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Cool na Kayo?

Earlier in 7eleven, Dwight and I were talking while we were seated at one of the tables. In the middle of our conversation, napansin ko na may tatlong lalaking pumasok and then took a seat on the table next to ours. Since magkaharap kami ni Dwight, sa may side sila ni Dwight umupo so hindi niya nakita.

Habang nagsasalita si Dwight, nakita ko yung mga ulo nila na nakatingin sa direction ko. I spared them one look and my suspicions were confirmed. Medyo umanggulo ako away from them tapos patuloy lang nakinig kay Dwight.

A few minutes later, tumitingin na naman sila, nagbubulungan. By that time, I was growing anxious so I asked Dwight to sit beside me but by then, all three of them stood up to leave.

Dumaan sila sa may side ng 7eleven and dahil nga clear yung sides ng 7eleven, nakita kong nakatingin pa rin sila. They stayed at one side of the store for a moment so sinabi ko na kay Dwight yung nakikita ko.

Nilingon niya and then, as they were walking to the side of the store (the one I had my back on), they raised a middle finger to him and they were laughing. Kahit hindi ako nakatingin, I could see it from the peripheral view. 

Tapos nung nandun na sila sa may likod ko, kinatok nila yung salamin pero hindi ko na nilingon pero nakita ko si Dwight umiling nalang siya tapos ngumiti. I asked him a few times kung nandun pa sila and it took a while bago sila tuluyang umalis.

They were high schoolers, according to Dwight, which made me all the more annoyed.

So cool na kayo niyan, mga brad? Nakakainis lang kasi. If they were thinking that they'd look cool pag naghamon sila ng away, I don't know how the hell they thought it would work. If they thought it would impress me or anyone else, the only thing they would prove is how big a dumbass each of them are.

Sorry, guys. My boyfriend never and never will stoop so low and that's one of the reasons I love him.

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"She's So Pretty"

That's what my blockmate said when my boyfriend's crush passed right in front of us.

It happened earlier when Leif and I were sitting in front of room 105. The whole of AB Chorale were about to leave for their photoshoot, passing us by on their way.

I pointed out the girl that Dwight liked from the ABC and Leif looked at her for a long time and when she was out of earshot, he exclaimed, "She's so pretty."

I could only smile though deep inside, I was stunned. Something inside me snapped. It was partly because he called her pretty. But it's not what you think it is.

So she's pretty. She's tall. She sings. She dances. She had pretty hair. She's slim unlike me. She could probably even be smarter than me and that's a huge possibility.

Of course she was better than me which is why I know why Dwight liked her in the first place. Why the hell would he like her if she wasn't, even by just a bit, better than me?

Something inside me just wanted to eat my depression away but I know that's just what the devil wanted me to do to make people appreciate me less. So from now on, I swear I'm not going to eat anything that will make me fat even if it means I have to starve myself to death.

I'm going to do what I have to to become what I was before. I'm going to obsess over this, I swear. 

I can't take any more of this shit anymore. 

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Good morning po. :)

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Long Distance Relationships

Long distance relationships are much harder than they sound.

Not every couple can pull this off easily. There are those who are lucky who last several months, there are those who are truly meant to be and there are those who just give up.

I never knew what the key was to keeping this kind of relationship steady and I never found out.

But then, I think that the best way to keep it steady is that to avoid fights, avoid talking about other people (but that'll make it seem like you're hiding something) and always be sweet. Remind each other of your first few weeks together and how you fell in love. Relive the petty times you used to feel butterflies in your stomach when your lover held your hand and when he/she still laughed at everything you said.

Just always keep the faith and keep trying. Keep trying because good things come to those who persevere and are persistent. Just remember that when it doesn't end well, you can say that you tried. You honestly tried and it wasn't you who didn't give up. At least you can say that with your chin up.

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Corpse Party (Play Station Portable)

The story is about a group of students and their teacher who stayed in school late one night and vowed that they would always be together. An earthquake occurred shortly before they left the classroom and all nine of them got separated into different spaces and dimension. Ghosts, corpses and blood are scattered all over the place and the students have to get past it all in their attempt to escape the haunted school cursed by a ghost.

I swear that this game is so creepy, I had to sleep over at Dwight's house one night because I was so creeped out by the story. Even until now, I can hear the sound effects in my head and still feel like sleeping beside my sister. 

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Kyuhyun thought that Seohyun likes him.

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Spot the difference nga. Ewan ko na lang pag hindi pa nakita.

