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sick ramble

hello, im sick, and i feel like im going insane. im currently watching sex and the city while trying to ward off a fever and ignoring the fact that i'm supposed to be at work in 7 hours. definitely gonna call out LOLZ!!! lately ive been feeling very thirsty for male attention. i'm not sure why because i have legitimate crushes on a few girls. i think i keep going for men who are bad for me bc i know theyll give me instant gratification. today i took a big swig of dayquil and about 10 minutes later i realized i took way too much. i had to turn around mid-drive and go home and pass out on the couch. i woke up and it was already dark outside and i had missed any potential plans to hang out. i felt really upset and was forced to confront the fact that i can't stand being alone with myself. or maybe i just can't stand being at home. every day i wake up, eat, and immediately leave the house and don't come home until about 1am. it feels like im constantly running from something, maybe just being alone with my thoughts?

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breakup toolkit

hi klonni bib, its kylie

a little over three months ago i went thru.... A BREAKUP

its been really shitty, not as much anymore but some days are still hard

i really did love him and still do but i eventually realized i needed to move on, not necessarily onto someone else but just something else. this post is kinda more for myself but i present to you the BREAKUP TOOLKIT for anyone who needs it

let yourself cry, but don't reach out to them when you're in "emotion mind" as my therapist calls it, even tho when you let yourself cry and be sad youll probably want to text them

stop thinking about how to win them back or what you could have done for a different end result. its over for now and if youre meant to be together itll happen evenutally. focus on urself for now

take selfies, nothing compares to the sexy post-cry puffy eyes swollen lips selfie, plus u can look back at them later and laugh at how sad you were and appreciate that youre less sad now

avoid sad music for the first few weeks or maybe months. you have enough valid reasons to be sad dont make it worse

do listen to misandrist music (Fiona Apple's When the Pawn has helped me a lot, recommended to me by sophia)

dive back into a hobby you used to fill your time with when you were single

read a book or two (i'm ready everything i know about love, also recommended to me by sophia, and omg it helps so much)

hang out with your friends and celebrate that youll never have to decide between a party with your bf and his friends or watching a movie with the girls (ur bf's friends will never be as nice as your actual friends anyway)

give them their stuff back, stop holding onto that one CD he lent you so you have a reason to see him and return the CD because lord knows youre gonna leave feeling even more disappointed and it's just gonna reopen the wound

avoid places you guys used to hang out especially when he decides to still hang out there everyday

dont go on dating apps for the first few months, no one on hinge is going to be similar enough to your ex to help you get over them and it'll probably just make u want your ex even more

journal, but only when you feel like it. going thru a breakup is a grieving process and sometimes those feelings cant really be expressed in words and thats okay

find a new cafe that youre less likely to see your ex at

get a good vibrator if u dont already have

instead of trying to find someone to replace your ex, look for attractive people the opposite sex of your ex

get the haircut youve been thinking about

document every time you look sexy

remember your previous breakups (if applicable) and remind yourself of how you were able to get over it, and you will be able to get over this one as well

take it day by day

most importantly confide in your friends or whatevrr support system you have it helps 1000000%

this is all i can think of for now but i hope it helps anyone who might stumble across it :)

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hey blog its me kylie :) its been a while. i wanted to give a life update and post all the cute photos my lovely friends and i have taken. tumblr is being stupid and won't let me upload all my shit so for now i'll post about a particularly chill yet eventful night

me pointing to my new TOOTH GEM that mallory gave me!

later in the night, i misgendered mallory's cat as a joke and SHE got her payback...

me after mallory fixed me up. great work!

see you soon

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coquette-ifying your living space pt. 2 ౨ৎ

on this episode of DIYing my apartment, i'm doing my bedside table

look how boring and bland it looks right now :/// can't stand to look at her ugly face any longer

first, i finished off the pink spray paint from my last project (it really didn't cover much but just ignore how patchy it is). and i did a shitty paint job on the top with acrylic paint because it's going to be mostly covered anyways

i painted the handles with this gold paint that i use allll the time

and then i did my fav thing ever,, added lace to it. i just got a lot of lace from the bins, so i can be as obnoxious with it as i want ;P

ta da!!

here's how she looks in my room now :D

mallory 🎀

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prescription medication ranking list

as a bipolar baddie, ive learned that the only thing that can save me is prescription medication.

