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Walt Disney Pictures intros and outros

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Personal

I remember the first time I met you. You're Derek's friend. Fresh and naive from the pickings of high schoolers, I was this new fresh faced kid unknowing of the trouble I would get into. I was this really weird kid, and you were the cool mysterious one. When I met you, I felt I could crumble the minute you showed any interest in me. With you, I had my first beer. With you, we lost horribly at my first game of beer pong. With you, I was this one shot wonder all over the place. And with you holding me up, arms around me, and taking care of me, my drunk goggles told me you were my knight in shining armor. I don't remember the exact timeline of events, but I remember getting pho with you at 3am, watching the sunrise with you 2 hours later, and I remember sitting next to you looking at you talk to me and thinking, "I wonder what would happen if we happened?" I know you knew what I was thinking, but the gentleman you are didn't because I was Derek's "little ading". You were my forbidden fruit and highly discouraged. Derek told me we can't happen. I was not right for him. I'm way too young. I'm like a kid sister and the protective big brother he was said no. You walked me to my dorm, my roommate wasn't home, and I went for it anyways. It felt good to kiss you. It felt right to hold you. I felt safe and protected and happy. But, a part of me was frightened. I didn't want to be that girl that he forgets. What if I was another notch on his belt? What if he never speaks to me?  Alot of thoughts went through my mind and so I stopped. I told you to leave and I never explained. I met a new guy and we never really talked again.

Until years later, I message you. We talked and talked, and after 3 years, I tell you what happened that night. You admit the mutual feelings and we kept talking. We catch up and I want to learn more and more about you. I want to you to take me out on a date. I want to be able to hold you again, and kiss my forehead when I'm feeling sad. I didn't think this through or thought of how it could potentially work. For once after 5 years of getting over my worst heartbreak, I felt something again. Something genuinely real. Where my chest feels like it could collapse but hearing your voice could restore it. I thought I could never feel like this again, but it is. And now, for the second time, it still can't. It's unfair to ask you to do the noble thing and wait for me, and it's unfair that we struggle as it is to communicate everyday. Even when I need someone to help me forget how alone I feel in this country, you can't be there to hold me and make it go away. I didn't think this through and no matter how we want to date each other, it's not possible. We can't be. And so I thought if we just talk everyday until the day we can meet again it'll make the grand reunion even greater, but then this fear came over me and the reality of our situation hit me. What if he meets someone? What if he really ends up falling for her? It would mean I must let him go because he deserves someone he can hold when she cries. He deserves to take her out on dates and actually cuddle her in his arms and not some computer or stupid phone to pretend it's me. 

Love, why must you be so unkind to me? Why must you taunt me with people I can't have only to prove that I may end up dying alone? Am I really unfit to have love in my life? Why must you be so unfair? 

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Today at Kwangtong School we have a Boy Scout activity. The whole day is dedicated to singing campfire songs, playing campfire games, learning survival skills in the wilderness and nature. They had this one obstacle course that was completely insane where the teachers are simulating crawling through the jungle encountering creatures like frogs and snakes. What didn't sit well with me is that they used real frogs and snakes for the course! Students were sprayed with water crawling through mud, screaming at the sight and feel of frogs and snakes and then after painted with different colored paints to symbolize the warrior in them. Very frightening experience and there's still more to come

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Morning assembly with these little ones make my Monday's bearable :)

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Adult: You can be anything you want when you grow up

Adult: but not gay

Adult: or transgender

Adult: or a high school drop out

Adult: or a single parent

Adult: or a teen parent

Adult: or an actor

Adult: or an artist

Adult: or a musician

Adult: or unemployed

Adult: and you must marry someone

Adult: and you must have kids

Adult: and save money

Adult: and conform to society

Adult: and do this and do that

Adult: but when you grow up you can be whatever you want

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If Anyone is interested or curious about my travels here in Thailand

http://maipenlai.tumblr.com/

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The worst thing about the “friendzone” isn’t that some poor guy didn’t get to have sex with the girl he likes even though he’s such a nice guy, it’s that some poor girl finds out one of her friends was only trying to be close to her with the hopes of getting in her pants. Any idea what that does to someone’s self-worth? Or are you too busy lamenting your unrewarded sense of entitlement? Fight me on this. I’m angry tonight and I will bite your throat out.

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OMG, new video out: 7 Reasons Why We Fall For Those We Can’t Have

Share your thoughts! Do you agree with these 7 reasons? 

If you like relationship tip videos, check out the main channel: here

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Sometimes... I wonder if you still write about me. Without acknowledgement of my presence, I still check up on you... but from a safe distance. Has the time passed enough for me to come out of the shadows? 

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In regards to your post 'if Nicki saying fuck skinny bitches upset you imagine how fat women feel literally about everything else in mainstream media'... wow. Last I checked there aren't any songs bluntly saying FUCK FAT BITCHES. Yes the media is terrible but NO-ONE should be treated badly for who they are/ what they look like and two wrongs don't make a right. If you support skinny girl shaming you are part of the problem! Support all body shapes.

For fuck’s sake… The point of that post was supposed to inspire a sense of empathy for folks that navigate their lives in fat bodies. You felt uncomfortable by one lyric in one song, now take that momentary discomfort and apply it to every situation you encounter in life; apply it to every other shred of media you encounter. Make the body you navigate life in mocked, dehumanized, or invisible. Also, I’m sure if you tried really not very hard at all you can see where fatness is shamed in popular music… like, c’mon. Wanting there to be empathetic responses to fat bodies isn’t the same as ‘skinny girl shaming.’ You can look literally anywhere else in the whole world and skinny bodies are validated and deemed worthy.

Here are some google searches I did for you so hopefully you can feel comfortable again-

I googled imaged magazine covers December 2014:

Here are the videos for the Billboard Top 10 at this very moment:

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Here are the highest grossing actresses in Hollywood. (again just a google image search of the phrase)

Here I just googled most beautiful women in the world:

So when you see things like this or when you see bumper stickers that say ‘no fat chicks’ or when you hear people joking about fat people in public, when you hear about healthcare not being administered fairly to fat patients, when you see retailers charging double for ‘plus sized clothing’, when you see the daily shame and dehaumanization of fat people do you also, with regularity, jump in and say “You are part of the problem- support all body shapes!” Or, no? Right.

Sorry your feelings were hurt.

"So when Nicki Minaj says “fuck the skinny bitches” she’s not personally attacking women who receive skinny privilege, but rather combatting the system that gives it to them. She’s publicly recognizing the power dynamic that surrounds the female body, and she’s attempting to disrupt the dominant narrative that allows this dynamic to exist." Rachel Baker

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Long Overdue Travel Blog

http://maipenlai.tumblr.com/

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HAPPY BELATED 25th anniversary to my Mama and Papa! Thank you for teaching Sim and I about patience and persistence in love. Sim and I are lucky to have such a beautiful mother and handsome father. (This was taken on their wedding day) congrats you two! 💗😘 💑 #silveranniversary #vegaswedding

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First FaceTime with these two 😜📱🙌 #success #yesimsafe #iphoneforthewin #parents #ilovethem (at JL Bangkok Hotel)

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The last Filipino meal I will have for a very long time #imissyoumom #beefsteak #goldilocks #PAL (at Philippine Arlines)

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all my bags are packed... I'm ready to go🎶✈️ #bonvoyage #jetsetter #leavingonajetplane #LAX #lastgoodbyes #buhbye (at Tom Bradley International Terminal (TBIT))

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