ogcrazylizard

[ogcrazylizard]

As a dumb ass once told "Fuck Liz, you got yourself in this situation get yourself out of it"

Brosif I did. I didn't surround myself in Idiocracy.

Hope your shit life burns down.

[ogcrazylizard]

I'm pretty sure that's the storyline in Final Fight. Hagard the man with the pipe. Fuck that man scared me when he got close. Pipe was enough but then he might grab again. He is also the Mayor. King of Fighters as well. Terry Bogard and fights in a tournament "King of Fighters."

Or just God of War. Ok I know he's referencing an ancient story. Just it's fucken Lua.

Broad terms on love about dad on faith. *Cough* *cough* check my last post on DJ and I reference God of War. Or my blog post called, "Enigmatic Cache." Where I reference the mother son relationship issues of God of war.

Why add useless information that adds nothing to your topic while at the same time bring up seemingly important things but not expand on what they are. You're just listing things you have accomplished.

Awesome you know the subject. Can you teach it? Anyone can sit in class or stand on a podium and practice speaking. I also did Public Speaking training in High School in my junior year as well as a public speaking class at San Jose State University.

Awesome that my teacher saw the band love that I named because they were not well known. Journey into the unknown and try out new things. Focused on music about how I started out with the Beatles and then when into Beau Navire. At first I didn't like it. An acquired taste for sure because the genre is called screamo.

Hey I dare you to get high on coke or meth. Then put on a screamo song and hear how you're being a bitch ass pussy of a friend, DJ.

Which song to recommend?

Elle S/t

https://conditionsrecords.bandcamp.com/album/s-t?search_item_id=1331243410&search_item_type=a&search_match_part=%3F&search_page_id=3686728794&search_page_no=0&search_rank=11&logged_out_mobile_menubar=true

[ogcrazylizard]

Reminder of what he claims to be but isn't at all. BDSM? "Not for me." That's a lie.

Various moments and examples. Most than likely wanted something from me when I wanted to kill myself and said what he said because he still needed me alive and purely just for that.

Harsh? Yeah. Making this up? I wish I was. The end of the world. In emergency room. Sitting on a chair in the hallway. The push to get me paranoid. Then a constant yelling of "Just kill yourself." Repeatedly told in my head by DJ. As did actually try and find a way to kill myself. There's nothing around. Then I saw the elevator. I could just jump off. Get caught by a nurse. Take the needle out of my arm and walk out of the emergency room. Get home still it hasn't ended. Like I said my mom and dad cold shoulder. I intentionally grab a bottle of pills in front of them and go to the bathroom.

The yelling between the two fucktards. Award to the biggest idiot in history of man goes to Donald Moncur. Felipe has on the spectrum excuse. What's yours?

Shitty connections.

Privileges. Do not worry. Like Pennywise the clown said I sing you the bro hym, bro.

Clowns to much. I don't. Gets way too obsessed. You thought I was being obsessive. Check out DJ. You might miss him since he's on the shorter side.

Narc, narc or narc. Yes

Loyalty to what to who? Only himself.

I am more white supremacist/Nazi than white Donald DJ. Does it upset you a Mexican saw all this and you didn't. Wasted money on useless tech. Useless advice on hired advisors. I really did want to tell you all this but we never got a chance to be alone. When we were I had already gone through years of working for months. So I would forget.

Cop narc, narco, and a narcissist, or a flying monkey. Yes.

Narco stuff I have no idea. Didn't care to help you out there. I've come to accept shit happens.

I die. I die. Whatever. My whole story and my work is out there.

I'm a fucking War Boy X

I live. I die. I live again.

Do tweakers and gossipers ever stop gossiping?

From what I saw no. Fuck your lives are boring as fuck. No wonder you people are constantly in problems. Only talking about others. There a lot of solutions to your problems in a lot of stories out there.

Go and watch Godzilla Minus One. My movie of the year for 2023. Survivors guilt. Many of you need to stop this bullshit.

"You fucken coward. You were supposed to die. Because of you my children died."

