notsophysics

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there is something good in everyday, even if it's small.

you might not even notice the something good if you don't know where to look.

we often look for grand gestures of beauty and major lucky life moments but did you ever stop to realize that sometimes the good thing of the day is your lunch tasting really good?

or maybe remembering you have really yummy leftovers for a snack in the fridge,

or being able to watch a new episode of a fav tv show,

or maybe just a butterfly landing on your car.

sometimes the good thing is small, but i promise its always there.

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5:33 pm

nag-aaway naman dito sa bahay. sigawan. bintangan. sumpaan. when will there be a time na tahimik yung mundo dito sa bahay. i guess kaya kami minamalas.

nakakapagod umintindi na tbh. tas araw-araw may panibagong problema kaming kinakaharap regarding sa finances. i do wonder if makakaahon kami in this situation. i really want to believe. gusto ko gumising one day, okay na lahat. sana malapit na yung araw na yon, kasi im hanging on a thin line right now.

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nothing motivates me anymore

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it’s scary to be back here. i only go here when i’m extremely sad. 

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I want a soft kind of love. A best friends kind of love. A "good morning baby, I'll make coffee and meet you in the shower" kind of love. I want lazy Sundays spent in bed and groggy Mondays getting ready for work side by side. I want the kind of love that makes you question if you ever felt love before. I want slow and steady and I want jumping headfirst into anything as long as we're together. The kind of love that feels like home and like a great adventure. I want that love.

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I hope you fall in love with someone who never lets you fall asleep thinking you’re unwanted.

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some days it gets so loud in my head

other days it gets too quiet

and i don’t know which one i prefer-

the demons shouting at me

or being so unwanted that even my demons hate me

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gusto ko lang magbreakdown tangina

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i feel so bad, i can’t stop these tears

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sasabog na ako 

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Minsan talaga ang unfair ng life no?

Ay madalas pala.

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so ayon, nawalan ako ng malay kahapon ng madaling-araw. nung nahimatay ako, bumagsak ako sa sahig kaya, bugbog ang shoulder part at natuklapan ang baba ko nice one. dehydrated daw ako hngggg

kaya reminder para sa lahat: 

stay hydrated :-----D

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“Maybe I’m just hard to love.”

— and easy to leave

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grabe nasurvive ko na ang unang semester ko sa college. pota sobrang daming nangyari, ang daming ups and downs, di ko na mabilang yung breakdowns ko for the whole sem. ang bright side lang ng semester na ito is that I got to meet new people na sobrang gagandang tao like wtf, di ko sila deserve :---( sana sila pa rin kasama ko hanggang sa pagsablay ko. 1 semester down, more to go. Hays kill me now. 

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Im not that sad, but still im not that happy.

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weird how 15 years from now it might be ur wedding or ur kids birthday but rn it’s just a regular shitty day