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why am i thinking of offing myself again

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Alanis Morissette, Sorry to Myself/Haruki Murakami,1084

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I am jealous of those who think more deeply, who write better, who draw better, who look better, who live better, who love better than I.

-Sylvia Plath

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one day you think: I want to die. and then you think, very quietly: actually. actually. I think I want a coffee. a nap. a sandwich. a book. and I want to die turns day by day into want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friend, I want to sit in the sun, I want a cleaner kitchen, I want a better job, I want to live somewhere else. I want to live.

- via duckbunny

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The Secret History is insane. Richard just wants to know what's going on with Camilla and Charles, and Francis is just like "Oh, yeah, Camilla and Charles sleep together all the time. I thought you knew. And I've slept with Charles, and Camilla and Henry are a thing, which Charles hates, and I want to sleep with you but you won't ever get drunk enough. Anyway, want a glass of wine?"

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if reincarnation is real, I wonder how many people stare at their own art in museums, listen to music they made in a different life, and read books they don’t remember writing.

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The Lost Hero by Rick Riordan

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i swear once my maternity leave starts, i will start calming down.

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230318 ❀ In Thailand with SEONGHWA

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I will defend Jason Grace with my whole heart forever. oh he's boring? well somebody has to be the boring one--somebody has to be the 'stick in the mud' group leader who is just trying so unbelievably hard to keep everybody safe. not everybody can be making witty sarcastic jokes with every fight :( not everybody is a Percy or a Leo--if we had a team of just Percys and Leos, what would ever get done around here!! he was raised in a military camp all his life, he didn't just get to cultivate a sense of humour and a carefree attitude :(

all Jason has ever tried to do is help people by truly listening to them. he didn't just fight the minor gods, he talked to them, he figured out what they wanted, and he fucking followed through with his promises to honour them!! (or... he was going to.) he wasn't just going to make false promises as a scheme, he was really going to change things and ensure it didn't happen again :(

after everyone shat so hard on Jason for suggesting they not detour to save Nico (which, by the way, yes it could have seemed insensitive to us bc we know and love Nico, Jason doesn't know who this bitch is!! he was trying to be strategical) none of them really seemed to make an effort to figure out... what his deal was? it was Jason who stuck around to put in the effort to really push Nico out of his shell and not just placate his behaviour, which would go on to be such an important catalyst for Nico's recovery and development going forwards :( it was Jason that Nico stayed for :( there are so many moments where Jason is shown so clearly listening to and acting upon other peoples problems throughout the series, and he never really gets that treatment back until its too late,,

and maybe it's just personal. as an older sibling I am so used to getting called boring and being told to let loose or stop being so bossy... Jason is showing his love the only way he knows how... by putting himself second, and by just trying to keep order. it just must really suck. imagine putting your whole heart and soul into protecting your found family only for them to dismiss you as stoic and detached and unfunny. and then to see the whole fandom just degrade his character for it :( I get that maybe his chapters just aren't everyones cup of tea, but I never got where all of this animosity stemmed from.

he's trying his best. he's just a kid, like the rest of them... it seems that when any of the other make stupid decisions, they're forgiven for their age and naïveté, but when Jason does, he's penalized as an adult... which I think is so shameful :( he's allowed to have stupid mistakes :(

he is.... my favourite of the seven.. and I just want to give him a hug. I love u Jason Grace I got ur back always

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JOSHUA HONG FOR MAPS MAGAZINE ♡

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Drawing a randomly generated Haikyuu character (almost) every day until I give up

71. Kageyama Tobio

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‘Asia Artist Awards’ & ‘Golden Disc Awards’ Behind Sketch

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these are another set of my old spreads. i am currently in a break this month from journaling due to personal reasons so i guess i'll be posting more old spreads

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221217 be the sun in bulacan. someone 🐱 do not edit/crop logo. (1,2,3)