nymphetts

[nymphetts]

[nymphetts]

i love that u listen to me

i love that u get me

i love that u love me

even tho im not allright

even when i cant

even if im difficult to love

i love u for putting up with me

i love u for supporting me

i love u for who u r

i love u for u

[nymphetts]

i wish i could be alright

i would love to be perfect 4 u

i wish my heart was unharmed

and i could give it to you as a present

but i had to give u a damaged love

you deserve someone who can love u without any obstacles

i wish i could love u how u want me to love u

i really try to be who u want me to be

but im not

im broken

and i love u for it

[nymphetts]

i wish i could stop feeling this way

i need to stop feeling this way

i dont want to be scarred

i dont want to be broken

everytime i start to forget you

you come back

you come as waves of danger

you ruin my self esteem

when everything is coming together

you rip it apart

why dont you just go

why doesnt your mark on my soul goes with your presence

physically you been gone for a while, but what you broke, cannot be fixed

[nymphetts]

im sorry for being how i am, i dont want to, i just, dnt have the strength to take care of myself, im tired of everything, and would like to just, end everything, but u dont deserve that, u dont deserve a sick gf, u deserve someone better than me

[nymphetts]

i hate when im sad, cuz i depend on u

i hate that when i need u, u always have something to do

but i dont hate that ur bussy, i hate that i need u

i hate crying to sleep, but i dont want to bother ur sleep,

i hate that im not ok, cuz i drag u with me

i hate that ur looking for help while i drown even more

i hate that u fight when i already gave up

but u hate this things cuz i hate myself

i hate myself for putting u trought this,

its not ur fault, i know u would be better without me

but u dont see that, and im too weak to do anything

[nymphetts]

i hate lying to you, but i hate worrying you,

i hate depending on you

i want to make your life easier and pinkier,

not sadder and bluer

[nymphetts]

u have no idea how much time i spend thinking about the pills on my drawer, if they would work, or how much i should take, but its fucking difficult, im ashamed of myself for being so coward

[nymphetts]

i feel so bad, i dont want to do anything anymore, its so difficult to get up in the morning, to keep my room organized, even taking a shower feels like the most tiring thing to do, i just want to stop, everything, forever, i hope it was that easy, just, erase yourself

[nymphetts]

i feel so bad, i dont even recognize myself, this is not my body, not me, i hate this, i hate myself, i cant wear anything cuz everything feels and looks awful, i cant even go out feeling comfortable with myself

[nymphetts]

and i thought i was getting better, that i was finally stable, but no, its just u, your light and brigtness dont let the dark in me come out, i need u more than i thought

[nymphetts]

u r exactly what ive been dreaming my whole life to get

you're that perfect love, the one u dont want to imagine ending

the one that looks like taken out of a movie

it makes me so insecure, thinking that maybe im not as perfect for u as u r for me

i just, really love to love u, and to be loved by u

[nymphetts]

you light everything up

everytime u walk into a room you shine

i simply cannot take my eyes off of u

i wish u could see yourself from my eyes

cuz ur the prettiest person ever,

without even talking about looks my dear

[nymphetts]

i wish i could just \\||\/|/|

and bye

[nymphetts]

why cant i do it, what am i so scared of???

pain? im already in pain

im scared of myself

im scared of being alone

im scared of not waking up, even if it is the idea

[nymphetts]

i thought i was better, but i wasnt, i was just hiding everything inside, i was playing hide and seek with my emotions, you let me enjoy everything without the bad parts, u protected me from myself, u dont even know how much u do for me every day that u just love me, i can be happy bc of u

[nymphetts]

i love u more than i love myself

i need u more than i need myself

i dont want to break ur heart my love

u dont deserve this

u deserve to be happy

to love someone u wont be scared to love

u deserve better