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Feelin' myself

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That's that girl with the fire in her eye

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Going through all my old pictures and seeing this made my night. #blackandwhite #nomakeup

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drugs in my purse and stars in my eyes

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The things I want my current and future employers to know.

1). I have anxiety therefore I will never be able to come to you with my problems. I will feel like a poor worker daily. I will not be able to work alone for long periods of time. Some days will be harder than other. I am truly sorry. 2). If you don't tell me I'm doing it wrong I can't fix it. This does not mean yell at or degrade me. This mean speak to me quietly and out of others earshot. 3). I will think you don't like me and this will make me uncomfortable. Just a weird thing I do. Again sorry. 4). If I am yelled at I will get over it but it could take awhile 5). No I can't be alone but no I don't want you touching me either. 6). My depression Is getting better but there will be days where I feel like I'd rather be dead than here, please know I'm trying my best and I don't mean to ruin anyones day. 7). Yes I know I'm messy I'm working on it, please if I make a mess and don't clean it up for whatever reason just remind me. 8). I know I could be treated worse at another place that's why I am here. 9). I am thankful for every thing that is done for me, even when it doesn't seem like it. 10). I don't need to be told "great job" everyday all I ask is for a smile or "Hi. How's it going?" 11). No I won't like everyone, no I won't pretend to be their friend. 12). Yes I will be civil, and yes I expect the same in return. 13). I like to joke around, tell me if you don't like it. I will respect your wishes. 14). If I make a mistake please don't think it's funny, I'm a crybaby. (simply) 15). Please don't talk behind my back and expect me not to do the same. 16). I am here to help, tell me what you need. 17). I am a friendly and talkative person, its part of who I am I will not stop taking because it annoys you. 18). I am whiny, I am sorry, I cannot stop. 19). I know I look like a mess somedays, I'm trying to find the motivation to wake up let alone look better than I feel mentally. 20). There are millions of other people who feel this way please don't take it as incompetence take it as a chance to help us improve our lives. Thank you.

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These!

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Why am I letting this happen to myself. I’m sitting here crying over a dude. Not a dude I dated not a guy a was in love with just a guy I went to school with, that was a friend of mine. I’m crying so hard I can’t breath all because I lost a friend. I feel so dumb I feel like I sound obsessed. But the truth is I just miss him. And I can’t drop the pain of losing a friend.

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Yeah I'm kinda in love with a dude I've never dated

I miss the sound of his voice in the hallways at school. I miss the way his fingers looked as he flipped me off walking by. I miss the way he always smelled like stale smoke and cologne. I miss the sound of his cackely laugh echoing through kims class. I miss the way he never matched. I miss feeling something tugging on my bag, or miss placing my phone but always knowing it was him. I miss seeing his squinty blue eyes. But most of all I miss having the hope that maybe someone loved me for me. When the only dude you want to be in your messages is the only one whos not.

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I've got a crush on you... But there's too much pain in me to tell you and theres to my pain blinding you (either that or you just won't tell me that you don't want me) but In reality I just want a friend... but I'm done trying for a little while. Sorry for bugging you.

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Stared my tea detox today. And found some super greens from country farm at Wal-Mart! Here's to starting a new life/life style. Hopefully I get accepted into my yoga class at the college! But I will be starting my at home work out soon within the month.

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When people want to act like you copied their tattoo but the fucking dream catcher symbolises the nightmare of a life I've had thus far and my ability to over come it. The lion is my strength, my guide, and my reminder that I am more powerful than I give myself credit for. And the clock my aspect of time. Showing me that this is only the beginning, that I have to move forward from the past and say fuck it all. And my quote has been picked out as a tattoo piece since the very first day I read it I'm in my DAD'S Facebook page, I read it and remembered all the kids that made me wish I would die since my first day of kindergarten, the same kids that followed me through into all my years of school expect two. The same kids who are now alcoholics before even their 21st birthdays while I still have a chance of being something because I didn't let them kill my spirt (the ram horns). So now that you know the story behind mine. Do you really think of copy your piece of shit "pretty" picture with a cliché movie quote? And hell yeah I put the dream catcher there because it's pretty but I also made sure it has a reason to stay. 😘

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You're not the person I met. You're not the person I fell In love with. I'll never have that girl back. But I'll never feel any different because I learned to the the person you have become.

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Realizing No one cares. And only you've got you.

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Yes you do 😕

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I hate you!

I hate you because I love you and can’t show it. I hate you because you have people there for you and I can’t be one of those people. I hate you because you said “our baby” but nothing can ever be “ours” again. I hate because all I ever wanted was your attention and now that’s not an option ever again! I hate because I want you to hate me too but you won’t. I hate you because I found a shirt you gave me that got lost along the way and it smells like you. I hate you because every time I think I’m getting better the feelings of what I lost come back. I hate you because I can’t do anything but cry when you tell me what’s going on in your life. I hate you because I just wanted us to work out. I hate you because I cry at anything that reminds me of you. I hate you because no matter how hard I try I will never truly hate you. I will only love and support you your whole entire life.