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☀️🌙✨ tarot questions ✨🌙☀️

the fool: do you have any nicknames? the magician: have you ever written a poem or song about somebody else? the high priestess: what is your dream date? the empress: do you think you will ever get married? the emperor: what are some names that you like? the hierophant: do you believe in ghosts? the lovers: do you have a crush? the chariot: thoughts on astrology? strength: what is your dream occupation?  the hermit: what is your favorite soda pop? wheel of fortune: first three songs that come on shuffle? justice: favorite color of rose? the hanged man: favorite movie soundtrack? death: what are three things you want to do before you die? temperance: can you describe a strange dream you’ve had? the devil: do you enjoy thunderstorms? the tower: favorite colors to wear? the star: have you ever seen a psychic? the moon: have you ever written a love letter? the sun: do you believe in magic? judgement: do you enjoy school? the world: do you like waking up early?

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‘Shit My Friends Said’ Sentence Starters

‘ Isn’t it a little early for your sexual deviancy? ‘

‘ How the tables have tabled. ‘

‘ This is me at peak romance, _____. This is all you get. ‘

‘ I’m always ready to lie to your face. ‘

‘ We can’t let a goat bully us out our house! ‘

‘ How is “won’t” a contraction of will not? Shouldn’t it be “willn’t”? ‘

‘ Yeah, the moon is pretty far away. At least ten miles. ‘

‘ It’s not a sex party, it’s a fetish festival. ‘

‘ Wait, is this a kink? ‘

‘ I don’t want to be an adult either, buddy, but if I have to do it so do you! Come out of that fucking cocoon! ‘

‘ I think I represent all types of panic pretty well actually. ‘

‘ Please go to church. ‘

‘ It’s a God, you blasphemous fuck. ‘

‘ _____ is perfectly evolved to eat ass. ‘

‘ Shut the up fuck I hate you. ‘

‘ I can’t kill you, where else am I going to get this entertainment? ‘

‘ I am not being held accountable for your evil. ‘

‘ ____, whatever you do, do not fuck the enemy. ‘

‘ Good. This is a nice amount of injuries. Zero. Let’s aspire to this again. ‘

‘ Stop doing that thing with your face. ‘

‘ I have no idea how that arrow got there. Are we sure it wasn’t always there? ‘

‘ She’s immensely attractive and I’m scared she’d hit me. ‘

‘ Honestly, you only have your self to blame for this disappointment. ‘

‘ Don’t you just have a second child if the first isn’t good enough? That’s what my dad did. ‘ 

‘ I’m toying with adulthood but I’m not totally there yet. ‘

‘ Breathing. Another male privilege. ‘

‘ Why would you drink this, and why does it look like chocolate? ‘

‘ You sense sobriety from someone who doesn’t want to be sober. ‘

‘ I had a furry phase but it was an accident. ‘

‘ Please don’t call semen impregnation fluid. ‘

‘ We didn’t fail. That suggests we’re finished. ‘

‘ This is why we can’t be together. ‘

‘ You’d make a lovely wife! ‘

‘ It was well intentioned violence. Benevoiolence. ‘

‘ Humiliation can be a useful tool for improvement. ‘

‘ I’m naming my first grey hair after you. ‘

‘ It’s cute, bitch. ‘

‘ Wipe that fucking grin off your face, you sack of shit. ‘

‘ You don’t need to whip it out that often. ‘

‘ I feel weird hitting on you. You’re like a mom. ‘

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lucygson​:

Lucy placed a hand over her heary, mock offended by his tone, but small smile soon tugged at her lips. She hated when someone interrupted her listening, but at least he had the decency to stop and not ignore her. “Good taste,” she said. “I was asking what movie you think I should go to,” she said, motioning towards the showings board.

"OH , UH .." he said shyly , taking out the other headphone and began mindlessly wrapping them around his fingers , "thank you." a shy smile. xan studied the board along with her for a moment , though the options were almost always the same. "i'm guessing you're sick of ferris , otherwise i doubt you'd be asking for advice ... what about bill and ted?"

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SILAS

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Dingle was quaint, that was how Silas had heard it nicely put by those who passed through on their vacations, and road trips. It was particularly the kind of town anyone seemed to set out to visit, rather just a passing stop on a larger itinerary. And Silas could tell you exactly why that was, because there was nothing to do in a town like this. Once you’ve seen Larry staring at you while you pass on the street one too many times, and been to Breeze Block with wine hidden in a cola cup a few nights already that week, there was nothing left that had appeal.

It’s possibly why he frequently found himself visiting his friends when they were supposed to be working, or perhaps that was just because Silas was usually quick to grow bored of his own company. 

“Not after Ernie today.” The bell ringing familiarity as he enters the store, and easily makes his way up to the counter. “Figured it’d be as dull in here today as it is out there. Thought you could use the company.” 

