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I've collapsed twice today. I try to act like it's nothing but I'm low-key scared af. Why do I randomly faint and loose conscious? This has never happened before. WTF is going on ?

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Last night I dreamt my brother. It was 2008 again, we were back in our childhood home on Civic center and Cheyenne. I was laying on the floor watching TV and as I look up behind me I see my brother . 6 years old again, sitting quiet but with so much sadness in his eyes and maybe anxiety, he kept moving his hand and one leg back and forth .

In my dream I remember extending my arm out, I rub his leg and ask him if he's okay and he doesn't say anything, just looks into my eyes at the verge of tears but does not cry. I ask him, are you sad? and he just nods his head no, as he continues to move anxiously with so much sadness in his eyes.

Now I am awake, and just now realized that this was his childhood and we did not notice him . Just a little boy, alone, full of sadness and anxiety and no one knew because no one asked or bothered to pay attention to him. I am so heartbroken. So hurt. I could have been more loving to my little brother . I could have played with him , I could have hugged him and kissed him and told him I loved him . I could have showed him that he wasn't alone .

We all could have .

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It's been years since I've blogged y'all!

I missed you!

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i feel like i’m cursed forever but other than that i’m doing alright

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honestly me every night tbh

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the 2 best things

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Créditos a quien corresponda

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This really my dilemma.

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Madlib x Mf Doom

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