Anti Psychotics/ Mood Stabilizer

aripiprazole (Abilify): made me feel nothing. took this for a month and genuinely cant tell u if it made a difference. 2/10

latuda: omg when i say this will put u to SLEEP. my psychiatrist gave this to me and said " u cant be manic if ur asleep" and he MEANT it. if you havent tried it I recommend it 10/10 only reason im normal

lamictal: i have been prescribed this for over a year and maybe have take it four times. its a good backup when im extra crazy but i still prefer latuda

Benzos/Anti anxiety

Propranolol: DO NOT TAKE THIS IF U HAVE SERIOUS ANXIETY. I was on the verge of s*icide and this didnt do SHIT 4/10 i would recommend this for somebody who has anxiety AND heart issues

Busbar: this shit makes u feel like ur drunk. dont take this and drive. but even tho it makes u feel weird i didnt notice much of a difference. 5/10 better for long term issues

klonopin: sister <3 i remember i had a deep panic attack going on for five days straight and my psychiatrist said... "girl try this" and it works omg. however, itll make you stupid for a full 24 hours like i dont remember whole conversations when i take this shit. 8/10

xanax: i prefer klonopin, xan is too short to help with my panic attacks. xanax i feel only makes sense when youre over the age of 29 like why tf r u abusing this 5/10

Anti depressants/ stimulants

Zoloft: i took this for like two weeks and it didnt do shit. i truly believe this is only helpful if youre not bipolar 1/10

Wellbutrin: ok DO NOT take this alone if youre bipolar. said panic attack that lasted four days was because i was on this without my latuda. however, at higher doses i really enjoyed this one as it helped with my adhd a lot. 6/10

Adderal: my sister i stopped taking wellbutrin because adderal helped a lot more. i use it as an antidepressant. stop putting shortages on my elixir of life!!! 8/10 the crashes suck

Vvyvanse: if only my insurance would cover it... everything said about adderal excluding bad come downs. 9/10

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coquette-ifying your living space ౨ৎ

i love making everything in my apartment pink, and my recent conquest was my ugly trash can

look how ugly and soul sucking this waste-of-a-space trashcan looked before. boooooooooo

then i got a hold of some spray paint and acrylic (including gold glitter paint)

and now she looks like this. i'll still probably add more later but what an improvement ︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵

mallory 🎀

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✰ My Summer Drank ✰

Heiiii All…

It’s Pulari ❀ and I am going to share a drink that I have been obsessed w/ this summer ☼

It’s called സംഭാരം (sambharam, pronounced sum-bhaa-rum)!!

It’s a buttermilk drink that’s popular in Kerala, the state in India where my family’s from.

Some background first:

Soooo my mom made me go to the dermatologist and I was prescribed some medicines to take … One is a pill antibiotic that can be hard on your body so it’s recommended to take probiotics with it…

I mentioned it to my mom and she made sambharam for me… needless to say I was hooked as fuque 💕🤗

It basically has a lot of probiotics and is a healthy beverage in general … Also it’s savory n I feel like most drinks are sweet. Yk?

Ingredients:

This drink is supessss easy to make!! There’s only 4 ingredients, n takes about 5 min

Yogurt: source of probiotics! Not all brands of yogurt have live cultures so make sure you buy one that does. The yogurt I used is my fave one ever 🤗🤗

Fresh Ginger

Chopped Green Chilli: I used a full one but if you don’t like spice you can use either half of one or a third of one

2-3 pinches Black Salt

How To:

Okay soooo….

Take about a penny’s size of ginger root, peel it, and grate it into your glass. Chop up your green chilli into small, thin slices, and add that to your glass as well. Lastly, take your pinch or two of black salt and add that to your glass as well!!

Now, take 3-4 tablespoons of yogurt (I used 4 because I like my sambharam to be creamy), and add about 2/3 cup of water to it in a separate cup

You can also add more water depending on if you are not as much of a fan of the yogurty taste… 👅

Pour your yogurt and water mixture into the cup with the spices:

Mix, then Add one more pinch of black salt to your finished drink

And Voila 😍 Ur sambharam is ready and your stool is firm, and your gut is thanking you 🥰🥰

I’m fuckin obsessed with this drink rn. I give it like a solid 8/10… I read that some people add curry leaves and minced onion to sambharam as well… which would defo elevate it …