。・ * ✧   ❛  WELL  YOU  THOUGHT  correctly , ❜  xan  replied , not  bothering  to  hide  their  excitement . they  thought  of  answering  with  something  more  sarcastic  and  snarky , but  something  about  silas  almost  never  let  them . besides , silas  was  right .. things  were  a  bit  dull  today . ❛  i’m  flattered  someone  came  to  visit  me  instead  of  ernie  for  once , ❜  he  chuckled  softly , picking  up  his  work  to  show  his  friend .  ❛  wanna  help  me  draw  this  one ?  ❜

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。・ * ✧   ECHO  RECORD  CO. , having  such  a  large  collection  of  records , not  so  surprisingly , had  many  without  proper  sleeves . xan , during  lulls  in  his  shifts , often  took  it  upon  himself  to  move  them  to  blank  sleeves  to  prevent  scratching  and  to  protect  from  all  the  extra  dust  from  where  the  miscellaneous  pile  was  stacked  in  the  corner . but  xan  couldn't  leave  them  blank , boring  and  unmarked  --  not  when  his  boredom  was  still  just  as  unresolved , and  not  with  his  tendency  to  doodle  upon  every  surface  anyways . the  countertop  and  cash  registers  got  a  break  from  the  relentlessness  of  xan's  mindless  sharpie  scribbles  on  days  like  this  ..  the  scribbling  shifting  from  the  already  marked - up  counter  to  a  fresh  paper  sleeve  and  from  absentminded , cartoonish  depictions  of  cowboys  and  lizards  to  much  more  thought - out  images  of  whatever  best  fit  the  genre  and  album , matched  with  careful  handwriting .

the  words   JESSIE'S GIRL - RICK SPRINGFIELD /  $8   now  graced  the  new  cover  of  the  small  45  as  xan  sat  and  pondered  what  images  to  add  alongside  the  lettering . the  bell  signaling  a  new  customer  pulled  him  out  of  his  deep�� thoughts .. making  him  sit  up  and  accidentally  drop  the  pen  on  the  ground .  ❛  hey  ,  welcome  to  echo .. if  you’re  lookin’  for  ernie , he’s  not  in  right  now .  ❜

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LOUIS

Louis

A thin white trail of smoke leaked from the hood of an old Toyota Hiace.  Always have a bottle of water in the car. Words he heard a thousand times but only regretted today. 

Knowing there was nothing to be done but wait Louis sat on the curb of a street he barely recognized. Pulling out his phone he began to search through his contacts, maybe they’re still nearby. Louis dialed. “Hey, sorry to ask but are you still around? I could really use a hand.”

。・ * ✧   ❛  LOUIS !  WHAT’S  GOOD  ?  ❜  xan  answered , tone  shifting  dramatically  as  he  listened  to  his  friend  speak . ❛  oh .. uhhhh , where  are  you  ,  bro  ?  i’m  on  foot .. er .. skateboard  today  but  i  can --  ❜  he  cut  himself  off  , spotting  a  familiar  figure  across  the . street  and  waving  dramatically  with  his  whole  arm . ❛  hey , hey .. uhh .. wave  back  if  that’s  you  !  ❜

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SCARLETT

it’s quiet; only a few people skittering between the rows of records. the music, consistently blasting off of the walls to create an intimate sort of setting, soundly vibrating through the space. she’s sure someone’s put on their own little remix; the differentiating sounds a funny collaboration between something funky and pop, but with the store practically empty, it doesn’t matter much. Her fingers skim along the edge of casings, hovering every once in a while to determine its place. she’s barely aware of a silhouette stalking towards her until she turns around, her hair sweeping slightly along with the movement. “oh uh, welcome at echo records. how can i help you?”

。・ * ✧   ❛  I’M  NOT  a  customer , scarlett  .. no  need  to  be  so  formal , ❜  he  joked  with  a  smile . ❛  but  you  can  help  me  with  something , i  hope  ..  d’you  know  where  ernie  put  all  the  pens  ?  the  good  ones .. unless  you  moved  them  ?  ❜   xan  had  a  tendency  to  use  them  to  doodle  on  the  walls  ,  but  this  time  he  needed  them  to  help  mark  boxes  while  doing  inventory . ❛  and  while  i’m  at  it  .. do  you  know  who  put  this  music  on  ?  ❜

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LUCY

Although there wasn’t exactly a vast selection, Lucy always spent a long time deliberating over which film she was going to see. She had been standing staring at the board for a good few minutes now, arms crossed over her chest. She frequented Trio at least three times a week, if she had the time off work. Regardless of the time of day she always felt better after watching something on the big screen.

“Pick a number between one and three and I’ll go see that one,” she decided, looking at the person that had just walked past.

