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reasons why my friends wanted to move on pt. 1/? (2017)

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Im the woman of her god damn dreams and ill cast as many spells and say it as many times as it takes to make her see that its true

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eating less will not solve any of my problems. eating less will not solve any of my problems. eating less will not solve any of my problems. eating less will not solve any of my problems. eating less will not solve any of my problems. eating less will not solve any of my problems. eating less will not solve any of my problems. eating less will not solve any of my problems. eating less will not solve any of my problems. eating less will not solve any of my problems.

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“Eat Your Heart Out” is a series of words remembered from break-ups reimagined as something sweet.

by Isabella Giancarlo

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(32 seconds into session)

therapist: so how has this past week been? have you looked into things we’ve talked about? are we making some progress? has your mood at least improved?

me, already ass deep in a state of dissociation: 

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Haha ive lost 40 lbs in 6 months and most of it is from going vegan and cutting carbs but the more stress i get which hasnt stopped means me throwing up all the damn time so. Yeah. And i wont eat for days and ive been binging but not very much. That was one helluva run on but whatever. Im so obbessed w my body now that im down so much weight. I csnt stop looking at it and i love how small ive gotten i cant not gain weight. I cant. I would kms. So point of this is? My eating disorder is so fucking back and i feel like telling people but idc rlly. Its back. I tell myself like 3x a day, hey ur ed is back. Wtf. And i just continue, a lil prous

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i wish i could be the person i want to be but im too tired

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how to tell that its getting bad again

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me: realizes that weight loss isn't something that happens all at once and that you have to work for it

also me: It Has Been Three Days Why Am I Not Skinny Yet

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Happy Sunday!! Keep strong and focused on you’re goals.

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a weird thing about having developed mental illness at such a young age is i honestly don’t know sometimes how much of me is a symptom and how much is down to personality, like i honestly do not know my core self and it troubles me A Lot

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Think about what people are going to say in three months: “Have you lost weight?” “You look so skinny” “Your legs are beautiful” “I want your body” “What a flat stomach” You do want to hear people say these things, so stop eating like a pig and drink your fucking glass of water.