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Fuhh.. fuhh.. (blowing the dust off). wow! 2020! it's been a half-decade since i updated my tumblr. the last post was on 2017 if i'm not mistaken, right? i'm not really sure, but yaaa! Hi guys! I'm finally back! 😆 i almost forgot that ive tumblr. i thought i lost it because i haven't active for like yearsssss. Alhamdulillah i got em back! And i was a bit surprised scrolling back my feeds that i used to share my sentimental feelings here. I was like, "wow elyia, you're soooo good with words! I thought i was reading a Lang Leav's book". So shocked, and cringed at the same time 🤣 it's so nice of the old me sharing all her feelings here like her diary. can i say it's actually a great 'TALENT'? not everyone could do that. so, i'm gonna continue the talent back, after so long. and i'm sorry if my words doesn't really good now bcs i've been stopped doing this kind of things for like almost a decade. bear with me okay! ❤️

Now, look at that pic! the new me, new life, new ways of thinking, new look of me, with braces, looks like a nerd, right? anyway, there are gazillion of my life updates that are so interesting i wanna share with you, which may be related to my study, my love story, my downtime, my achievements, my inner peace, and a lot more. i will (not really a promise hehe 🙊) definitely share with you guys about 'em if i have time okay! now i have to do some stuffs, so i'll back in time! Catch with you up soon! 💋 - ELYIA

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13 May 2017 6:23pm 

it’s been a long day and i’m trying to figure it out. Lately, i’ve been so busy spending almost my time with all those assignments and final exams. And he’s also busy with his work. both have commitments. i wish i could have time with him. but i dont know, day by day, goes by goes, i felt like... it’s hard for me to say here, i could feel his love towards me fading away little by little. No, i know, i should not judge people by their actions. but I don’t know i can feel it. my instinct wasn’t the same like before. i felt insecure. i felt doubt. i have tried to cope with my overthinking. but, you know, it’s really hard. i didn’t say that he had stopped giving goodnight wish or morning wish or loveyou or what. he still texted me like that, but i don’t know. i felt nothing. i don’t feel special like i used to feel. my heart doesn’t change. i still loved him very much and more and more and more everyday. but i’m afraid that he didn’t love me like how i loved him. i have tried. i have tried to understand him. maybe he got stressed with his work, maybe he got stressed with his phone problem. but... i felt like he had changed lil bit. he used to share with me about his work, his work-mate, what he’s doing throughout the day. but now, he doesn’t share. he didn’t tell me that he went to saloon. he only told me fewwww days after he went there. no, i didnt ask him to report every single thing that he did. no, just let me know at least. it must be interesting right to share? rather than unnecessary talk during night call. then, he always shared with me about his work mate. ray, jerry, sandra, tulasse, suzane, and more. but, now, who is siti? i don’t know her, and he never shared with me but she’s in his call log. if she is his work-mate, so it’s okay. i wont get misunderstanding. but he didn’t. he didn’t share with me. he could share about others, but why about her, he didnt share with me. why? that’s a big question mark in my head. i dont get jealous but i just wondered who is she. and the doubt came into my dreams, and my dreams made its own assumptions. and that gave a big impact on me. because? Look at the picture up there. see ya. 

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10th JANUARY.

It was a super unwelcoming pain ever! I wouldn’t ever invite the pain if I had choices. Every woman felt this pain. Back pain, muscle pain, vomitted, migraine, and moree! More! So, every man should appreciate your woman. When the time of the months, we felt these pains. Women are born too be so special, strongest creatures ever. Our moms, omg. They are super awesome. We couldn’t imagine what will happen to earth if they aren’t born to have the power of giving birth! Obviously, it is really unrespectful if we hurt their feelings. Right? So, respect your woman, love her passionately, with full of your hearts. Because she, gonna widened your family. They sacrifice their lives for giving births your babies. So, why? Why still lots of men out there cheating on their wives? :( they are not deserve to be called ‘man’. Suppose to be 'chick’ tho. Lesson here; Nobody could be compared with power of Woman. Goodnight! - Lots of love, ELYIA

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LIFE IS WORTH LIVING AGAIN.

10th Jan. Now I’m working on a better me. I was very lucky. Why am I saying that? Because I have been living in a positive surrounding. I knew, there are tons of negative vibes in social media. And they always burned, ruined, and never stop sucking my positivity, my spirit, my enthusiasm, almost my life. But I’m still living. Everyone may face the ups and downs. Same goes to me. But, I felt more lucky even much more luckiest person ever, when a positive, never-get-his-head-down and super-high spirit man still loving me the way I am. He taught me all the positivity. Me myself, couldn’t even control my temper at all. I realized, I’m becoming rude. I used to be a positive girl. I positivate people around me. But, now i’m not. Because, when I loved someone, I will take care of him in every single thing. Because I always put the best into him. Until my too-much-care turned into too-much-hurt. Basically, when I got mad, I couldn’t control it, even though I’m trying to understand his situation. But I can’t. Why? EGO. Myself had been stucked with ego. I couldn’t even lower my ego. Because I love too much. And I’m very lucky because he’s still accepting me just the way i am. He taught me a quote. “Everything can be settled. Everything has its solution”.  I hope, you can help me through thick and thin. I’m so sorry, as long i’m with you. I knew sometimes I could be so rude, until I didn’t care about your feelings. your heart. I’m sorry. I’m trying to change a better me. I love you sayang and I really want you to be my only husband and the only daddy to our children sayang. InshaAllah, Amin :) - Lots of Love, ELYIA

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It's a new day. Same goes to a new year. So, why we still lock our souls in the room? Let's get some fresh air. At least you have the fresh air to occupy your emptiness right? We may feel empty, sometimes. And actually we didn't realize that someone always be by our side. It's God. Forever, He will stay by our side. Goodnight! :)

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Happy New Year! 2017 is on lit!

