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Just my daily ramblings again..

Well, I have been doing great especially with my sleep schedule. I may be finally fixing it. Last night I slept really well, and I slept more than 8 hours I think. Not straight though, since I slept around 2 pm yesterday til 5 pm. Then slept at 7 pm last night, and woke up around 4 am. All good, right? I'm freaking out! After all those months of struggling with my sleep, I can't believe there's still hope of it being fixed while I'm yet to start work, and reclaim a routine for myself again.

Lately, I'm proud of myself that I have been educating myself about certain happenings in the past and in the present. Wow, ain't that vague? HAHAHAHA But yeah, I've been watching some videos to inform myself about situations I wish I had known back then. I won't say that I already have an in-depth knowledge about them; still in the surface level truth be told; however, I am making progress. I also want to work on making this a habit.

These days, it's hard to pick a side. It's no longer safe to assume absolute good of anything. To be fair on both sides, you need to dig really deep or at least visit both side's backyard. You can't be hasty with a decision, because people find it easy now to dismiss you, or worse, cancel you. Even at a seeming good cause, people who disagree with your opinion or stand will just quickly oust you of their "circle", without even bothering with having a discourse with you, and without even at least attempting to educate you about why their point of view is worth considering and making a stand to.

Such is the condition these days. It seems natural that people can gang up on you, especially on social media. Say something incorrect, expose your flaw, and you're done forever.

I probably am almost guilty, if not by behavior then by thought. I have to catch myself wandering to the dangerous zone of morally blacklisting people as if I'm standing on a higher ground. I pass quick judgements often so as forgetting the other person behind each little chunk of story. My, it's a reminder to give a benefit of a doubt to someone. I owe everyone the chance of proving themselves as multi-dimensional person. It doesn't mean I can't say it if I feel like something's off or wrong, but branding a person as absolutely no good isn't a judgement I can pass on a fellow human being.

I'm also flawed, very much so.

There goes.. Enough of my ramblings. Though I wasn't able to be specific this time, I hope that someday I'll find the avenue as well as the purpose to bare them skeleton and flesh despite the possible embarrassment, and fear that comes with nakedness of mind. I hope I can be completely fine with being misunderstood, silly or even judged. I'm not sure if that'll ever happen. Maybe I can at least dare to give it a try, and taste truth and freedom in one sip.

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It's been raining since last night, but I haven't checked yet if it's because of a brewing storm or just an LPA. I'm in the mood for some soup; in fact, I had some porridge last night too. I never knew it could taste so good. It makes a whole lot difference if you're eating something because you're craving it. It really makes it especially, extremely GOOD. On other days, it's nothing but a bland porridge. Oh, one more awesome thing, I ate it with boiled egg! It was sensational. lol

It comes back to food like always, right? I have no escape, I'm a willing captive :D

So this is how it's going to go maybe for now - that this account is going to be solely dedicated to ramblings as silly as they can get. I have no audience but the void, but I am enjoying this so far - this low stakes solitude. I am happy enough that I am able to dislodge my thoughts in an empty space. It kind of tricks me into thinking - yay, I was productive today.

What else? I'll pass this day with some reading, drawing and watching. Maybe some cleaning too in between. That's all, and I hope that days are going to be easier from now on, because what is life but a series of small joys piling up to heap of happiness and contentment in the end. Or at least, ideally.

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Hi,

Just checking in. It's cold today. I went out earlier to buy food and have my 500 pesos changed so I can conveniently leave tomorrow. I bought cream of pumpkin, red bean hopia, bottled water (for tomorrow) and a tuna. I hope the pumpkin soup would be good. As for the red bean, it is delish! I ate all the four pieces, washed with coconut juice. It was such a good meal this morning. It helped me put myself in a comfy mood with the drizzling outside.

It's such a nice vibe to go through your day without anything planned in particular. It'll always be my favorite and to be honest, I wish it's how all people live. It's so confusing for me to know that in other parts of the world people live not only desperately but dangerously, in the midst of war and political conflicts. Call me simple-minded because I have almost zero political knowledge, but it pains me to think that we have to live this way. Why be after power so much? Why fight for supremacy, territory and worse, religion? Why is it so hard to just get along? To live and let live?

It's a given that we are individuals with different upbringings, sets of beliefs, and I also agree that eventually these would clash. Yet, personally, I believe that if we want to, we can reconcile such differences - talk it out sometimes, and if we really can't meet halfway, leave each to his own life. Alas, since we're different, it just goes on saying that I can't expect everybody to embrace my idea of life and peace. I sure hope so though that at some point, we reach shalom. That we can just chill.

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Hi,

Gee, I never knew what I was missing until I watched She Loves to Cook and She Loves to Eat. Man, was I floored. It's one of the most wholesome and heartwarming GL drama I watched. It has both girl love and food - two of the big things I love in this world!

Though J-Drama acting and directing are quite subtle, this one wasn't short of the feels. Not gooey sweet, grounded in reality, but sends fluttering butterflies still to your stomach, I was really in to the treat. What is it with the slice of life romance or story which captures me? To be honest, I can't break it down yet, but I know that the mundane happenings in life - the little details like sharing warmth with another person through cooking and eating graciously prepared food - will always be charming to me, perhaps even more than grand love declarations (though of course it can sweep me off my feet given the right timing and context in stories).

My point is, I love this drama. I can't wait for Season 2. I can perhaps go on and on about all the things I love about this drama, but I need to gather my scrambling thoughts LOL

Darn, too cute <3

Will read the manga too! Mangaka-nim and all the folks behind this wonderful story, thank YOU!

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I just watched it and I want more!

Vision: Grief is love persevering.

Granted power or ability, almost anyone would long and actually try bringing back the people they love. I for sure am not exempt. Because yes, while memory is precious, it will never never make up for the presence of our loved ones. More than to reminisce, we want to have the people we love by our side for as long as we can.

I didn't want to watch this before because I thought it was a flashback of Wanda and Vision's love story in the 50s lol While I love nostalgia and vintage, 50s is of less interest to me. Of course, going into the show proved I was mistaken 100%. Plus, I got a newfound love for the earlier eras shown! What a gem.

Thankfully, I binged on The Hot Ones show in YouTube where I came across Olsen again and decided I wanna watch more of her. Led me to the said show! No regrets. Except I should have watched this before Dr. Strange's Multiverse of Madness :D

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ツルアジサイ咲く岡寺 // Oka-dera Temple

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Coping

Hi,

It was a hectic week. I'm starting a new job! Which means I'm again thrown into a series of preparation. Calling it a whirlwind is a stretch, but for someone like me, it is a whirlwind, a chaos but it is a chaos I can tolerate and put up with.

It turns out I had to have internet installed for my new job. I was expecting it to go smoothly but alas, some bumps ahead! I didn't know that I should take the responsibility of having an electrician lay out the wirings. I seriously thought the internet provider takes care of it! Like all I had to do is apply, the techs come and hurray! Internet.

But no, seems like it doesn't play out that way. Also, another bit of complication is that my landlord wants to talk things out with the technicians to understand the need for an electrician. Hopefully, as I'm typing this, they have gone over what needs to be done and it works out beautifully. That way, all I'll need to think about after is where to get an electrician to follow through the wirings.

Ahh, I seriously want this done. I'd like to be able to rest soon because a few days after, I'll go on training and it's going to be a brand new set of challenges and things to think through.

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Something about today. That's about it. Good night.