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Sniffle... ermmm.. whimper.... bleah.. sob.....

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potential stpd culture is "I'm not hearing voices I'm just Hearing Voices in my Head. I'm not hearing them with my real ears I'm hearing them with the ears of the me thats in my head, but they aren't thoughts in my head, they are voices, and they talk back at me" and then going Oh. Maybe there is something wrong. when my friends asked if i was on drugs after saying that

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i remember you from when we were bugs

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Schizospec culture is saving posts to drafts instead of reblogging because everything leads back to you somehow and they can’t know or else

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My body is a machine that turns those strawberry hard candies into visual snow

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stpd culture is cyclically feeling like you dont, and will never, belong in the friendgroup youve been absorbed into lately. sometimes im fine, comfortable enough, and then other times it feels like theyre strangers. like im a stranger.

and i guess maybe its this thing where i feel like im not built to have friends. i do Have Friends, but i think maybe those are the last friends ill ever have that feel like theyre actually my friends. and between you and us; sometimes they dont either. not for anything theyve done, of course not. just. people feel like strangers a lot. and i guess our memory issues dont help with that. “we’ve known each other for years and youre my best friend but sometimes i cant remember what we talk about. do we even talk about anything? i know what youre like but you feel like a stranger and i cant explain why. we’ve been friends for three years and sometimes it feels like we’ve just met each other. im so sorry. im so sorry. im sorry.”

-phonetics anon. the guilty party. unrelatedly im scared people can predict what i say and do, considering how cliche/tropey i am. did you know id add this? is that cruel of me to ask.

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can we get some root vegetables and leafy greens ... I rly like your blog ty for the awesome library of pix

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Sea bunny 雲見ダイビング

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people will be like "oh aspd/npd makes people evil! it's so scary!" and then you see someone with those disorders and they're literally just a guy

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such little collages i made in presentation of my thesis on relations between feminine and monstrous in horror and fairytales

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You can tell when someone’s frame of reference for “normal people” is more “people at the church sponsored ice cream social” and less “people on the bus”

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not to say things on main but it’s kinda fucked up that the mockery and torment of fat people, especially fat kids, is still considered socially acceptable

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Aapji gwanaajwaan mskobgonii 🌸

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Pst! Yeah you the one with a cluster b personality disorder. I love you and you deserve to exist.

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Dreams

They're strange, I can tell when I am awake, I can say so with certainty, but when I am dreaming, I never ask, I never realise. My memories of dreams are the same as my other memories, it's hard to distinguish sometimes, thinking I still have cheese in the fridge, but later realising that memory was from a dream, or not knowing if someone said something for real or in a dream.

I know there's a term for this, not being able to tell between dream and reality, but I can't place it.

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anybody else hate how much it costs just to literally Eat Food and Stay Alive

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(voice of guy who can't figure out how to position an image) maybe trying to get back into html was a mistake actually