Heavy shit. A change of heart in the Japanese younger generation. Not so much the older generation.

https://youtu.be/r7DqccP1Q_4?si=1-94cYpZ2SeM1IIq

You all failed as parents. No one else's fault. Not the drugs, not the dealer, not the friends, not their partner, not God, not society. You both as parents failed your child. You are leaders. It's always the leaders fault if anything goes wrong. Of course use your fucken head and know when to recognize and realize some things are out your and other people's control. Still not living your happiness starts breeding bad energy not just in you but also the feeling of resentment in your family. That attracts the universe to certain disasters since whatever is in that area is not adapting and changing.

"I rather get wounded by a friend than to get a kiss from the enemy"

https://youtu.be/ymZ0d5j-e3k?si=VJnY7Xb6anca-VUC

[Side note: Kratos powers derives of Dynosis Tragedy. Mimir and Freya here are both partially lying to Kratos. It was just an emotional outburst. To something else. Perhaps just reliving a nightmare.

Kratos did have a hand in his illness but also later in the game their connection grew stronger. When Freya shows up again they both go into a defensive stance.]

Oh yeah back to DJ.

What do you look for in a sexual partner? Can you do the same for the sexual partner.

No.

Most of my dating profile says

"chill guy here. Go with the flow. Enjoy watching and jerking off to porn." Usually a welcome surprise.

He wants someone laid back. He isn't laid. Constantly on guard. Comes and goes quick. Non pushy just means someone who he can easily manipulate.

"Open minded but comfortable with who they are sexually."

That's a bit redundant.

Sucks. That I fit all these things he looks for in a sexual partner.

Feels like he was not attracted to me. Feels super weird just sitting there. Hardly anyone ever talked to me.

Watching the time go by. Into hours. Seeing him on cam4 early on was fun. Then it just fed into my insecurities. Why does he never do any of that with me?

Then it was just me breaking down in the bathroom. Again from the start I knew he was on cam4, seen him many times with other people, knew he enjoyed fucking around. It never hurt back then.

I hate how I have these flashes of memories of what I would do if we were in a relationship. So I write. That's all i can do. Living this fantasy. Because you were my little dreamer.

The right moment was forever long ago. I say that I am gone.

This next part I had already written in my journal.

The End Pearl Jam

We never had dreams. We never made plans. We never promised to be more than friends. For we have come and gone. We, well I've changed as does everything. Whether we notice it or not. I still want to grow old. I have. I have lived well beyond my mortal years in dreams And fantasies. Always finding myself in that well of hopeless nights. Spotless/Shy Prince by Zack Bryan/Lumineers/Lizandro Corazon.

Turn on the TV (The American Dream )

Act like you don't see me (I believe in you)

Tell me everything is okay

(I believe in me I believe in us)

My mother is a saint (Mother always a sinner)

And told me if I wait (Telling me I ain't a saint)

Everything meant to be will stay

Well I'm a believer

Let me walk this road alone

Call me a sinner

Just means I'm a believer

Fuck her prayers only filled me with aggression

I pray this lonely road stays

I aint spotless neither is you

For once in my life

I'm gonna see it through

If you want spotless ill always win

I want love lover I want the lie

All this time and all these lives just for him?!

Praying our Angels would come every hopeless night

Your heart knows deeper seasons than my eyes will ever know

I'm a self destructive land slide if you want to be the hill

(Just remember where i stood)

I aint spotless neither is you

For once In my life I'm gonna see it through

If you want to stay that's fine by me

Everything meant to be is bound to stay

Remember jumping in the pool when we was fully clothed in august

We were soaking choking smoking in my old shitty apartment

Well I'm a believer

Let me walk this road alone

Call me a sinner

Just means I'm a believer

I aint spotless neither is you

For once In my life

I'm going to see it through

If you want spotless, I'll always win

You gave me your love lover you gave me the lie

I was alone you were betting on a winner

I was calling your white lie

You held everyone to their word never to your own words

I can't stop this neither can you

For once in my life I'm down to see it through

If you want spotless I'll always win

You gave me your love lover you gave me the lie

Maybe there is no mistakes.