for some reason. well that's more than enough for you, and you're wherever the two are in a heartbeat. suppose being a stuntman was a little harder than not that day, and he just looks worn out. however the contact gets to you, it's always you who drives him home.

let's get a little messier. you know paul's jobs can get a little rowdy, you both came to familiarize each other with the complications of having interesting night lives when your relationship was well established. you both had a run-in. secrets revealed. fun stuff. and in accordance to movie events, a gunshot wound is a pretty messy of a situation. getting stabbed is horrific. he isn't sure how, but you find him. in the midst of bleary pain that courses through his body, you're stitching up the wound in his abdomen and you're urging him to the passenger seat. there's a terror in your eyes he doesn't remember ever seeing before as you rush to a discreet clinic.

in healing processes, you stay near him. before any of the major incidents or after, you're cooped up in a room right beside paul with the awareness of a falcon. you can't say this keen driver is used to staying still and having to rest up—every flex of his arm and the movements of his fingers clenching and unclenching in some unidentifiable emotion—but he knows you aren't about to let him do anything as long as he isn't physically stable. you check in on him, give him food and water, and make sure he rests. he's very attentive, and if in this scenario it's someone who's hurt him by some means, he can almost see your eye twitch every five minutes. he doesn't see you like that very often.

long relationship equals long knowledge of your significant other. if he isn't actively showing how pissed off he can get or the flurry of emotions that bloom from the crevasses of his mind, you've developed a keen eye for reading the subtle details in driver's body language. a decent reminder that this is your lover and not just some mechanic/stuntman/getaway driver you know really well. he looks tense, because sometimes the nighttime routine gets like that. sometimes he won't talk about it—he can talk about it sometimes, if he needs to—and your immediate offer is to just let him decompress on top of you. Yep.

driver's jobs can leave him exhausted. sure, people use his skills for whatever they need them for, which means he's good at what he does. and it also leaves opportunity for his mind to wander. his life can be a little hectic. he manages a life that, if royally fucked up, could put you in danger just by association. he gets these bouts of wondering if this is the best thing for you. you don't miss his worries. you do your own things at night that definitely have left a muddy mark on what is your identity. you remind driver that you're capable of handling your own. and suppose something happens anyways— you're his ride or die. and you usually say this when he's feeling a little more handsy than normal (for the most part is just letting him hold you to remind him that you're still by his side).

though his expression is one that seems relatively stoic, or bored, or just some emotion most people can't—and shouldn't be able to—decipher. sometimes it isn't words that'll help driver in this moment. er, those moments. at most, you'll ask him if he's had a "long day/night?", and he'll only nod. sometimes, even with you, he just can't find it in himself to talk. you'll have a shower running in no time. you'll take care of him like you enjoy doing, washing his body and gradually feel this man lean against you and you gotta attempt to stay upright so you don't fall and break your head in the shower. that'd be embarrassing. but you manage it because paul looks insanely content with having you take care of him and keep his mind far away from what he's done all day.

how do i close this off. paul finds your general presence a way of you showing your care, which you don't understand. but to him, you're always nearby, and to him, it's like you always wanna make sure he's okay. or that you actually feel safe around him. whether that's being in the convenience store doing some basic necessity shopping, or you're in the mech shop and sitting on a stool nearby while he works. how you'll ask him to explain the functions of why a vehicle's engine is placed where it is and why that's important. how you'll ride in the car beside him when he's got dirty work to take care of and you'll be there in a moment's notice if shit hits the fan.

[ "well it seems like you've got your hands busy. any particular reason for a call or were you just bored again?" you joke, slipping past shannon and taking your spot next to driver. he's not even looking at you, but the moment he heard your voice, he had already began to uncontrollably smile. in that unbelievably adorable way that made you fall in the first place. you don't poke him for answers, but he does look relatively tired. it's a little later than usual, too.

you tilt his head up to face you. he looks relieved that you answered his call, whenever he did. poor guy must've had a rough day and had to save face for whatever reason it may be. you don't even have to ask, you just raise your hand and shannon tosses you the keys to driver's car.