Hi guys, so now 1:29 am GMT, it's kinda late but not that late. Here I'm wishing you guys a super duper extra luck Happy New Year! May all your dreams come true this year and let go all the negativities and pains that have darkened your past years. Then, fill em yr days with love and passion! Thank you for everyone who had made a hilarious moment with me throughout the 2016 and I hope we can make it again for the upcoming years! Wishing you guys all blessed by the God's side. A warm welcoming wish for 2017! ❤🌟 love Allah, my family, him, and my besties.

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METAMORPHOSIS 🖤 Hands are no longer hands. They are caresses. Mouths are no longer mouths. They are kisses. My name is no longer a name, it is a call. And love is no longer love- love is you.

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Nature of Life

In life, we're not always on top. We're not always be the winner. We're not always be in the highest class. Because that is life. That is the nature of it. Whenever it is, everyone will feel the bottom. Sometimes, we will be the loser. Don't think it is impossible for us to drop down drastically. But, everything could be handle if we have that ONE. what's that? LOVE. A family would not feel they're at the bottom if they're united to each other. Love can heal every sadness. Just imagine, when we're facing with challenges or difficulties in our life, how could we stand together if we don't have that LOVE? We cannot simply say we love each other, but the fact is, they aren't. Trust me, I don't demand for a wealth family. But I want a happy family. It's nothing if we have thousand dollars, but we aren't happy bcs we don't have that love.

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Him. You know sometimes I couldn't handle my emotions, I couldn't think what I'm doing, I couldn't get rid of my stress, I couldn't stretch my mouth wide a bit to laugh, I couldn't tell what I burst for, and everything that had messed up my life, he resolved them. He is the best medicine i've had. Eventhough my anger could distract his patience, but he's amazing. Someone that could treat me to be better, he could let all my messy thoughts away in just a minute. He made me laugh for a simple joke. He left his feeling to heal me. He priored me. I couldn't know how would I be if not falling in love with you ❤️ I love you.

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The best thing I’ve had

You. You’re that guy. A guy that I’ve never met before. Suprisingly, you’re mine. More unbelievable when you fell in love with me. I know myself more than you; my anger, my temper, my uncontrollable feelings, my complicated emotions, and many more till me myself couldn’t handle it. But, God is blessing me. He gives me someone, somebody, that totally strangers to me, living far far away from where I��m, in an unexpected meeting. I thought my pasts darkened my future. I thought I wasn’t able to be in love again. Here’s the thing. I know you have seen things you wish you hadn’t. And you wonder why you were thrown into the thick of it all. Believe, my present, is the best thing I’ve had. I met him, I didn’t fall in love with him at first. But, faith. it’s faith. My grateful towards God is just endless and priceless. Nothing could be described how happy I am, in love with a man like you. I love you so much and you’re the best thing I’ve ever had  Zulfazli bin Tajuddin :) 

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NEHS

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Maturity

Be more mature in life, which means, every things that had happened to you, physically or mentally, even its hurt you or heal you, either it makes you stronger or weaker, here's the things. You got all that as your experience in life, adulthood, and as human being. God puts us in the best position as He is the best planner of everything. You broke right now, you will get the true happiness later. You fail right now, you will be more successful later. Just wait and faith. His Sustenance is infinity and anywhere at anytime. Thats the thing to teach you for being more mature in life. Tempered or satisfaction doesnt go well if not on the right track. And dont ever expect in return when you re doing something. Goodnight 😁

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Fade that..

its 4 am and im still not sleeping, it just like normal for me if ive ever been during studyweek. But this isnt actually me to be a norm, or to be figured out and overthink at this late midnight. i supposed to throw my bad thoughts all away bcs it probably be or hve put some burden on me and him as well and um i just dont want to but... ugh i cant get rid these things off and i really hope that this will be fading out in times. im a girl and i got confused on myself with what i want actually what i need and what i hope which all those things most men could not handle it. And that what it hve been. I try to understand myself, and i know other girls in the world might do the same so. And... Yeah, thats it.

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Agree?

if you find someone who genuinely cares about you, keep them... it's rare to find someone like that now a days

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Wondering

Look up to the sky, i mean the night sky. Ive even wondered. Do you miss me like I miss you right now? Do you love me like I love you? Do you ever take care of your heart like I do? I wonder. I could be dead silently if I know that you aren’t doing what like ive been stated above. My heart may pound like devastatingly and I was like..... no . no. I trust you. I trust our love. May our true love exists till forever. That’s my wish. Goodnight, dear love. 

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Someone who really loves you sees what a mess you can be, how moody you can get, how hard you are handle to, but still wants you in their life

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I had never fallen in love hardly before like i do to you. you know why? bcs now i feel the true feelings of being in love and it’s time to take serious about it. #ZFT