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i miss everyone :(

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elihashem:

❝ umm, are we allowed to have pets in the uni apartments ?? i really hope so, ‘cause i just adopted a cat and i’m never letting him go. i think i’m going to call him cheeto ‘cause he’s orange. you know, like cheetos. ❞

❝I don’t have an answer for that and it seems like nobody else does, but I say keep it. I regret letting go of this dog I found because I was unsure if we were allowed to keep them.❞ She pursed her lips and glanced up at the other, taking her eyes off of her phone.

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▐ — ❛ roxnroll ┋ sms. ❜

matty: ok it's passed tomorrow

matty: what's going on with you?

roxane: are you sure you're not drunk?

roxane: you know, i saw this really adorable cat and it reminded me of you. wanna see a picture of it?

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faiirestisms:

aiden had felt uncomfortable the entire time he had been at the party. the entire time he had been on earth he had felt uncomfortable, and this girl’s words didn’t help to ease his nerves. running a hand along the back of his neck and then through his dark hair, aiden looked at her, furrowing his brows. “ you don’t really think that, do you ?? “

The brunette noticed how the other was acting and for once, wanted to actually try helping someone out. ❝Yeah? ...Yeah, I do, but you know what? I’m sure I’m just overreacting,❞ she replied then scratched the back of her head. ❝I tend to do that at parties. I’m sorry about that.❞

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sircnisms:

“scared of what? of drying out and becoming some market’s ‘catch of the day’ right here on the sidewalk? absolutely not !” 

❝Oops. My bad. For the record, I didn’t know and you didn’t say anything in the first place.❞

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mercicr:

“i mean, we might be forced to live here for now, but it’s not permanent. one day we’ll go back and, i’m starting to think it’s not so bad.”

❝Do you truly believe that?❞ she inquired, eyebrows raising. ❝It seems like almost everyone here does, but where’s the real proof of it? A promise can always easily be broken, so you never know if we’re going to be stuck here or not.❞

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jerkculesjr:

amusement tugged at him as he watched the younger goddess send forth an entire battalion to put up an armed defense against what she presumed to be a comparison to her eldest sibling. despite the miscommunication, he let her complete her tangent. “what i meant was,” matthias finally spoke, “that what you said to me sounds like something you’d say to him.” he shook his head, his hazel eyes flickering to the party before returning to his sister. “a bad mood?” the man rhetorically questioned, his tone laced with sardonicism. “i didn’t get that at all.”

As he finally corrected her, she felt speechless at first. Asking rather than assuming would have been better, but too late to turn back now. ❝--Sorry,❞ she mumbled, legs moving up onto the couch, so they could fold and her knees were closer to her chest. At least it felt better to let off some steam, even when it wasn’t in the right direction. Tapping her fingers against her knees, she kept her eyes on the people dancing and laughing to their heart’s content. ❝More like bad thoughts.❞ Once those words came out, she opened her mouth, wanting to say something, but didn’t know exactly what. Instead, she only took a peek at Matty, shaking her head a second later. ❝I’ll tell you about it tomorrow.❞ She didn’t want to ruin his night, like how she didn’t want to ruin anyone else’s.

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from matty: "What makes you think that is a good idea?" and "I'm not going to sit here while you destroy yourself."

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“What makes you think that is a good idea?”

She rose an eyebrow at his question before showing a small smirk then shaking her head. ❝I know it’s not a good idea, but I think it’ll be worth it. Don’t you think he deserves it anyway, Big bro?❞ Glancing back over her shoulder at the unfamiliar kid messing around with another one, she pursed her lips and watched as the bigger one was only bullying the smaller one. ❝It’s not like I’m using my powers for bad this time. He shouldn’t be harming somebody like that.❞ She stared into the older one’s eyes after facing Matty once again. ❝I promise, it’ll only be two seconds and I’m sure I can stay in control. You believe in me, don’t you?❞ Her eyes continued to stare at his for a while, simply searching for a sign that let her knew he did.

“I’m not going to sit here while you destroy yourself.”