"alright, to the car. i'll drive us even if i don't enjoy it." you fuss lightheartedly. you pull driver to his feet and his back pops. you grimace a bit and make an expression of concern. he gives you one decent hug before you two have to pull apart and get in the car. it's nice, and he's got a warm presence. you could do without the scent of oil on his clothes, but it could be worse. ought to be glad it isn't blood.

he pulls back somewhat to look at you properly. "thank you." paul's voice remains soft. you wave your hand dismissively. ]

whooh boy this is not gonna be fun. heed this sentence, i may reference court's past here, probably not in-depth. that being said, yeah, court's very capable of handling his own even when it seems like the odds are stacked against him. but with how long you've known your dearest and how much you know about him and the very things tucked into his heart, it's hard not to act like this man's guard dog. he can handle his own, you've seen it time and time again. still, adrenaline rises in your body when court gets hurt. he shouldn't be in this position to begin with, and you want to limit the pain he ever experiences.

this man gets beat up. a lot. whether he's clean about it or not. you could also be bleeding from your mouth, or your head, or stumbling with a concussion. your mind prioritizes court's well-being. you're urgently bandaging up a wound on his shoulder and also shouldering him from any attacks. he'll get onto you about that, out of concern, and not wanting more losses than necessary. but while you help him to safety in the moment, your words remain the same. he's already been dealt more hurt in his life than he needs, taking care of him and eating attacks is the least you can do for someone so hurt in life already.

after every mission, even when you're tired and aching and look like bandaids on damaged wires with how much bandaging is on your body, you're checking in with court. making sure everything's decent, and that a hospital visit isn't a necessity at the moment. genuinely. because you'll get him in a car in a heartbeat. though court thinks you should focus on yourself, he can't deny the warmth that comes with your concern. even as you tiredly change his own bandaging and clean up every wound he has, then eventually beckon him into your arms so you two can fall asleep.

oh, yeah, more physical care. really specifically choosing the outfits court presents himself with. his immaculate fashion choices (er, most of them...) are all you. you both have to look presentable for missions, and yeah he knows how to blend in, but your input is something otherworldly domestic of you? you'll find outfits that fit the setting of where either he or you both will be, and as always, it looks great on him. something something about taking care to do his hair and flatten out any potential wrinkles in his clothing will kinda make him ajakendkabsj but whatever.

i think kissing scars falls under physical care. i mean, it's kisses to moments in life that could use a little healing. you Know where i'm going with this. lay court back, spoil him, all that fun shit. let your lips press kisses over each and every scar, not pulling away at how they look or how long they run. court seems a little awkward when handling good views towards him, so you'll see his face go red. he probably questions why you're spending so much time putting your lips on his body. you'll tell him he needed a lot of love growing up, and some affection won't take it away, but you hope it helps in a comforting way.

same routine let's get to the other area. i think if court is awkward in terms of handling being loved or appreciated or generally having a positive view towards him, he gets real clingy. is it sinking into his mind that you're really there with him? or that you're really a safe space for him? you're not pushing him away, you're not telling him he's weak, or that his awkwardness with giving affection is weird...you're tucking his head under your chin and scratching his head. when he gets vulnerable like this, you'll indulge it. he deserves it.

with the way he grew up and how his dad treated him and his brother, you can always tell when court Definitely needs to cry in your arms for five hours. whether a mission hit too close to home for some reason or a memory decided to resurface, he gets a specific look on his face. it doesn't matter what was supposed to come next, you're just ushering court to sit down. you pull him against your chest, and it's like his resolve crumbles. it's so strange to be cared for, at least like this, and sometimes it makes him break down even harder in your arms.

much like in the similar circumstance of colt, god forbid someone badmouths your man. court can take banter or insults, unfortunately it's probably embedded in his brain to take them since before he was in the program. you, however...you can hold your tongue during missions because let's not blow a fuse and cause any unnecessary drama, but in a scenario where there's no potential danger and someone's being a prick? they're just stepping at court way more than necessary? you sock them in the nose and he's telling you it wasn't that serious. maybe not to him...

reassurance for courtplace generic is a must even if he doesn't speak it. even saying it randomly when he isn't consciously thinking about it is much appreciated. the constant "I love you"s to court feel unreal but are well treasured in his mind. telling him that he's worth the trouble and getting shot in the leg for is both concerning but heartwarming. patching up a scratch on his cheek and saying you'll always be there to take care of him means more than you'll probably ever know.

