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Hello, my loves! I wanna thank you all so much for your patience and support in letting me heal and spend a bit more time in reality this past (KINDA A YEAR) looooong while, and in that, I have amazing news to share with all of you. I went to the doctor's yesterday and when they weighed me, I wanted to cry. I wanted to cry because the scale said 169. I'm officially at 61 pounds lost and I've been maintaining the 170s for a few months now, so to finally see any kind of 160 is the best because I haven't seen them in over three years. I look in the mirror and I see my old overly confident and narcissistic self again. I finally feel like me again, just a little thicccccccccccccccccccccc-er. When I was skinny, I thought that was the body I was meant to be in. But, now I think THIS is the body for me. I like having and overly exaggerated hourglass figure, while I do wish I could get my chest down a cup-size or so and lifted for health reasons as the bras I HAVE to wear really affect my fibro myalgia, not to mention the back pain of lugging these things around, in appearance...I couldn't be happier. When my body changed for the worse, I wanted to hide. I used to ALWAYS wear the tightest clothing to show off my body (and if ur an og u remember that), but the moment I realized how I looked, I wanted to do nothing but hide it all. And now? I'm in crop tops and tight dresses that feel so right and so good. This is the me I missed. Instead of being the assertive person I had always been, when I went into hiding my body, I also hid my personality and let others lead me because I had no confidence to do anything, especially by myself. But, at long last, I don't mind attention. I don't mind talking with people, or speaking up, or acting like myself. I'm finally back to being who I've been always been. If I could stop losing weight right this moment, I'd be happy with that. This is the body I'm meant to have, and accepting that was the last big leap I needed to finally love myself again.

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Y'all, I'm so sorry it's been a while, but I'm here to tell y'all the best news: Erin's coming over to stay for a couple of days like ACTUALLY STAYING SOME NIGHTS??? I haven't seen her in person for a little over a year and since I lost those 50 pounds and this is the first time we're going to hang in an at home setting since our breakup two and a half years ago. Our communication for the past SEVERAL months has been really easy with a conversation flow and I'm so stoked to show Erin makeup things, y'all know she's an artist and tbh makeup is an art form and she's very intrigued by it and I think the best part of her coming over...is the fact I initiated it. I asked if she'd like to come over and finally get back to a comfortable space to reconnect, even if it's just friendship, I'm noticing our conversation is going back to how easy it used to be and it's such a big step to ask her this, I've been so scared of crossing the line and I'm not anymore. I don't know if it's the weight loss, the makeup, or the new bangs but...whatever it is I feel confident enough in my words to help take steps to repairing our relationship, whether that be as friends or a romantic one, it doesn't matter because I just want her back in my life. She's been there with me through everything and I'm not going to lose any chance with her just because I'm too scared to ask. And ya know what? For the first time since I turned 20 (and I'll be 24 next month), I feel like a grown adult. I kinda like it.

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hows your dad?

He's all good now! I'm so sorry I never got back to you guys, I was exhausted at the time and wound up just forgetting I made that post. He had a BAAAAAAD ear infection and if you know anything about how the ear works, you'll know how. The infection was deep in his inner ear where all of the inner ear fluid is which contributes a lot to balance, like when you're laying down and get up and out of bed really fast and you have to pause because you get really dizzy. Because of the infection, things were swollen and the fluid didn't have much room to move and the nerves and "sensors" in there were being worked overtime with the limited space. Not only that, but he had a sinus infection, too, which can make you light headed AF anyway. He took his anti-biotics (they put him on some really strong shit) and he's back to being a sass-back turd, so he's basically as good as new!

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OOP I realized how dang old your post was buT if you want haute cash for rn until May 5th then I'll hook you up lol

Sounds fantastic! Hit me up inth Tumblr chat style messages, it's way better for contacting 😊

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to the anon that messaged me on haute cash, thank you so much! 😊 We're going to the city this weekend and ya girl has no bras that fit her and because I'm on a disability check, I don't have a lot to get bras that I literally need, my recent ones are too big and come undone and the one from before is too small cup wise, so this means so so much to me! If you wanna come off anon so I can message you privately it would be easier on both of us to communicate! 💞