His words hit her very deep down. It was the last thing she wanted from him. She respected him, cared for him, and loved him to the point that she’d be willing to go to the Underworld and back. Out of all her siblings, the one whom she deemed closest to was Matty and aside from their parents, he tended to make her feel less lonely, so when he said such things, they truly hurt. However, she wasn’t going to cry in front of him. She wanted to be stronger than she was and to her, that just meant sucking it up and continue to go through life. Plus, it was much more than that. ❝Fine. Leave. I didn’t ask you to stick around, Matthias. Just take a look at Enzo. You don’t see me telling him to take care of me. I’m fine all on my own.❞

Finally facing away from him, she kept her arms crossed while her eyes stared at the ground, her hands slowly shaking. She didn’t want to push him away, but decided it could be for the best. Being pessimistic about herself on the inside, she already assumed she would cause him trouble in the end and the longer she stayed attached to him, it would hurt a lot more. Suddenly though, her mother’s words, change is necessary, ran through her head and began to wonder if this type of situation was what she meant. Or maybe it was just the world telling her that she really did need to change something about herself. Thing is, she didn’t quite know how to and was too stubborn to ask for help right now.

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megara before roxane was put into the program: "Change is necessary. It's the only constant in the universe.", "It's coming...", and "There's no stopping this."

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“Change is necessary. It’s the only constant in the universe.“ 

Hearing her mother’s soft voice usually made her happy and mushy on the inside as well as the outside, which was rare for the girl. She was more attached to dad than mom, but there was just some things that it felt better to talk about with her than him. ❝Does that apply to people too?❞ She furrowed her eyebrows in confusion with eyes that looked as if they belonged to a lost child. In a way, Roxane felt like she was referring to her instead of a situation and didn’t want to bluntly say it, especially at that time. Even so, she didn’t mention herself, in case she was wrong and ended up feeling foolish. She already knew her mom wouldn’t laugh too much about her if that were the case, but she’d still end up being embarrassed and hated that feeling.

Over and over again, she’s heard her parents’ story, mainly because she asked about it. It made her feel better as well. It made her believe at times that good things could happen to her too, she just had to be patient. Which wasn’t her strongest suit, unfortunately. ❝What if it’s a bad thing?❞ she whispered. The girl moved around on the bed before leaning her head onto her mom’s shoulder, finding comfort in the touch before closing her eyes.❝Like… What if Enzo suddenly power-hungry to the point he takes sides with Hades and tries to kill Zeus?❞ She knew that would never be the case, but it was the only example she could think of for now. After saying such a thing though, she felt and knew she was slightly scared of change. Scaed that she was going to end up being a terrible person, scared that she’d end up losing her family in the end, and scared that everyone wouldn’t want to be around her anymore. The brunette just wasn’t sure if not being around people was for the better or for the worst.

“It’s coming…”

Normally, Roxane didn’t anxious. Not around her family anyway. It was only until Meg’s next words came out that made her nervous. ❝What’s coming and why aren’t you giving me more details?❞ she asked quite rudely. In the end, it only resulted into her getting lectured about how more patient she should be and to not snap at her mother. and she soon let out a sigh before her eyes glanced down to the floor. ❝Sorry, Mom. I’m just worried, that’s all. Especially when you suddenly say things like that without explaining.❞ She paused for a moment, crossing her arms then shrugging. ❝Do you at least know what’s coming?❞

“There’s no stopping this.”

❝Why not?❞ Now her blood was boiling. One of the things she truly hated was just staying on the sidelines, not being able to do a thing about it and now that family was involved, it felt more personal for Roxane. ❝Mom, you know there’s always a way. Isn’t that what most people say? Besides, why can’t we stop it? We’re Gods for crying out loud. I thought there was nothing stopping a God?❞ With her being stubborn, she wasn’t one to let such a thing go so easily, especially not when her family could possibly be in danger. After her first words of something coming, the brunette couldn’t just stop thinking about it. ❝I do hope you know I’m not going anywhere. I’m not just going to leave you behind without a fight.❞

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i gots homework to do, but i’ll be back as soon as it’s done. or i’ll try to anyway bc i just feel like writing another self para about roxane and her thoughts/emotions since i want to delve into it more and see where she stands. also if anybody wants to plot with roxane and/or ivy, i’m down for anything!/

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"Do you realize what you just did?"

"Is everyone okay?"

"I have no idea what to say to that."