[ he's been like this since you two got to a safer area. a current residence, essentially. you two are sitting on a bed and he's on your lap, arms coiled around you like a snake but far from constricting you. admittedly, even though you wouldn't tell him to, you're too weak to push him off. still, you card your fingers through court's hair as his heavy breaths hit the skin of your neck.

"you know, your clinginess is awful cute. and i get to see it all for myself." you admire. court can practically hear the smirk in your voice and it makes him feel a little embarrassed.

"just like knowing you're okay." he mumbles against your shoulder. "you put yourself on the line for me a lot. i just need a moment to..."

he trails off, but you get it. you nod and begin massaging a section of court's neck. he relaxes further into your general presence, a low groan of appreciation slipping past his lips. he wants to tell you to relax as well, but he can hardly concentrate with how well you take care of him. that repetitive thought creeps into his mind that he's undeserving of this care, that you constantly putting yourself on the line for someone like him isn't worth it. that he's certain he's burdening you and causing you more pain than you need. it feels like too much on his mind again.

"i love you." you whisper into his ear, punctuating it with a kiss to his cheek. court squeezes his eyes shut to keep the burning sensation in his eyes to a minimum. ]

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this is technically more of a ramble and less of an organized content thing because i think about this fool a lot more than necessary

last year when i finally went and watched drive, i had solely expected it to be like. a casual thriller. which i didn't mind but to some degree that's also why i halted because thrillers can be hit or miss. and like, the intensity of the mid-end caught me off guard for sure and i enjoyed it, but i think the thing that surprised me the most was how much of a yearner driver is. or in general how nice he was in his interactions with irene or the people close to irene. like that caught me off guard which is fun, i like surprises!

like to further elaborate why this is surprising, i don't think i saw any of his yearnerisms in any clips or screenshots that i saw. it was usually like...how stoic or really pensive he tends to look. that simultaneous mixture of looking focused and also vaguely disinterested, that man's got a crazy poker face. so you know, here i am, august 2024, literally the first day and am renting this movie

didnt go well. in a great way. i am not about to post it here but i have an audio recording of myself literally yelling "WHY DO I ALWAYS FALL FOR THE SMITTEN ONES?" while live reacting to drive. so. you know. a little unexpected.

but unfortunately this also works out in my favor when it comes time to writing content about him because driver being a yearner makes things quite fun to think about. someone should bully this guy tbh. that's a joke, sorta. but in a literal sense, yeah, who wouldn't love to think about a guy who yearns for you. a lot. who cannot stop smiling around you. girl your emotions are showing and even you can't stop them 🤨

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nervously looking at one of my posts. 12 notes sure is more than i was anticipating...? WELL ALRIGHT

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alright now i get a nap in and attempt to get my body to feel somewhat better. enjoy my dumpings while i write for myself <3

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look who's lonely now — general holland march thinks and thoughts. headcanons. all that cool stuff.

notes: like i said, for my first post on each character, i was gonna go in order. but my first non-mutual follower was a holland enjoyer so. gestures. shoutout to you really specifically. march is an idiot and unfortunately very fun to write for.

what do i even say about you. holland march. mcjackwad. at least he's an entertaining lover. you startle this man and the pipes on this guy are impressive. why does he whine like that? whatever, you love him, even if he's a pain in the neck more than half of the time. you guys probably bicker a lot, but it's mostly lighthearted. like there's no serious threat that you guys hate each other, but whatever. not stopping the banter!

holland's a decently well-kept man in terms of his outfits and the like. have you seen those suits? gorgeous. can you think about helping them on him though? getting the blazer on his body? tucking in his dress shirts? i think holland would be particularly fond of you doing his ties. you'll look so focused on making sure it looks decent and centered and is snug that he just gets mesmerized. and then you punctuate helping him get ready with a soft kiss to the cheek. a stark contrast to the banter that usually fills the home.

