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I forgive you. Don’t worry. Don’t worry. 

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don’t ever hesitate to CALL ME. if you EVER even feel like you are LONELY.

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TAGGING: @lazarusweptt (Jeremy)

My dearest second bestie (Sorry Caroline has #1 <3 ) and co-parent Never did I think we would end up where we are, and often some days (more than I'd like to admit) I was afraid you wouldn't make it to anymore birthdays at all. Not surprisingly enough, that's still a fear. But with that being said, you made it! That is absolutely something to celebrate, now make the next fifty please! You have been my rock through all of my hard times, and I couldn't even begin to explain how grateful I am to have you in my life. Not even just mine, but Pedro's too. You have been the best dad that kid could ask for. Thank you for being you. Happy birthday, love you! Love, Bon.

Gifts

A new, engraved and personalized flask.

A teddy bear from Pedro - because a teddy fixes everything

An engraved sketchbook - Bonnie was going to get him a new crossbow but thought that that would only aid in the fear of him not making it to another birthday.

A bunch of drawings from Pedro for Jeremy.

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TAGGING: @ofuntamedhearts (Caroline)

My dearest bestie, Today the world was blessed with one of the best people around and I am so glad I get to call you my best friend. So long as there's air in my lungs, we are going to celebrate every birthday you have because you deserve it plus so much more. You are one of the best things in my life and I'm so honored to call you my best friend, my soul sister, and the most badass woman I know. I hope you have an amazing, incredible, fantastic, and wild birthday. I love you to the moon and back <3 Love, Bon

Gifts

A matching necklace set of rough crystals - Bonnie has one, Caroline the other.

A pink teddy bear from Pedro - because teddy bears make everything better.

A girls night reserved just for the girls (a day or two after her birthday night with Jeremy for reasons)

A bunch of drawings from Pedro for Caroline

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TAGGING: @ofuntamedhearts (Caroline)

To the best mom a girl could ask for,

I know birthdays aren't really your thing, but did you really think I was going to let your birthday go unnoticed? Do you not know who you raised? I would throw you a giant party if I could. I don't say it everyday, but I am so, so grateful that you got stuck with Josie and I. You have shaped me into the very woman I am today, and when I needed someone you were always there (if not, a plane trip away). I wish I could take you to our favorite little cafe in Paris for a cute little mimosa brunch, and while New Orleans isn't Paris, we could recreate it! You have sacrificed so much to be the woman you are today and I am so, so proud of who you are. I love you, and Happy Birthday!

Love, Lizzie.

Gifts

One of the most expensive bottles of tequila she could find.

Spa tickets (with Jeremy) so they could have a spa day at New Orleans most expensive hotel and resort.

An 'at home' spa basket.

A scrapbook that Lizzie has been working on for the last year, just for her mother. Filled with pictures of her friends, she and Josie, Jeremy, Pedro, moments that Caroline wasn't there for due to looking for a way out of the merge.

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TAGGING: @lazarusweptt (Jeremy)

Jeremy, I can't decide if you're lucky, or unlucky to have a birthday on Friday the 13th. This calls for a horror movie night, right? Anyways! Yay you for making it another year in life, not that I was worried or anything.... All that aside, I'm glad that you're in my life and I'm able to call you family. You've stepped up in ways that I don't think you even know. Thank you for being there for me, and for my sister and mom too. I hope you have an awesome birthday, love you!  Love, Lizzie. 

Gifts

A mug that she saw at a little Hallmark shop that she found funny, couldn't resist in not buying it.

A personal decanter engraved with his name, filled with his favorite alcohol.

A "manly bracelet" with a little message in the box.

Spa tickets (with her mom) so they could have a spa day at New Orleans most expensive hotel and resort.

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A small laugh escapes Lizzie's lips at Jeremy's statement, a shoulder coming up in a raise, "What can I say? I got that Forbes charm." It certainly didn't come from her father. If she was going to get anything from him, she was sure it would be alcoholism. God, she hoped not. Upon hearing Jeremy's answer, Lizzie couldn't say she was all that surprised. More than half his friends at one point were vampires, she was sure there was more to it than that though. With a choice like that -- wasn't there always more to it? When given the choice, that is. Some people weren't lucky enough for that (her mom came to mind - but her mom was a great vampire). "What changed your mind?" She prodded gently. "Well, I mean you do have my mom in your corner, she'd be a great help." She laughs. His question weighs heavy in the air for a moment before she slowly nods. "It'd be easier for everyone." She answers, "Mom could stop crying to herself after every birthday we have, Josie wouldn't have to carry the guilt of killing me, hell maybe even my dad will put down the bottle for once." Likely not, "And I'd get to stay forever young, I'd like to take a hard pass on wrinkles and gray hair." She adds with a smile to lighten up the otherwise heavy conversation.

