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i want to completely disconnect from everything that brings me suffering and weasel into my own unintelligible crevice. i want every trace of me to be spectral. i wish that the wind would carry my memories and i could forget everything seamlessly. i often have this fantasy of restoring myself by blocking my memory and deluding myself that various events in my life haven’t happened to me. the girl is not me and i am just a voyeur to the pitiful masochism and farces of resilience that propel her life. i want to know nothing besides silence as the purest negative speech act.

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alejandra pizarnik with an unidentified woman in paris circa 1960.

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Alejandra Pizarnik in her Buenos Aires apartment on Calle Montevideo photographed by Daniela Haman.

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ambivalent about whether organisms or the self regulating set of terrestrially rooted networks that comprise lovelock’s gaia system possess the inherent almost vitalist moral value that deep ecologists might cling onto with a mystical fervor, but i know that our activity in that supernetwork should entail an affinity for the basic right of such organisms to survive and ideally thrive within a meaningful timeframe

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as if the ousting of ninety CEOs or people in adjacent positions of power is enough to effectively resolve climate change linked to and exacerbated by global capitalism. as if everybody who isn’t capable of upholding an optimal carbon footprint (which is admittedly not a substantially informative metric) and depends on ecologically destructive processes for daily livelihood and convenience isn’t implicated. the stifling of the principal bourgeois is not an apt starting point for tackling adjustment or amelioration efforts: networks of exchanged capital bellowed through relatively finite resource expenditure are far too self sustaining through collective reliance to be swiftly dissolved through localized revolution. that doesn't mean that any one person should be blamed for anthropogenic climate change, though i understand how the case specific actions of specific people in positions of power can deregulate the biospheric scale and considerably intensify regionally cloistered conditions, which surely feed back into the global self regulating system. the entire "people are killing the planet" rhetoric is irresponsible because it regards the earth as if its sustenance as an astronomical body in the most abstract sense is comprehensively dependent on present human actions regarding resource expenditure or shallow structural modification, which always already provoke variably myopic historical decisions that have impacted the earth’s current faculty for geometabolism. unless we pulverize the planet either from an external position or a terrestrial pivot, destroying the biotic networks that occupy the earth and the longevity of all organisms therein, it's not facing any threat in itself, however it is the stage for the threat that is chiefly meaningful to terminal organisms such as ourselves. the earth, unless we insist on synecdochically equating it with the supernetwork of biota, is not "being killed,” and even if we follow that synecdoche, the gradual decay of extant ecosystems is not chronally leveled at an identical starting point or occurring at the same rate, and biotic syntheses will triumph in some manner unless the planet is pulverized