Anyways peace!! Thanks 4 reading 💕💕🤗💕

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a movie that changed my life

i believe in unicorns (2014)

i recently rewatched this criminally underrated movie, and it was just as beautiful the second time through. i'm surprised more people haven't seen it because natalia dyer is in it and it's free on tubi but alas

if you enjoy movies made by girls for girls, watch this. if you hate girls, you'll probably think it's a waste of your time, and frankly i don't wanna hear it.

everything in this movies evokes a childhood nostalgia laced with glitter and magic and unicorns (duh!!) but with a creeping feeling of unease due to a MAN (whom i hate btw!!!) and a strained mother-daughter relationship </3

filmed solely on super 8 and super 16 film, it is a fantasy world through the lens of a young girl's imagination during her coming of age tale. there are dream-like stop-motion scenes and double exposures that combine her idyllic thoughts with painful reality in a way that girlhood-experiencers will probably relate to :p

many people say it's nothing more than a pretty movie, and while it is great to watch simply for room decor and outfit inspo, i think there's much more to it than that. but also why is a pretty movie a bad thing -_- ... maybe i just don't get it because i'm not a film bro who enjoys movies like drive or the usual suspects sorryyyy

one of my favorite movies. although i do wish that the girl best friend and her ended up together.... whatevssss

give it a watch, listen to this playlist i found inspired by it, and maybe base your personality on it for a week! ⋆˙⟡♡

mwah :*

mallory 🎀

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dream blunt rotation

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hi blog...

its me kylie :P

the past week has been full of intense self discovery, and that is because MY BOYFRIEND IS OUT OF TOWN.

i know what youre thinking.

kylie, how have you survived that long without your boyfriend?

the truth is, i underwent some major changes in order to survive the last nine days i've gone without seeing him.

i am living at his house while he's gone. yes i'm here to take care of the dogs/house but i am also here to combat the impending doom/feeling he's going to forget about me while he's gone. sensing a fear of abandonment? then i just go lay in his bed and remind myself he's not going to randomly start hating me while on vacation!

i started reading again. i've been reading Mosfegh's "My Year of Rest and Relaxation" after months of putting it off. i know i'm late to the trend but i haven't read a book in years and i have to catch up somehow.

picking up housewife duties. i've been tending to the garden (aka watering the plants once a day) which has given me a great sense of duty. i've also been washing my dishes, which i also do at home but for some reason doing it at someone else's house makes me feel domestic

became a chicken whisperer

restarted animal crossing on my switch after dreading it for weeks. having to restart your island is so annoying!

buying starbucks matcha every day. normally i don't do this bc starbucks matcha tastes like fish. for some reason i havent been able to stop buying it ever since my bf left and i refuse to start my day until i've driven to the nearby starbucks and spent $7 on my shitty starbucks strawberry matcha latte

starting this blog lolz!

finally bought myself a new journal. i've only written in it once and i spent the majority of my journal time decorating it with lace and diamond stickers

got back into painting but every painting i do pisses me off and i put them into a discard pile

discovered maybe i dont like painting as much as i thought.

in all seriousness, being in a secure relationship where ur not getting cheated on is swag and i never thought i would be able to go this long away from my s/o without have a mental breakdown but its been surprisingly easy! still miss him tho obvi 🎀

anyways ill be back soon baiiii

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hi my name is mallory 🎀

i'm a taurus sun, leo moon, libra rising

i like chief keef, girls, and hot gluing bows to everything ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

please enjoy everything i post ⊹˚. ♡

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Heiiii 🛸🛸 I’m Pulari 🐖

I’m a scorpio sun , libra moon , n scorpio rising 🎠

I luv hanging out , food , being tricksy , and playing with my dog along with many other things 🧁🧁

Can’t wait to share my thoughts and stuff w u all 🪸

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hey it’s rae lols 🍤

i’m a virgo sun, pisces moon, gemini rising 🙊

i love guessing characters astrology charts and violently hating on men. i have many opinions and you will listen

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intro post haiii :P

helloooo! i'm Kylie

my big three is virgo sun, cancer moon (emotional ik) and sag rising and im an enfp

my fav things are girl nights, matcha, my bf, spending money quickly and my PUPPY!!!

i think im gonna treat this blog as a public diary so it should be fun lolz

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hello benzos

welcome to klonni bib⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

we are kylie🐬, mallory 🎀, pu1ari 🐖, and rae 🍤 and we're here to rock your world ;)

we're here to teach you some Lifehacks and talk shit! <3