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i'm just not allowed to be happy i guess

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i got broken up with and ive cried at least once every day since it happened ugh.i feel really alone

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my best friend is moving to arizona tomorrow and im feeling so lonely already..like everybody is leaving/has left already and i dont have a group i'll be seeing constantly anymore other than my roommate so rn im just.really fucking sad and alone

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i hate having an ed i hate it i hate it i hate it i m so hungry my stomach hurts so bad but the thought of food is making me feel sick i feel lightheaded and weak

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went home for a bit to grab my mail and pills n my sister said our dog isnt doing too well...i started crying while i was petting her. shes having trouble walking and isnt eating much anymore..every time i visit i spend a bunch of time with her bc i know it might be my last chance

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ive been catcalled/followed/yelled at by men more times in the past month than i have all year i hate it so much...today one yelled at me from his car to "put some fucking clothes on" and i got really scared so when i got back to my apartment i changed into something else bc i didnt want it to happen again i was so upset i hate men..

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@mimi and em i love u guys ❤️ ;_____;

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Depression™ sucks and im off my meds but at least i have my friends and gf........

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Bad times rn i feel gross and i came up to bellingham for my best friend's birthday and to see my friends + cat but my mom just got out of the hospital and she's supposed to be moving soon ans i might be going with her so everything feels like it's happening too much and im stressed.....i want to enjoy myself but i feel like i have to be worried about my mom and when i'm coming back to help her . i havent been sleeping right lately and its amplifying all my emotions

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still true

im perpetually stressed out the only thing keepign me going is jjba LMAO

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theres also a good chance i didnt do anything wrong but im just paranoid but who knows

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u know when u feel like you messed up but you dont know exactly what you did and youre scared to ask

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sometimes i end up in a rlly bad mood and i snap at people or act mean n tonight is one of those nights....i feel really bad

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It’s weird to think that there’s people who are constantly, at-all-times, 100% comforted by/trusting of their parents,, like Who are you? Why aren’t you scared they’ll hurt you?

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@mimi yea they're too hyper for me gdfggjgki

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this is rlly mean and i feel bad for saying it but my best friend is rlly annoying when they're drunk.aka right now

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oh my god!!!!!i havd a REALLY big crush on a girl and we both like the same things and like ?? holy shit shes so cute and funny i wanna ask her out but she lives far away and idk if she likes me back What the fuck do i do