。・ * ✧   XAN  HAD  JUST  clocked  out , made  clear  by  the  music  blaring  from  his  headphones , the  skateboard  held  close  to  his  side  and  the  pace  at  which  he  headed  for  the  door .  he  caught  sight  of  lucy  and  almost  continued  to  walk  past , until  he  thought  he  saw  her say  something  --  so , despite  his  better  judgement , stopped  to  talk . ❛  what ?  ❜   xan  asked  , his  tone  probably  harsher  than  he’d  intended , as  he  pulled  out  just  one  earbud  and  held  it  up  as  if  to  explain .   ❛  couldn’t  hear  you  over  the  cranberries .. you  need  something  ?  ❜ 

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REYNA

hands clasped together as if their unity would somehow grant reyna her wish, she pouted. “i swear you don’t even have to join.” the begging raised her voice a slight octave. “just come with me to the skate park. i need a cheerleader.” she scoffed in jest. rey was not one to be afraid of failing, but she was a social creature and having someone next to her when she learned a new skill was appealing.

。・ * ✧   ❛  UMMMMMM , ❜  xan  hummed  as  he  pondered  her  plea . they  wanted  to  give  in , since  they’d  probably  head  over  there  at  some  point  today  anyways , but  on  the  other  hand , xan  typically  preferred  to  be  alone  when  skating  and , on  a  third  hand , wasn’t  great  at  saying  no  to  people . ❛  right  now ?  ❜  is  what  he’d  settled  on . ❛  i  got  work  in , like , an  hour  or  something ..  ❜  his  voice  quiet  and  trailing  off  .

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CHARLEY

“You know, sometimes I think dating a magician would be so cool, because he can just make money appear from right under my nose or whatever. But then I remember the one time I did go on a date with a magician and then I got stuck with the bill while he did one of those disappearing acts.” 

“Anyways, what were we talking about? I’m sorry, that date is still so fresh in my mind…”

。・ * ✧   IT  WASN’T  OFTEN  xan  could  be  spotted  hanging  out  with  charley ,  though  when  he  did , it  was  a  guarantee  he  would  only  respond  negatively  to  whatever  she  had  to  say , whether  or  not  he  really  meant  it .  ❛  a  magician ?  ❜  he  asked , tone  laced  with  a  mixture  of  shock  and  disgust . ❛  really  ?  a  magician ?  ❜  he  repeated  after  taking  a  drink  from  the  cup  of  coffee  he’d  let  sit  for  a  little  too  long .. though  if  anyone  were  to  point  that  out , he’d  simply  insist  he  preferred  it  this  way .  ❛  not  like  ..  a  musician ? that’s  supposed  to  be  bad  enough , but  magic  ?  that  shit  is  corny  and  fake . i  honestly  don’t  even  remember  what  i  was  saying  anymore , dude . ❜ 

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CLARK

for someone as notoriously lazy as he is, clark certainly does not make proper use of his work breaks. 

today, he is on a special streak of idiocy, fueled by two strawberry milkshakes and a joint he’d hastily smoked in the back alley. rosie’s is especially dead — it’s usually pretty barren after the lunch rush, but today the diner is inhabited only by their regular, gary (who literally never leaves his sad, sad perch at the counter), and a few assorted stragglers who clearly just want him to have more dishes to deal with when he gets back to work. fucking cruel. 

however, the most essential factor here is that rosie is out running an errand. and when the rosie is away, the idiot comes out to play. 

so of course, as anyone logically would, clark deems this the perfect time to hop up on the empty stage tucked in the back corner, and add another number to what he has lovingly dubbed the rat spectacular. and this is unarguably his finest show to date: a completely acapella croon of “what’s new pussycat,” delivered to (a now sleeping) gary, and the scattered group of patrons who either look bewildered or actively upset. he gives it his all, of course — off-tune vocals, intricate and sensual dance moves, and the unhinged energy of a man who only got four hours of sleep and is running purely on sugar and weed.  

after he finishes his performance, he dips into a hearty bow, before stepping off stage to greet his throes of admirers (that being, the singular person who is closest to the stage). 

“y’know, i think i got a future in show biz,” he says, sporting an especially shitty grin and a face slightly dampened by the extreme fervor of his dance moves. “never even took a dance class, if you can believe it. i know my moves are top tier shit.” 