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St. Valentine's Day

I'm not the type of person who expects a candle lit dinner on Valentine's Day... Not anymore, at least. I don't expect a huge teddy bear or 8 gigantic letters when I arrive in school. But that doesn't mean I don't expect anything and that I don't have to celebrate Valentine's Day because it's merely an event that society had put on a specific date.

I'm fine with lunch in a fast food chain and a small keychain or a hand-written letter. The point is appreciating the effort that the other put into making you smile on the 14th of February.

The point of Valentine's Day is to celebrate with that one person or the people who love you. It could either be your family or someone special... Or just the bed. Even if you say that it's a trivial holiday, really you're celebrating it in your own way.

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Who's Hallucinating?

Scene: Before crossing the road while walking along Dapitan on our way home.

His Side: As we passed by the small store, he said he was craving for gummies but hesitated to buy because he knew it's been some time since the gummie worms were first put into the jar. He continued on and crossed the road and when he was reaching behind himself for my hand, he turned around and found that I had not crossed the street. I was still standing in the shade and he thought that I just felt a bit tired and hot from walking in the heat. He waited for me on the other side of the street and when I crossed the street, it was as if my hand was being pulled by someone else and I almost got hit by the pink car so he pulled me at last.

My Side: As we passed by the small store, he said he was craving for gummies but hesitated to buy because he knew it's been some time since the gummie worms were first put into the jar. I was about to cross the road when I'd realized he had stopped in the shade and he was looking at me with a really creepy smile on his face like he was high or something. Since he was carrying my bag on one shoulder, he let it slide on his forearm and held it there for some time but put it back on his shoulder. I kept on asking him why he stopped but he never answered. He finally crossed the road and I was trying to get a hold of his arm because there was a pink car about to hit him.

We argued about whose story really happened on the rest of the way home.

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What's Not Cool Anymore

Here's a list of all the things I find real annoying at home, in the streets, in the car, in the bathroom, in the whore house, in Narnia and just about every other place left.

Letterman jackets or better known as VARSITY jackets (Lalo na yung mga walang letters na nakalagay... It's kind of the point of the LETTERman jacket)

"Keep Calm and _______" slogans (This was so 2010)

High socks during P.E. sports with shorts 

Fishtail braids (overrated)

Smoking (This was never cool)

K-Pop fashion in the mall (Bitch, it's one thing to talk about 2ne1 in public; wearing it in the mall/fast food/arcade is another)

Pitch Perfect (GET OVER IT PLEASE)

Naruto (Masashi Kishimoto's way of keeping the audience reading/watching is just... UGH. KILL SASUKE ALREADY!)

Big shiny, bling (This ain't the year of the gangsta)

Neon-colored pants (You look like you have highlighters for legs)

Instagram (If your instragram account consists of photos of your face, smiling the same smile and holding the camera in the same angle, DELETE it. And we do not want to know what your half-empty jar of peanut butter looks like)

Uploading a video of you singing and saying "I'm sorry if my voice isn't so good."

Taking selfies in the bathroom, in the fitting room or in the mirror

Vintage fashion (To pull of the vintage look, you don't just wear it--you need to have the class that the people who used to wear that fashion had)

Going to the grocery store looking like you're about to go on America's Next Top Model

Nicholas Sparks books (I'll spoil it all for you. Girl meets boy. They fall in love. One of them dies.)

Ombre (Now that I think of it, most of the ombres in the Philippines just look like they couldn't decide what color they wanted to dye their hair... About 89% of ombres are highly unappealing)

Undercuts and the Mohawk (This hairstyle does not work on EVERY guy)

Putting quotes or lyrics on your profile picture (How does your face express "So call me, maybe?"

Tagalog rap songs by nobodys. 

Photography as a hobby. (Photography's your hobby? Tell me more about how hard it was to make your teddy bear pose like a mermaid again)

Supra shoes

The common poses for girls in photos (Duck face, pout, shock)

I'm really happy Leif, Arianne and Roy saved me (somehow) from the Jej(emon) pit. If not for the, I might have become a full-pledged Jej.

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Fathers Always Make Me Cry

When I first watched Les Miserables, I (in all honesty) cried when Jean Valjean on the night of Cosette's wedding day. While Valjean was not actually her father, he raised her like his own and only learned to love when she came in his life. Cosette became his sole purpose in life.

Cosette and I, somehow, are the same. We both grew up not knowing who our biological father is and was raised by another man. And after the movie, I realized that it would be impossible for me to walk to the altar one day without my real father beside me to pass my hand to my future groom.

