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This post will get rather long, please bear with me while I post all three parts of it.

People have blocked me in the past few days, and I'd rather it is for my own words than by association. I owe that to my mutuals here who have not heard from me in a while, especially those who like to form their own opinions. And I owe it to myself, because I won't keep being hypocritical thinking and talking about how people should handle things like adults but not do it myself and fade without a word.

Racism isn't petty drama, but the way it is handled can be, as it works with everything. I am not here to defend Bunny, or the other person, whose name was not stated "for the sake of their privacy" but King @ anyway — I will keep their name private as for their wishes, and call them X.

The callout was initially intended as a way of raising awareness to Bunny posing as a black person, meant to protect and validate POC. Although I have had ooc contact with him, I honestly cannot tell if he was posing as black, or how they were doing that (I am not American, and what I know of black culture in my country is most likely untrue for others, especially US), so I won't question the many people who spoke of their experience. It did catch my eye, as an external observer, that a few times it was mentioned that he "never claimed to be black", only thought to be. I don't know him or any of the people affected, but I was left with the impression that these claims were a thing brewing in a different circle, and were never brought up to him until it exploded. I don't doubt it is true and harmful for the people affected, but I have yet to see proof that it was intentional and malicious. If you have it, and will be so kind as to educate me, I would want to see it.

He addressed it in his own blog, all of the claims from the callout blog, so they weren't a secret even to his followers outside the bg3 rpc. He mentioned the past callouts, the sexualization of his character and pretending to be black. I think people are smart enough to make their own minds after seeing it there — if they thought he was black, now they knew for sure he wasn't, if they had sensed something odd with the sexualization they knew they weren't alone, and for the past callouts… I had been following Bunny for a while, and it isn't the first time I have heard about them from him. They were not public, but they weren't a secret either.

When I asked for the callout blog, I wanted to see proof of the things he had said, to cut ties with him after reading the testimonies of the affected people and forming my educated opinion. But I found nothing. All of it was telling me that what Bunny said was true: people saying they believed him to be black, people uncomfortable by the sexualization of his muse, and victims of his past. It gave me exactly nothing, except the word of strangers. Sure, I can trust POC's word about this or that being racist, because they know better. But I want to know what 'that' is. As a person who interacted with Bunny, and as a white person who writes some POC and highly sexual characters, I am not interested in "the drama", I want to know what they did wrong so I can learn from it: make sure I don't do it myself, educate my friends, stay away from others who replicate that behavior.

I thought at that point the deed of "keeping the rpc safe" was done. People had their thoughts validated, the person in question had addressed the issue, and most importantly he had added it to his rules. If it was indeed a malicious, intentional racist move, it had no room to ever happen again, and even followers from other rpcs knew of the claims and could form their opinion.

I positioned myself after Bunny's last post, when the issue of misgendering was mentioned, in his tags. I cannot possibly believe that none of the many people publicly or privately involved with the callout read this post. Be said he uses he/they pronouns (and those who follow him know that he's been using he more prominently as of late), and she is reserved for close friends. All over the callout blog he is referred to by the wrong pronouns, not just by people in screenshots, but for OP as well — recently for the excuse that "he has used them in the past, and it is what everyone else is using", but never once correcting it or addressing it. Perhaps people will call this a stretch, or a "desperate excuse to defend a racist", especially coming from a cis woman like myself, but this is a hard line for me, so I don't care. No matter the claims, no one deserves to be misgendered over and over again by dozens of people on a viral blog. It is cruel and dehumanizing. Even if there wasn't a conscious, malicious reasoning by OP, I can't possibly believe no one involved knew he was being misgendered — no one knew beforehand, or read his post, or got anons mentioning it? I don't know if they didn't speak up, or if someone did and wasn't listened to. I don't care. This alone makes me sick, and I don't wish to keep interacting with people who have seen this and did nothing about it.