。・ * ✧   XAN’S  FRIENDSHIP  WITH  CLARK  was , for  the  most  part , a  secret . by  xan’s  logic , that  secret  was  kept  safe , since  anyone  who  would  care  about  the  secret  is  likely  aware  of  how  infrequently  xan  visited  the  diner . by  anyone  else’s  logic , this  was  risky  and  his  cover  would  probably  be  easily  blown  if  spotted  here .  if  that  thought  ever  crossed  xan’s  mind , they  never  let  it  stay  for  long  or  stop  them  from  their  small  visits  with  clark .  ❛  don’t  you  have  a  present  in  one  ?  ❜  xan  replied , having  walked  in  the  diner  just  in  time  to  catch  the  last  half  of  today’s  impromptu  performance  and  waiting  off  to  the  side . ❛  guess  you’re  just  a  natural ,  ❜  they  said , going  along  with  it . ❛  but  in  other  news  ..  you  got  a  cassette  player  ?  ❜

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SPOTIFY  /  PINTEREST  /  INTRO  /  CONNECTIONS

–––––    season’s  changing  ,  but  then  again  ,  so  am  i 

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SOCIAL   MEDIA    ...    leech   fragment

–––––   ft .  @insmniatic  &  @bysonly   ❜

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hellooo !  i'm  veronica / roni ( she/her ) , i'm  twenty  and  im  from  california  ( pst )  !  my  hobbies  are  making  dumb  earrings .. having  jam  sessions  w  myself .. pretending  i  know  how  to  skate  &  this week .. watching rick & morty  and  tiktoks . i’m  gonna  start  my  second  year  of  community  college  in  a  few  weeks  and  i’m  excited  but  also  scared  but  also  sad ?? idk  but .. enough  abt  me , here’s  xan  !

FULL NAME : nestor alexander pruitt  NICKNAMES : nes , alexander , xander , alex , xan  AGE : twenty two    GENDER : demiboy ( he/they )  ORIENTARION : pansexual  BAND + POSITION : leech fragment , bass & dirty vocals  OCCUPATION : echo record co & trio movie theatre employee  + TRAITS : affable .. observant .. buoyant .. responsible - TRAITS : airheaded .. disorganized .. taciturn  FACECLAIM : ryder mclaughin

the sound of a skateboard landing on the ground .. loud laughter in the middle of the night .. sneaking out of a window to meet friends .. eating cereal at three in the morning .. listening to music in your car at one in the morning .. holding on to objects tied to memories and a sad song played in the major key.

nestor alexander pruitt was born and raised in california , if you can call living there until you were twelve "raised"

nestor alexander pruitt goes by his middle name and shortens that still .. almost no one knows his real name now

he decided to go by xander and xan upon moving to dingle in middle school , a chance to reinvent himself completely

not that back home in santa cruz hed ever really gone by nestor , not since the third grade when , again , he'd taken moving to the upper part of the school ( 4th grade through 6th ) as an opportunity to reinvent himself

the name nestor was picked by his mother , who'd had an affinity for greek mythology and greek history and even made a career of working in museums as a curator and sometimes writing and translating stories and texts

alexander was chosen by his dad who'd had his old band member and best friend in mind , but xan's mom secretly loved how it was another historical name in many ways

the move to dingle was .. interesting

xan's parents had split .. a big fight he still doesn't understand .. his mom moving across the world for her career .. his dad moving xan and his little sister to his hometown -- dingle

like his father , xan loves music

and , like his father when he was young , started a band with his friends in dingle

xan's dad always likes to tell people about how they were famous in the 80s, when really , they had one or two slightly popular songs

but again , like his father , xan hopes to make it big some day except .. you know .. bigger

outside of music , xan loves to skateboard and loves to make art

skateboarding is something else he takes after his dad and his dad owned and operated a small skate shop back home 

( and if it's cool to say so , probably opened a new store in dingle .. otherwise .. he probably has a friend or brother who runs one a few towns over where he helps out sometimes )

draws on his instruments and on his decks for ~ customization ~

he also rly likes to film things like .. he'll film mv's for the band or even just them hanging out .. probably runs social media for the group

plays a ton of instruments and probably got stuck w whatever he does in the band bc they either no one else can play it or they flipped a coin or something

has pet reptiles .. idk what yet but yeah

works at echo & trio because theyre the three things he loves most .. music , movies & weed ... pretends working at both counts as an internship so he wont have to take more than one or two classes a semester

often spotted at breeze block at the arcade or snackbar

idk if i said it but .. paints his nails and has a pet lizard probably

(  also if it’s cool to say again .. i feel like xan’s dad would be friends w mister mark russo like they probably have jammed b4  )

WANTED CONNECTIONS ...

im so bad at these so here’s just a few ideas 

platonic

best friend !

friends???

smoking friends

skating friends

former / childhood friends ?

romantic

exes 

crushes .. former , one - sided , current , etc

flirtationship ?? a will they / won’t they ??? close friends who ppl think are dating ??? all of that???

familial

like a step-sibling but not like .. legally like their parents arent married ??

cousins???

family friends??

relative in a different band ??

etc

neighbours

co - workers

frequent customers

etc ^ 2

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Mid90s (2018) Directed by Jonah Hill

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