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Hey, guys, I just wanted to say sorry for not being here, I've been under a lot of stress lately and actually I'm having a horrible morning, I haven't gotten ANY sleep and probably won't until I hear back from Mom because my Dad was feeling very weak and dizzy and his blood sugar was high (he has diabetes) as well as his blood pressure and my Dad's one of those old guys that brushes off every sign of an illness like he'd be sick with the plague and saying it'll pass in a couple days, so I'm having a very big anxiety attack because he suggested that he needed to go to the ER so I know something has to be wrong and I'm just really fucking terrified

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also I can't believe I was able to actually get my hands on Blue Blood on Beautylish!! Due to the order size I was able to get free expedited shipping and it should be here THIS TUESDAY ON APRIL 2ND I CAN'T WAIT!! 😍

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I'm so happy to tell you guys my bank fixed everything yesterday. They reimbursed me for my stolen money (thank God for my account insurance). I don't know if they'll persue a full investigation (to find the person) or if it'll just be investigated to see how it happened and what was breached because the card that was compromised has never been used online EVER and it's NEVER put anywhere online as a payment method. It is strictly used for in person purchases, so either the bank was hacked, a local store was hacked OR Visa itself was hacked because where online is concerned, it doesn't exist. All I know is my money's back and we've taken the proper measurements to fix any and all possible compromisations and methods to prevent it again. I can finally breathe

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i really hope erin is available to talk today because i'm a fucking wreck lmao

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i love that i can trust that my bank will see a charge from my account in fucking brooklyn new york and not send it through lmao that's a lie my biggest hope was that "hey they're still pending the money's still there" and i check this morning they sent through the three big even charges and i swear to god if they take out this last one, i will literally be IN THE RED. on my account i have protection where it SHOULDN'T let through charges that put me in the hole, but it makes me wonder: this piece of shit person got visa gift cards in person at a target and left. now that the fourth one they got may literally not be paid for if it gets halted, what happens. the final amount has been put on this card and if that bounces because "hey these were pending and the last amount on this last card has gone from pending to cancelled". does that card just not work like wtf happens because i'll be damned if target comes for my ass

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someone from brooklyn, new york stole my card number and drained every last penny in my bank account and i want to fucking die, i'm disabled, can't work, barely have any money each month on the regular because of bills and groceries for my family and i'm one of the only reasons my family can eat at the end of the month and it's literally all gone. someone did four charges, three that were all even and the final one was to get the very last pennies left. i have nothing. i do have insurance on my account and so no matter what i will hopefully have money back in my account by friday, but mentally it's not enough and i really hope the bank chooses to start an investigation because the particular card that was used is never used online EVER, so there's no way for that particular number to be involved in a typical company data breach unless that breach was at the bank. i just want that piece of shit locked up. you stole money from someone that's disabled and helps support her family the best she can. i hope whatever visa gift cards you used that money on (due to the actual business location where it was used and the nature/size of the charges, it can only be gift cards) bring you some sort of mild happiness to fill your giant void of a soul

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umm ya girl just found out in March 2018 she weighed 229 and is now at a solid 180 I literally lost 50 pounds omg

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Torrid Haute Cash

Yoooo if anyone has haute cash they ain't usin' can you hit me up within the next 2 hours or so? It's 11:30 pm EST right now and their 30% sale ends at 3 am EST, ya girl's just trying to save some money 🤗 Thank you to anyone that can help! 💞

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Remember!! While I try my best to, I don’t always get my makeup/outfit things up here and I tend to linger on Insta a lot lately, mostly adding to stories throughout the day, so if you wanna interact or see me more be sure to follow me there and PLEASE be sure to send me a DM on there letting me know who ya are/your Tumblr username and if you’re from here so I can add you to my ‘Close Friends’ List!!

And yes I do know that when you post to Insta you can do a direct link share to Tumblr but tbh that post format is the most hideous thing on this planet and frustrates me to no end and I really don’t need that type of negativity in my life ✌️

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ok so i screenshotted this moment because i thought it was pretty cool

the first time we get to see all four elements working together for a common enemy, blah blah blah, but i started laughing because

sokka’s fucking boomerang. sokka threw a fucking boomerang at princess azula, renowned lightning bender and heir-apparent to the throne of the fire nation.

and sokka threw a boomerang at her.

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came up with a new pointless kink identity. it’s called friend dom. it’s when you have to come up with every activity for hangout sessions cuz your friend is too indecisive or laid back and never decides on what they wanna do

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