you survived that fire. by some miracle, you just did. and even when you rag on him for being an idiot, you don't hold it against holland for what happens. you can't find it in yourself to do so. which, whenever he'd visit you in the hospital, it was painful. you'd look at him with a smile, happy to see him doing somewhat fine afterwards, and you don't look resentful. he's got a nose issue, you guys banter, so you can understand. but it's holland who feels this sickening feeling in his gut every time he saw you in that hospital bed knowing he should've just listened.

if you notice holland drinking too heavily, you'll take over and keep that damn bottle out of reach. sure, he can be entertaining while drunk, but...he can also be one hell of a danger to himself. and you also get concerned about his liver. and if you're like me and you absolutely hate the smell/taste of alcohol AND cigarettes, snatch them away from holland. will he get annoyed? yeah. but you're doing him a favor.

he's the housewife i fear. i would find it really, really funny if this was his role. you both got jobs, yeah. you come home and he is at least cleaning...something. you both used to joint-cook but i think his loss of smelling anything would be just a slight hindrance in cooking. so he leaves that to you.

if holland would be out late, sometimes he'll come home to you and holly sleeping on the couch with the tv on. in my head, this is post-fire. it's a heartwarming sight, and holly looks at peace here (she tends to feel thar way more towards you since the ordeal even happened, given her relationship with her dad becomes a little more strained...). you and holly will probably wake up to holland next to the couch, a few pillows under his body to give himself Some comfort while he lays near you guys. holly figures her dad got drunk, and you'll probably jokingly agree— but he's done this more than once, so it feels really endearing to wake up to.

closing my eyes. kissing holland's wedding band. and he just staaaaares at you. turns his head away a little flustered. i'll just let this bullet point marinate before i start fucking coughing myself. have fun

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so come on and save me now — general quincy thoughts and the like. a gift for my bud @floodlandss ☝️

notes: hey girl. i said i was gonna do it, didn't i? uhmm since this is tagged publicly though, sorry if i get anything wrong. everything i get is from my friend. heavily catered to them. this is a special gift for them as they've been such an encouragement when it comes to the faves you'll see written here, so this is partially a thank you piece, partially me getting their ass. thanks again dude ilysm <3

quincy isaacs. head in my hands. what an emotional character jesus christ. well where do i even start? moving past the angst of getting him to finally trust in you in terms of being vulnerable and all of that...he's a sap. granted he's a little smooth about it, but by god does he adore you. you grace his presence and he's immediately walking over to you and wrapping his arms around you.

quincy's become fond of little domestic moments between you two. how you like to adjust his hat if it seems to look like it's slipping off. if you have braids, maybe he'll undo your one braid strand and redo it so it looks better. maybe you and quincy settle together on the couch and he's explaining how good use of lighting makes all the difference in a good photo. maybe you talk about a line in a book that was really profound and he listens with intrigue.

in honor of them seeing the new year's kiss for the first time, let's talk about kissing. quincy's kisses are very loving and full of affection for you, he makes no mistake in making sure that's known. whether this is multiple kisses to the face, or just a really long one to the lips. you can always feel his feelings in the kisses he gives. quincy's fond of kissing you everywhere and anywhere, and if possible, he'll keep his eyes on you all the while. sometimes quincy kisses you like you're his last drop of life he'll ever get. sometimes quincy will kiss you like it's his last night alive.

he likes having you inside him [PAUSE!]. the transference thing. he likes it when you accompany him like this. in a way, he feels significantly more whole. you can hear his every thought just as he can hear yours. heartbeats in sync as your beings become one. it's quite intimate and something quincy feels safe in. who better to let steer the wheel than his own beloved?

you speak about the future, and it seems so gloom. he's heard about your experiences firsthand, but he thinks about what would be in store for him. his future. if anything, what would you guys' future be like together? he wonders if he can change the future, if even by a little bit. his fingers run over your ring finger a little more these days, but he doesn't know if you'd swing that way. he's unsure if he would, either.