"Why do you have to break my heart this way?"

"I'm going to go down in history for this."

"No one is walking away from that."

"What did you expect?"

"That shouldn't have happened..."

"You are driving me mad."

"Whatever you say, Sherlock."

"What makes you think that is a good idea?"

"Did you kill them?"

"We need to do something."

"No. Just... no."

"I shouldn't have gotten out of bed."

"Are we going to walk away from all this?"

"Maybe we're destined to do this."

"Let's jump."

"Change is necessary. It's the only constant in the universe."

"I'm starting to get excited for this idea."

"I can't... What?"

"Did you have to do it?"

"There's no stopping this."

"It's coming..."

"I'm not going to sit here while you destroy yourself."

"Didn't you just say the opposite of what you said two minutes ago?"

"Leave me here."

"Why bother?"

"I'm not going to sit idly by and let the world burn."

"Can we vote on this?"

"That's fucked up, man."

"We can't do this ourselves."

"We have to try."

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benevolentzuri:

“Well…” Zuri propped her chin on her hand, her face impassive. “Wars can last for centuries. Its quite rare that one would cease to exist after a mere couple of months. So no, I don’t think its strange that we’re still here. Who knows how long we’ll be here for.” She hummed and turned around to face Roxane. “I don’t think that they would create such a huge ruse like this one that would affect everyone if they really didn’t want us. Think about it, there’s way too many people involved for there not to even be a real war.”

Staring at the other, she eventually let out a sigh before rolling her eyes. There was no disagreement with anything the other was saying, but she wasn’t going to just outright admit it. ❝Oh? Then why were we forced to leave, Oh smart one? For our protection? It still sounds like fucking lies to me. It’s either they’re saying we can’t handle it or that they don’t want us around. Don’t you think? Besides...❞ She rose an eyebrow at the other then tilted her head before continuing on, ❝When was the last time you actually heard about your family or even spoke to them?❞

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jerkculesjr:

“that greeting sounded very enzo-esque,” matty observed, hazel eyes resting on his sister as he took another drag from his joint. she had already gone back to ignoring him, but that didn’t stop him. “are you going to join the party or are you just going to angrily glare at it?” 

She glared right at him instantly at the Enzo comment before replying, ❝Don’t you dare compare me to him, Matthias. I’m nothing like him and never will be. I’m so sorry for not saying how lovely you look tonight or that it’s nice to see a face like yours, if that’s what you even wanted to hear.❞ Crossing her arms, Roxane shook her head then inhaled deeply, gradually calming down, but not entirely. ❝You don’t get it,❞ she mumbled. ❝I want to join in, but I’m not in the mood, if you haven’t noticed by now. Maybe I’ll just end up sleeping.❞

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Hearing her brother's voice, she let out a heavy sigh before turning her head to him. She didn't mind having him around most of the time, but she was already in more of a sour mood and didn't want to be reminded of family. ❝Great,❞ she started off sarcastically. ❝You're here, Big brother. Just the person I wanted to see.❞ She rolled her eyes, leaning back against the couch while her eyes glanced around, trying to pay more attention to the party.

matty let his head fall back against the back of the couch, holding his breath for a few moments longer before exhaling. he remained still, watching the odorous smoke as it dispersed in the air above him. when he finally sat back in, he noticed a figure sitting in the couch across from him. “either this is a lot stronger than it seems or you just got here,” he guessed, squinting slightly. surely he wasn’t stoned enough to not notice a person… not yet, anyway.

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elijah, of course, would rather be home, but they were definitely excited for a chance to party and let loose. they were already high when they showed up, honestly just wanting to have a good time. when they heard roxane’s questions, they couldn’t help but roll their eyes. ❝ sure, but there’s nothing we can do. we’ll go back eventually. might as well party and have a good time while we’ve got the chance !! ❞

Their words echoed through her mind and she could only be more upset about it. The fact she and everybody else couldn't do a thing about it made her wonder why. Why were they following the rules in the first place, why couldn't they know more about what was going, etc. Her anger only made her want to fight them, but she behaved for now. ❝How can you be so sure that we'll go back?❞ She had her doubts on whether or not they would be going back, but she also was unsure deep down whether or not she wanted to go back.

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