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just finished watching steins gate 0. the experience wasn't exactly the same, or has it surpassed that of season 1. sakto lang. ok. maybe because okarin isn't like the season okarin. walang kyouma sa season. it was a full blown sadness. i don't know kung pangit ba siya or hindi lang talaga ako marunong makaramdam lately ng satisfaction sa mga napapanood. walang lang. i was just really hoping for it to become something more :( ang ganda kasi ng season 1. i thought season 2 will bring back those feelings. sad lang hahaha. but i guess i should just need to rewatch season 1 to really feel it.

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hey. it'll only be a few weeks before i graduate in college. so work is what next. and i never really had that much chance to go out and wore whatever i wanted. i said it before; "comfort > fashion." but men, lately had i realize that you could actually do both. jusko, it been years of wearing t-shirts, pants and shorts. never tried something colorful, something eye catching or risky. bakit ganon ana? kaya naman for the last days na napasok ako sa pup para mag asikaso ng mga graduation requirements, i had this urge to wear something good. ilang days ko pa lang to nagagawa and magagawa, but it felt nice. sobra. alam mo ung tipong how you dress definitely affects how you feel. para bang "shet ang ganda ko today parang ang saya mag aral," hahahaha. ganun siya tol. and after watching this vid, i realized how much i missed. dapat dati pa ko mag inarte. i could have made some effort sa itsura ko. hahaha. this isn't about insecurity and being to conscious-- or partly it is? half half ata haha. i mean, the reason why i'm not trying to put some effort on the way i dress is because i'm insecure. and conscious. ano kayang sasabihin nila? am i wearing too much? am i wearing to little? things like that. and this idea of trying to wear what you want, styling yourself and trying to look better, isn't a sign of insecurity. this is what revolution looks like. charot! this is me trying to be confident. trying to be out on my comfort zone and trying not to care that much. this is about confidence.

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hello. ito na naman ako jusko, ang pagbabalik sa tumblr. haha. andami lang tumatakbo sa isip ko kanina habang nasa biyahe. para bang napaka ingay na naman ng ng utak ko. so ayon, hello der, i'm back hahaha. handa na namanh magdrama at mag rant ng kung ano ano sa buhay.

btw, i just reread some of my posts before. haha waw, may feelings pala ko noon. charot. ang weird lang talaga palagi kasi hindi ko na tanda (na naman) kung ano nga ba ako noon. shocking lang teh, ang passionate ko pala sa anime? huwaw. and all those experiences sa acco, those purpose and philosopical shits, waw. how i've forgotten na pinagdaanan ko nga pala lahat ng yun. jusko madrama nga pala ung buhay ko noon. tamang self diagnose pa ko noon ng anxiety. ngayon kung ichecheck ko ung sarili ko, alam kong wala akong anxiety. pero looking back, sa kung papaanong kahirap para sakin ung makipag interaction, i could say that maybe i did have it before. but i don't know. i forgot. di ko na naman kung sino ba ko hahaha. yez naman sa existential crisis hahahaha. napaka bago ah.

any wayyy, hopefully this could be a good chapter. hello life.

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the end of the f *** world - s01ep03

when her eyes were closed… Alyssa looked a lot less angry.

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James & Alyssa: Neon Lights

Images do not belong to me, I found them on the internet. All credit goes to the owners.

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// James //

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(via GIPHY)

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HAHAHAHHA U JUST DIDN’T

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The End of the F***ing World (2017)

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I am watching “The end of the fucking world”. It’s fabulous.👊🔥

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“That was the day I learned that silence is really loud.”

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Alyssa and James. (creds to teotfw on Instagram)