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Carson leans his elbows against the counter as he watched the girl grab another beer, going into a whole thing about who's going to stop her. "From drinking?" The alpha lifted a brow, "I reckon no one. Pretty sure no one cares what you do." There was a lot more going on than someone going for another beer. Her question rang in his ears as he shrugged a shoulder, "Not really." The small smirk played at his lips as he took a drink from his glass, "Maybe if you ask nicely."

"And who is gonna stop me?" Sarah said, uncapping the third beer she had found in the bar. She knew she probably shouldn't be doing this but coming back from the dead, she thought she could be given a break. So here she was, chugging beer she hated while stuffing her face with peanuts. Her stomach growled. She was hungry but she needed to figure out where she was. Why she was here. "You wanna tell me what year it is? @heathenstarters

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Lizzie scooted a little closer to her sister, cuddling into their side like they've always done. "Is it the excitement of being in a more... alive city, or is something troubling you?"

@ofchaoticminds / josie & lizzie<3

❛ i can't sleep. i just can't. i've been lying here awake, all night. ❜

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Bonnie nods her head side to side, agreeing with the woman. "Watching them realize you're right is a pretty good feeling too. It's entertaining to watch."

@ofchaoticminds / stevie & your choice<3

❛ there’s nothing quite like the feeling of being proven right. ❜

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"I mean unless you're looking to be a snack for the wolves -- you can't and shouldn't be here." Scarlett's hues land on the vampire, "Marcel send you?"

@ofchaoticminds / santiago & your choice<3

❛ is it that i can’t be here, or that i’m not allowed to be here? ❜

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Klaus cast a glance to his brother, emerald hues narrowing only slightly. Klaus could say the same thing but it'd be a lie. Elijah was free from the Mikaelson name - living a life for himself. He never looked better. "Yes, well. You try harboring one of the strongest witches in known history and see how well you fare."

@ofchaoticminds / elijah & klaus<3

❛ you look like a mess. ❜

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Klaus had scared his daughter -- he hated that. He never wanted to be that kind of father. He wouldn't be able to stand it if Hope flinched from him. But she did, the time that Hayley is talking about. Klaus had yelled at her and Hope had taken a step back in fear. That one stung though. "It was easier staying away when I wasn't in the same zip code." He admitted, interlacing his fingers together as he stared down at the people below them. "I'm trying." He adds, "I'm really trying. There's days where I don't even know how I get to wherever she is. She's getting stronger." Inadu, he meant. "If it comes to the point where you need to put me down. Do it." Emerald hues look to the mother of his child.

"⸺ She'll come around, Klaus." Hayley wasn't going to meddle into their business and force their daughter to talk to Klaus just because he was her father. "The last time she saw you, she was nine. You terrified her." A hard pill to swallow, surely. But Hayley was never one for sugarcoating things. "But until we deal with the Hollow, I think it's best you keep your distance from her, myself and the pack." @ofchaoticminds

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His arms tighten a fraction more around Ollie as he feels the other move closer into the embrace. There were a lot of things Jackson wanted to do differently now that he was back, and making amends with Ollie was one of them. Jackson himself has had A LOT of bad days, but one of the worst went hands down to WATCHING OLLIE DIE IN HIS ARMS, unable to do anything to STOP IT. That day haunted him, the vivid memory would often play out - especially when Jackson’s hues watched any kind of fire dancing. He remembered the LONELINESS after Ollie had died too, sitting there with Ollie’s corpse. And when dawn struck, NO ONE (but Hayley) had showed up to his funeral. Ollie’s words ring in his ears, I’M SORRY. Jackson wanted to laugh but he couldn’t bring himself to do it, instead the former alpha takes a deep breath in. “I forgave you a long time ago, Ollie.” And that was true, “Still nice to hear it though.” He mustered up a small joke. “I’m sorry too.”

so there you stand : judas at the bayou , thrice-made traitor , suffucator , hellhound. nothing beautiful. nothing particularly worth saving. and there he stands : jesus at the tomb , ardent loyalist , saviour , leader..... and for some inscrutable fucking reason , he says he missed you. like having you darken the devil's doorstop --- not his --- was the worst goddamn thing that could happen ( it wasn't , but god you're selfish enough to want to believe ). pulls you off of your knees. dusts you off and pulls you close. holds you. holds you and all you want to do is grind your bones into his ---- strip away the flesh and sinew and the excess until you're both laid bare and bloody. open and raw. the same animal. a pile of dust. something inseparable and indistinguishable. you don't deserve it but you want it. throat catching , you push your head closer into the junction of his neck. if you weren't so goddamn gone , the sticky-wet tears would be embarrassing ---- the raw fucking need would be embarrassing. but you are ( so fucking gone ) so it isn't. instead , you open your mouth and speak your first word in months , " jack. " it sounds like a prayer. like you've found god again ---- or at least something to believe in. " i'm sorry. "

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