there's a sense of peace that always fills him whenever you hold him. pull him into an embrace, pull him close in where you guys rest, tug him closer by the arm— how does your presence always feel so reassuring? that everything might be okay? he could get lost in the feeling of his frame against your body for hours. he missed this feeling, it's one he hasn't had in years.

tell quincy you love him. he has a wide range of reactions. he'll press a kiss to your temple and say he loves you too, or maybe that he loves you more. tell him when he's sleepy, and he'll grunt as a reply but opts to draw you closer to him. tell him you love him after fighting off foes, and he'll kiss you with so much fervor that it makes your head spin. like a reassurance that you both are alive, that everything's okay, that neither of you are dead. tell him you love him over the kim chats, and he'll be a little different. asks you why. you'll spill reasons. he'll ask if he's worth it. you say it, every time, that he's worth the love and patience. always.

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its up. thought about him so hard i genuinely wonder if im gonna throw up. time to spin the wheel of who's next i guess

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you're the one, you get buried alive — colt seavers thoughts and the like. general headcanons.

notes: yyyeah so colt seavers makes me sick with the plague. that's about it. should be general headcanons ft. gn!reader. probably gonna be implied that reader also does stunts because why not bandage each other up. i think that's all, though. i also like Red expect that a lot i guess

great lover. what is wrong with this guy! love him dearly. no yeah, in total seriousness, he's such a sweetheart of a lover! besides being the embodiment of a super affectionate dog, he's also one to show a lot of concern for you. attentive? probably. if you need like five minutes away from him, you got it. you need to cling to him with the strength of a thousand men? wow dude he's opening his arms up for you instantaneously.

uhm. he's also really corny. i made the joke on my priv twitter once that tom would probably go "fucking cornball 🫵🤣" right in his face. colt's as sweet as he is cheesy. really sappy comment in your direction and you probably just gotta stare at him for five minutes. grown ass man. what kind of reaction do you have? hmmm (up to you)

he's so. pathetic. said endearingly. because he'll probably do stunts in front of you and tries to look good in front of you every time. shaking my head. he's experiencing pain in his hips from getting hit by a car willingly and then gets up looking at you like. yeah i looked great Didn't I? Did You Like It? Did You Like Me? you gotta roll your eyes and sit him down so you can tend to the very mild laceration on his arm he somehow missed.

on the opposite end of the spectrum, he is staring at you with eyes twinkling and sparkling. you are such a badass being able to fall off a bike and look unscathed and totally fine. he admires you. but he is also bee-lining in your direction and checking you for any injuries and making sure your body and bones all function like normal. all good? okay cool, he's putting a bandaid on any wounds.

any affection given back to colt will probably have him reeling. ohh, lovingly caressing his cheek and saying he looks so pretty today. he's gonna turn really red over it and you're doing something incredibly basic! wow, call him smitten. you'll say you had fun working on set with him and give him a kiss on the cheek thereafter and he's just 💥💥💥💥💥

brush the bangs from his eyes NOWWWWW!!!!!! he'll be putty in your hands for sure. gazes at you with those puppy dog-like eyes and. mmhmyehajsdhsjaha

colt would love to take baths with you after a long day. runs the water nice and warm and includes epsom salts. he'll probably have you in his lap and holds you close while you massage all of his back (or as much as your hands can tolerate), loosen up those muscles a little more every day. he'll return the favor by washing your hair. or your body. that man can't keep his hands to himself, so uh. good luck. 👍

i'm dragging this on because i literally think about him to anything and everything in existence uhhh what about kisses. he kisses with passion. might kiss you breathless, accidentally or intentionally. will dig it if you do it back. kissing him breathless? colt's brain is losing oxygen and he's whining for you to keep it going. i think if you douse him in cheek kisses he probably giggles and kicks his feet. grown ass man. shut the fuck up.

i'd have more to say but i fear i will get sick and die in the process so i'm stopping it here. what a guy

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oomfs following me. just you wait one day i will throw rocks at all of you

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leans back in my chair. i Immediately want to write for colt seavers but i have to let the promo marinate. and also share this blog accordingly. closes my eyes while smoking a blunt fuckkkkk

