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The Scorched Bride, Robert Wun

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afternoon on the train (november 2023)

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Flowering Wave

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drowning love (japanese: 溺れるナイフ, hepburn: oboreru knife, lit. “the knife that dropped in water”)

“we broke up to avoid hurting each other, but if he completely ignores me, i feel hurt anyway. and when he does mess with me, even just a little bit... it’s a bother.”

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coffee / musicals / spring / halloween / cafés / cats / movies / open window / city apartment / hugs / poetry / longing for the future / space / dusk / hardcover / handwritten / sweaters / photography

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VVOK 2023ss lookbook*°:⋆ₓₒ

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NOTAWEAR 2023SS･ﾟﾟ･｡☆

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— Stéphane Mallarme, from “Collected Poems and Other Verse.”

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Alexander McQueen: The Horn of Plenty, autumn/ winter 2009-2010

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Zipeng Li: "A Dream of Red Mansions" (2023)

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a playlist for when you want to lie down in the grass and let the plants grow over you

bag of bones - mitski

trace - skullcrusher

funeral - phoebe bridgers

oom sha la la - haley heynderickx

i don’t wanna be funny anymore - lucy dacus

not a lot, just forever - adrianne lenker

even - julien baker

paul - big theif

うたのけはい - ichiko aoba 

full control - snail mail

witches - alice phoebe lou

100 year - florence + the machine

monkey & bear - joanna newsom

jo - haley heynderickx

this is not who i want to be - joanna sternberg

hot knife - fiona apple

salt in the wound - boygenius

body to flame - lucy dacus

picture me better - weyes blood

army dreamers - kate bush

francis forever - mitski

moon song - phoebe bridgers

joan of arc - judy collins

full playlist

-c. 7/9/21

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I heard so many people talk about romanticizing your life and at first it was annoying but then I was eating an apple and it was red and sweet and I was making an effort to conciously and slowly enjoy my apple because that's what my therapist told me to try to be more in the moment and it was the best apple I ever ate. I ate it slow and really payed attention to the sweetness and the sourness and I was sitting outside under some trees and there was a breeze and I thought: This is a perfect moment, and one day I will wish I had the opportunity to sit here and conciously eat this apple and be happy. Anyways. Try making a big deal out of small things.