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list of Moods I have:

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“this is the worst I’ve ever felt and I’ve never been sadder than this single moment in my whole life”

“this is the best I’ve ever felt and I’ve never been happier than this single moment in my whole life”

ANGER

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fear !!

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Even duolingo is mocking me

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I miiiiight be a little bit not okay right now.. Like I'm either great(!) or everything makes me sad. In a short time frame. I get kinda jealous of other people's experiences too. Their lives, how good they're doing, the fun they're having, everyrhing they're doing to better themselves and enjoy their lives. Even if they don't really feel great about themselves. I'm still jealous and want anything but my own reality

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tfw your friends dont treasure your friendship with them as much as you do

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I'm tired of reaching out

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I hate how every time I look down at my arm I can see all my scars and they make my arm texture look weird and they make me feel weird, and it kinda makes my want to just hurt them worse, but that would literally not help at all!

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me: *about to send someone a message*

myself: hey

me: ? hey what's

myself: if they wanted to have any kind of contact w/ you they would have initiated it.

me: alright, neat, neat concept, but communication is actually a two-way street so

myself: they have no desire to speak to you and never have any desire to speak to you, ever. they never think of you. they will never think of you, at all, ever, even in passing. you are nothing.

me, tossing my phone out the window: alright! neat! awesome! fantastic!

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Just cut myself for the first time in years and I hate myself so much! I just want to die. I keep tearing up but I can’t actually cry!!!! I feel like shit constantly, but in a way that doesn’t even feel like it counts as depression, but boy howdy am I ever fucking depressed! It’s ‘good morning, I’m doing fine!’ and then suddenly that ever present feeling resurfaces and I can’t just let it out. I can’t just BE depressed, I have things to do, i don’t get to work things out I just get to suppress it and continue rotting from the inside out. I hate myself so much

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when you hate yourself for every reason under the fucken sun :-))

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have you ever had a weird sort of crush on one of your friends where you cant actually tell if its a crush or not??? do i want to kiss you?? do i just really enjoy being your friend????? who knows? not me

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I'm in that mood where I just really hate everything about myself

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A lot what I am are things that are disliked by the general population and that's a depressing thing to realize

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Just killed me. Just kill me, just kill me, just kill me. Just kill me, just kill me. Just kill me,, just kill me.. just kill me, just kill me. Just kill me just kill me just kill me... just kill me, just . Kill . Me.. just

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So I am depression...

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Girls: y e s 🌌👌😍👀🌹 Guys: 💘😏✨👏 🌹 y e s

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It's an "I want to die" kind of tired

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sad because i'm ugly, ugly because i'm sad