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Minthara <3 Always there to advice you the most evil dialogue option

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the sexiest thing a man can do is collapse on the floor coughing blood

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// I'm not dead just taking a break ✌️

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“if you don’t shut up, i’ll cut your throat” girlfriend and “that’s hot” boyfriend

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One trope Im a big fan of in media is when the loyalty outweighs a conflict of interest. I don’t agree with what you’re doing, but I will follow where you go no matter what. I will do anything for you even if it opposes my own morals

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Jamie Anderson/Glennon Doyle Melton, Love Warrior

Grief and love are interconnected

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𝕿𝐡𝐲𝐤𝐧𝐢𝐟𝐞. an original character of Baldur's Gate 3

𝖎. 𝑨'𝒃𝒚𝒔𝒔𝒆𝒍. He'd found the name fitting. The ages had long gutted him from the inside, a Matron's expectations needn't the burden of those tender parts to achieve her grand designs. A knife. A dagger that needs neither heart nor soul, only an edge on which to cut the skin of her enemies.

He could think of no better word to describe the vacancy left behind, the internal void that had always kept its loyal husk company, the Abyss.

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// Still thinking about how Halsin is probably the only good-aligned guy Minthara sees and immediately thinks "I'd fuck that man any time"

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Wed, bed, behead — Maeve, Halsin, and Gale

"Behead the wizard. His awkward presence and unwitty remarks are embarrassing, and he clearly lacks the endurance I seek in a mate. I'm sure he would start whining the moment I dig my nails into his scrawny back."

"Bed the druid. Unlike the other, he is quite the fine specimen. A curiosity, to say the least." A laugh, honest and appreciative. "I could ride him and make him bleed for hours. To exhaust such a man until he can no longer stand... now that would be a most satisfying conquest."

"And wed Maeve, of course. She would make a fine consort, and I would appreciate having a warrior like her by my side. The things we could do together, with her prowess and mine combined— A pity that she is just too soft for that. Although I congratulate her choice of a partner."

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// i think i'll add to the doble spacing rule no color highlighting, especially not in combination with caps/bold text... Colored text now shows underlined on mobile and I'm like this exactly: 😵. Dialogues are fine but random words are like... idk but they scream in my head and the rest of the text just stops making sense.

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Wed, bed, behead — Lucan, Brail, and Valas

"Behead the half-elf. That would shut his mouth for good." There is no hesitation. Whatever animosity she has towards the drow is far outweighed by the insufferable headache that is the mage.

"Wed the high elf. He needs only to decorate the room for a while, I would expect him to die from poison quite early."

"Bed the insolent boy. I highly doubt he has it in him to please me — or any woman for that matter —, but at the very least I would enjoy greatly tying him up, and test how much pain he is capable of enduring."

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Ask my muse “Wed, Bed, Behead”

Give my muse three names and they will say which one they will wed, which one they’d bed and which one they’d behead.

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"I'm used to being on my own now."

"It is always advisable to get used to it." Minthara nods as she drags a finger over the rim of her glass. The glass is too thick, and the wine not fragrant nor strong enough, but she prefers it to the garbage she had access to when leading the Absolute's forces. Bigger is always better for goblins, everything fragile is a toy and everything pointy is a weapon, meaning all they usually brought back was ale, regardless of taste. She sometimes could get her hands on something nicer, but that wasn't always the case.

To think that she put up with it for so long. All due to damn Ketheric Thorm... and Orin. The thought of her makes her stomach sink.

"It isn't much different on the surface, no matter how much your kin wants to claim otherwise. You pride yourselves in being more virtuous, more civilized— Oh, but there are just as many daggers waiting around every corner," she chuckles. "They merely tend to be more... metaphorical, rather than literal."

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holds up a frog to show minthara. it's albino, but otherwise just a normal frog. tara, however, looks very proud of herself.

"What is this?"

A frog, yes, she knows as much. Similar varieties exist in the Underdark, although this one, like many other surface creatures, looks bland and positively harmless. Clawless, teethless as far as she can see. Overall, nothing of particular remark. Only the pigmentation pikes the drow's interest, and prompts her eyes to pay attention for longer than one second.

She still doesn't know why the creature is proudly shown to her. An offering? In Menzoberranzan, some small amphibians are considered delicacies, due to the dangerous and impractically time-consuming task that is hunting them.

"A meal?"

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// Not me thinking about Jereth tracking Minthara and finding her during act 3