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this is a sideblog, all of my interactions will come from @loverss-lanee. if necessary, here's my carrd.

pinned post (you're here!) • extended intro • masterlist

promo post! or something along those lines. hi, i'm chloë, and i like to write. so once again, i've made a blog for that. i have faves i like thinking about a lot so, you know. dumping grounds! sorry if i come off as awkward or nervous or something, i just get antsy about social interaction is all! uhhmmm i guess a few basics to get out there: i'm an adult, so i personally am not ok with minors interacting. cuz i will drop a suggestive comment/joke/scenario in my writing. the characters i will write for are my main focuses because i...selfship. on another blog. but i also love creating content and i don't draw often, so! this is my content for them.

i work (both irl and indulge myself frequently), so requests may or may not happen. depends. but the inbox will be open for rambles, gushes, thoughts, all that jazz...

i do not consider myself an "actor-fanatic" or anything along those lines, and have jokingly told friends that these characters are more akin to a curse (repeat portrayals). i don't mind fans of the portrayals interacting, i have/had friends who are fans of the people who portray their faves! just. no rpf or generally weird people. please. if i check your blog and you're weird about the actual people, i'm gonna immediately block you. unfortunately, since i'm unsure of how reach will work, i may tag portrayal names, but it'll never be [person x reader]. which is awkward to do, sorry oomfs who see this account. i will probably stop at some point, but for reach purposes...y'know. tagging below is just for necessary characters and sources. all that jazz.

i think that's the basic stuff. so. welcome! everything you need to know will be under the cut, as well as the characters i will usually write for!

characters you will see from me frequently:

colt seavers (the fall guy, 2024)

driver/paul west (drive, 2011) (name taken from the sequel novel, driven. i will use driver/paul interchangeably)

courtland gentry (the gray man, 2022)

ken carson (barbie: the movie, 2023)

luke glanton (the place beyond the pines, 2012)

holland march (the nice guys, 2016)

alexei vronsky (anna karenina, 2012)

tangerine (bullet train, 2022)

characters you may see from me on occasion (not characters i heavily fancy like the others, i may just enjoy them regularly!):

tom ryder (the fall guy, 2024)

jody moreno (the fall guy, 2024)

lemon (bullet train, 2022)

alright here's some ground rules or general notices for writing i suppose?

currently, requests will only be for my mutuals who are linked to this account. i may do normal requests for my faves, but i'd rather test the waters for myself. don't wanna burn myself dry. mutuals! you are free to request whoever you wanna in terms of your faves, consider this just extended bullying action from me.

obviously dni stuff don't request anything problematic ever or i will personally throw a rock at your forehead. otherwise, things i won't write for personally are full-on nsfw (with the exception of comments or jokes or the like, that's fine, falls under suggestive) or solely angst. i tend to focus more on fluff, hurt/comfort, and making men stupid and sappy and flustered. i do not care for men being weird and dominating sorry. i may also stick to writing for gn/fem!readers because i feel more comfortable with that.

if i do open normal requests at any point, please don't request outside of the character list. because those are the only characters i will write for. shrug emoji. again, i'm not an actor-fanatic, i don't go binging all of their content. this just happens to be a series of curses.

there may be vague hints to pre-established relationships (meaning a relationship might be established before the events of a series), ranging from a pre-established relationship to maybe something like the reader and a character have known each other for a while. i'll probably specify. this only goes for my normal content (mutuals' stuff will be catered to them).

i figure anyone will know there'll be canon divergence, but in some cases, the reader may follow along with some. set-in things. best I can explain this is like, if it's a holland focused piece, reader probably experienced the fire. and lived. he gets the guilt anyways. but yeah there's an example. but also some characters, the reader may be implied same occupation. shrug

i'm ngl i started this at work and can't think of anything else to add. just don't be weird. admin is a character-enjoyer so please don't be Weird about the actors here (or in general talk about them, my pref; again i'm more character-focused). that makes me uncomfortable. and also mutuals seeing me tag with solely actor names. yea sorry like i said that's more for reach purposes more than anything LMFAOOOO