oopsimarriedalesbian

[oopsimarriedalesbian]

I made an onlyfans account for transition-related information for FTMs. I am @ftmtipsandpics . I will be sharing some photos of my transition and focusing on the more intimate/NSFW sides of transition. My first post is about pumping. Until I start a following and get my name out there, I'm not going to charge for a subscription. So if you are interested in the effects of testosterone or you need some tips on handling the changes make sure you follow me!! #ftm #trans #transman #testosterone #bottomgrowth #transition #ftmtips

[oopsimarriedalesbian]

just thought about sitting peacefully on a nice sofa with my boyfriend under a warm blanket on a rainy fall evening in our future house,,,, whew I'm yearning again

[oopsimarriedalesbian]

Just feeling powerless. I don't want to be trans. I'm killing my lungs with binding and every time I try tape or to take a day off I feel so vulnerable that I cannot focus on anything. I can barely function in the grocery store. I get so irritated and upset and it's the stupidest thing. And the only thing that'll make it better is surgery and its looking like I will never get the time off and I will never be able to afford it.

#trans #ftm #binding

[oopsimarriedalesbian]

Being on testosterone has been life saving for me. For the first time in my life I want to have a future. I want to learn skills and I want to do things. Before T I had the hardest time growing up and seeing past my own problems. I want to grow now and help other people. I think part of the problem I had was I saw myself as a boy and I never looked any older, never matured physically. The more I see myself as a man the easier it is to focus on the man I want to be.

[oopsimarriedalesbian]

The internet is such a weird thing because you can surround yourself with people who think a lot like yourself and agree with you on things and its like you're in this little bubble.

But the world isn't like that so its actually creating a false sense of security in your beliefs that people in the real world would very much like to shit on.

[oopsimarriedalesbian]

Its almost worse to be misgendered once on T. At least before I could understand but now its like fuck what else can I do? I'm shooting a needle in my thigh every week for nothing? The changes I see are actually not enough to be read as male? Like screw that. When I look in the mirror now I see a man. I'm good with that, that feels right. But still being called ma'am and she are just shocking now. I can't understand it and it sucks. Its enough to make me not want to fucking go anywhere or see anyone.

[oopsimarriedalesbian]

I used all my PTO in all this pandemic shit and now I gotta start all over for top surgery

I never even got actual weeks off or chose my hours. I was bailing out other stores, just only half my usual hours, but basically at their disposal at the drop of a hat. It would have been so much better for me to get furloughed from the start, I still would've gotten more money from unemployment. And now I'm broke with no PTO and will never have a vacation or surgery. And I know it could've been worse and at least I have a job and shit and not a burden on the state. But it does suck a little.

[oopsimarriedalesbian]

Misgendered by a 6 yr old but she corrected pronouns just fine for my cat.

5 months on T and I have nothing.

[oopsimarriedalesbian]

If gc2b or another brand could make this happen for real they should just go ahead and take all my money right now.

I love ur art and especially peter!!! my smol boi !!!! I was wondering for the request thing if you could do ((if you were comfortable)) like him flexing with his binder on ((a spider-man binder would be adorable)) don’t stop being amazing!!

thank you, friend!!!! here is the best MAN!

[oopsimarriedalesbian]

Misgendering fr when you're a baby trans like me.... when a stranger calls me she it literally feels like my clothes turn into a fluffy pink dress. That is 100% how my dysphoria feels. Not even joking, this is described perfectly. Like it takes weeks to build up the confidence to where you think you actually pass and feel comfortable and then its knocked out from under you with one person misgendering you. And you can't be mad at the person cause they're just a stranger not trying to hurt you. But at the same time it means you don't pass and now you have to wear the cone of shame where you're back at square one. But you also have the subtle signs of your correct gender like a little stubble or your face has changed on T and it almost feels violating or just plain surprising that someone still misgenders you. It's a hopeless feeling.

“Misgendered” by Steven Thomas

[oopsimarriedalesbian]

Anyone else realize how tumblr mixes up gender transition with like body transition for people trying to lose weight (or flat out ED Tumblr). Like no hate, but we are not the same and I'm not here for ribs and thigh gaps bro.

#trans #transition

[oopsimarriedalesbian]

I changed my name first, then started T months later, then more months later came out at work. But they already knew me as how I looked and got used to female pronouns and now I keep thinking that I fucked myself over for a clean transition because everyone is going to see me as a butch lesbian until I'm like 4 yrs on T.

#trans #ftm #transman

[oopsimarriedalesbian]

The only part of male puberty I'm not a fan of is the ass hair. Where the fuck did that come from?

#ftm #transman #trans

[oopsimarriedalesbian]

4 months on T and acne is getting worse but I also am finally starting to get tougher hair coming in above my lip so I keep touching my face and making my problems worse. 🙃👍

[oopsimarriedalesbian]

Intro post

I'm new to the ftm tumblr community, but I wanted to start a blog of the things I need to get off my chest that I can't really talk about on my regular social media accounts. I'm 4 months on T and hoping for top surgery in the next year or two. I'm married to a woman who still identifies as a lesbian (its complicated but she does accept me as her husband). I'm up for making friends and chatting so hmu if you see this.

#ftm #trans #transman