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I highly recommend all of you watch this. It is an FTM transgender swimmer from Harvard that shares their story. It honestly made me feel better about myself. We can be anything we want to be because it’s who we are.

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I kmow I shouldn't. I should just be happy for people like you, like him. But still. I feel bad. Because I just wish it was me. My parents are ok wirh me as a transguy. Even if they aren't completly fine with it. But they tould me...no medical transition till I'm 18 and can descide for my own. But I'm only 15 now. And it will take 3 more years of pain and suffer. It...just destroys everything. I'm sorry.

Left top: about 3 years old

Right top: about 11 years old

Left bottom: 14 years old, pre-t

Right bottom: now, 16 years old, 1 year on t

Today, on the 23rd of august 2017 Im finally 1 year on testosterone.

Honestly, if you would have told me that just about two years ago, I probably would have started crying and screamed at you that you should stop lying to me and that I will never come this far.

So… here I am.

To everyone who is struggeling right now, I promise you it gets better. I get it if you dont believe me, cause I wouldnt have believed myself either, but I know you can do it and do you know why? Because I did it too.

Thank you to everyone who has supported me on my way. Without you I wouldnt be here right now.

I wish you the best.

<3

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🐃🐃🐃HORNS UP 🐃🐃🐃

I know I never use this platform anymore, but there are some people on here who have really helped me and I want to thank them.

I had top surgery today. It was a long time coming, but it finally happened. Today is, for me, radically life changing. I haven’t cried or really felt it hit me yet (been a bit focused on not reaching too far for anything or testing the limits of these narcotics fff) but I already feel different just because I understand the gravity of what this means for my life.

I can just throw on a shirt now instead of shimmying into a tight sweaty binder every day. My back won’t hurt so much. I can swim again. I can work out and see the results in a way that makes me proud of myself without added dysphoria. I can look in a mirror and not feel out of touch with my reflection.

This feels good. It also feels like I’ve just been cut open, but yanno. It feels good.

When I was fundraising, I got amazing support and help from my tumblr friends, and even though I’m not active here any more, I want you all to know that It finally happened, and that I love you all and I appreciate you so much. You’ve been such a big step in helping me get to today and to happiness.

Thank you. ❤💛💚💙💜

Phew. Glad I got that off my chest.

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I saw a post by someone talking about their transwoman flag design and that kinda inspired me to make a transman flag?? but yeah here it is • The lighter shades of blue represent masculinity and manhood,along with people who aren’t exactly transmen but are male-aligned (Like masculine nonbinary people) • the white represents the transition itself,as well as a distinction from the gender binary • the darker shade of blue represents the struggle that transmen go through with both transitioning and everyday life If you like this design then I would really appreciate it if you could reblog this and spread it around!

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Vent, 9:21pm 24/06/2017

It’s getting bad again

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Your genitals are transphobic.

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I call it hell week

Advice For People Making Positivity Posts About Trans Guys

cw: mention of biological sex characteristics

Don’t: Use the word “period” for the love of god… we have dysphoria for a reason? Mentioning the thing that women do is triggering as fuck because it makes us remember what’s going on down there and what our bodies do and we don’t want to remember this, at all. We’re not meant to be doing that, so just stop.

Do: Use “monthly”/“sharkweek”

Don’t: Refer to our CHEST as “breasts”. Again, this is triggering as fuck. None of us want to be reminded of the fact that we have breasts. Stop using female terms to refer to our body, please. Yes, our body is what it is and we do have a female body we know this, we’re not indenial, but using terms that are commonly associated with women when we are not women is not okay. Just stop.

Do: Use the word “chest”

Don’t: Call our private parts “vagina”… oh my god. Why does this need to be said, really like, why would you even say that at all. I honestly can’t say anything that I haven’t already said.

Do: Use “down below”/“privates/private parts”/“penis”/“bottom area”

Don’t: PUT ATTENTION ON OUR BODY PARTS. We don’t want to hear things like “to the guys with big hips”, “to the guys with feminine/high voices” and “to the guys with curves" etc. It is just focusing on the fact that our body is this way and we’re trying as much as possible to make our body what it should be.

These things are all examples of social dysphoria that can trigger sex dysphoria. Please. I’m on T and this shit still annoys me because I remember seeing this all pre-T and it made me so dysphoric. You’re just hurting other guys. Words are words, true, but they still hurt especially when we have dysphoria about these parts. Guys don’t want to come across a post that’s meant to make them feel good, read the first line and it says “To the guys with large breasts you are valid!” get that out of here! You are being so inconsiderate to what we suffer with and if you are trans, maybe tone it down and think about other people?

Reminder: we are not women, so stop talking about our parts in female terms.

Before I get that one person, obviously if you are speaking medically/giving medical advice then yes, there is no way around this but any other time, work around it. I’m sorry if this post has come across harsh but legit, it needs to be said.

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Its awsome to see people stand up against stupid idiots

We are the vagina people! We are people who menstruate. Can you spell E-R-A-S-U-R-E?

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Discovering Dysphoria #1

Alright, an actual comic! Still feeling out a simple style I can do quickly, but I’ll figure it out. This was the first time I remember having someone refer to me as a guy, being a kid was great! And then puberty came the next year and ruined everything…. 

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my parents: look at our daughter! isn’t she beautiful!

me: you fucked up a perfectly good boy is what you did. look at me. i have dysphoria.

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Well if that isn't relateabel

If you don’t have me on Snapchat you’re missing out

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Spectrum outfitters is a new UK BASED company that is about to start selling binders

I know this damn website is so Americanised but PLEASE reblog this! Transmasculine people in the UK have to pay a ridiculous amount of money for shipping from America. This could change all that.

Support your UK trans community. Reblog this. Get the word out.

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This is importand. Our teachers in preschool tould us to hold bunnys on the ears!

Please Hold The Bunny Correctly.

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“Family gatherings” aka “90% of the people here are racist”

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Hey guys!

I was wondering if there is any interest in my flags. If people are still wanting to buy them then I will start making them again and I was thinking about setting up an etsy shop or something. 

I have my first GIC appointment some time in July however I don’t currently have the money to get there. This is my first step towards starting testosterone  and selling more of these would be great for me to save up and get where I want to be. 

Thank you guys for all the support you have already given me, it means the world to me!

-Louie