nighttimeboybiter

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my lord, apologies for my entrenching on thine allocated time to doomscroll, but i fear that thy loyal subjects have become.. well.. rather helpless.

you see, my liege, they know not of the bloodshed around them. i thought it to be a mere jest, but i find myself baffled by such arrogance, such apathy. they care more for their technology than all the bodies laying in the holy land.

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“grew up listening to my chemical romance”😭

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i am going to die like this and i know it somewhere inside me

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i hate school again. not because i don’t understand but because its not hard at all. oh no. another fucking easy test. mmhssgsh get me out

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its been a long time since ive had a genuinely suicidal thought but ladies and gents, we are unfortunately back

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nvm i wanna be fucked again

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i miss the family you promised me

and i miss how you looked at me

i miss how you’d hold my hand and im sorry i would let go around others

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i cannot be saved by god it started as a joke but now that im laying in bed, i do want his hands on me

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its starting to subside now and then but i think you’ve kind of ruined me for the rest of my life

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dont come over when you know what i think of you

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this never happened, you never happened and we will never happen

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i’m not mad at you, no not necessarily.

but decimated, yes. entirely. i feel stupid, yes.

but no, not ever mad. i knew it’d crash and burn, i knew i’d hit the floor too with it. i should’ve just put that flame out when i felt it.

nothing ever good comes from crushes. from mine specifically. i’m good at grades, good at making, good at the silly things. people, i’m not good at.

i can tell you the alphabet of animal facts and medical disorders, but i do not know. people.

i do not know talking, words, emotion. not properly anyway. and yet i try and try and try to like and love and cherish.

i am not a lover. or the loved maybe. not in the way i want to be. pretty but never enough to kiss. smart but not enough for awards. good at writing, but never enough to make it outside tumblr or fanfiction.

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Frank was muppet maxxing tonight

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foaming at the mouth oh my lordy

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to think i could ever deserve the gentleness or really even your touch was selfish. i indulge in fantasy too much and i’m sorry.

if you would be so kind and miss me

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Ph my gsoOoOoOoOoDDDDD YAYAYYAYAYA MY BABY HAS GROWN UPPP

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im so delusional i want him so bad