Whenever dad talked to me about marriage, he would always end the conversation with, "I hope I will still be alive to witness that day." It always leaves me speechless. I want to tell him that he will still be alive on that day and the years after... But I don't plan to marry for another 6 years. And a lot could happen.

Fathers always make me cry. They always want the best for their daughters. I know it. They don't want some scum from the street. They want someone who has a dream and knows how to persevere for something. I know that's what my dad wants for me.

Don't worry, daddy. I've found him.

And to my biological father; I'll find you. Somehow.

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I Hope You Always Remember

When I tell you that I love you, know that I mean it. When I say sorry, know that it's not because I admit my faults--it is only because I would rather take all the blame and end the fight rather than keeping my pride on my tongue. When you hear me say that I will never let you go, it means that even when I'm hanging on you by a thread, I will not let the thread break.

I hope you always remember that I love you. I always will.

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Same Old Story

The story is told the first time, it actually means something and it actually affects you. The story is told twice, it still gets to you. The story is told for the third time, you know how it ends but you listen anyway. You hear the story for the nth time, it's just getting old and annoying and you just want it to stop. And when the story doesn't seem to stop repeating, you just try and run away.

We fight about the same thing for four nights in a row. We get a break for like what--a week? And then the same shit happens. Same old dialogue. Same tone of voice. Same time of day. Same tiresome feelings. And to just escape the same old story, I shut myself from the rest of the world. 

You're tired? It always turns out like this? How do you think I feel then? If you're tired, what does that leave me with?

A couple months ago, this wasn't an issue. I didn't use to speak like this. When you realized something, a part of you changed. You know it. When you realized that I had a more dominating personality. You didn't want to admit it. You didn't want me to be the dominating half so you tried to suppress me. Before that idea ever entered your mind, you never acted like that and you were completely fine with whatever I did and whatever happened between the two of us. We rarely had fights over the phone. You know it.

I'm sorry but I've had enough shit for one day.

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“I GOT A BOY” album now released in the Philippines!

OMFG. SONE dream come true. Tomorrow, Dwight and I shall venture to The Block to purchase this certain album that costs P995. Yes, I am going to spend 995 for the first release of this album. Why? Because in a year, it will be difficult to find the boxed edition of the album like The Boys. 

Anyway, I am tempted to buy all 10 albums. One version has a group photo cover and the other 9 have each of their photos as the cover.

I don’t know what to do. I just want to put all the versions in a bag and run off but personally, I think the song in general sucked.

Honestly, none of the girls are good rappers. Not even Tiffany. She just knows English well and can talk fast in English and that’s it. People call her a rapper. Taeyeon and Seohyun’s vocals are superb but their voice doesn’t belong in such a song. When Jessica had the chance to “speak” in the intro of The Boys, SM thought it was a good idea to just give her cool “adlibs” like, “Don’t stop. Let’s bring it back to 1:40.” The editing of the song just seemed so messy. It goes from hip-hop vibe to a hip-hop/pop/bubbly tune then in the middle of the song, there’s a part where they seem to be singing broadway. Really, SM? I like the choreography because it’s more powerful than their previous dances and more detailed. I like the song. Most of the parts are just catchy but as a whole, the song is sort of a mess.

But still, as a SONE, I am determined to buy the album for my nine angels.

Jigumeun, So Nyuh Shi Dae! Appeurodo, So Nyuh Shi Dae! Yeongwonhi, So Nyuh Shi Dae!

SO NYUH SHI DAE, SARANGHAE~ 

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Tangled starring Mandy Moore as Rapunzel and Zachary Levi as Flynn Rider/Eugene Fitzpatrick.

I might have watched this movie a thousand times already but it still brings me to tears. Everything still brings me to tears. How Rapunzel's parents looked so sad just before they went out to let the lantern fly. Eugene's last line before the second chorus. How he was looking at her like he'd just realized he'd fallen in love with her. When Rapunzel panicked and cried and tried so hard to heal him by singing the healing song. And finally, how he came back to life and the way he looked when he hugged Rapunzel back.

Honestly, I think this is the most beautiful Disney movie about a princess. 

And what makes it all the more special is that I just watched it with Dwight earlier and I can't deny that I still cried for the nth time even though he was with me. And yes, I would like to watch more tearjerker fairytales with him because that's just how sappy I am.

Tangled is definitely one movie I would add to my "Movies to Watch Before I Die" list. :)