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i reread the underfell brothers fun facts and i totally forgot half of what i read somehow (i really gotta stop reading lore at 3 am expecting to remember it) anyway!

heres some facts i found interesting cause uh, why not! (underfell sans first)

HE DOESN'T CANONICALLY GET FLUSTERED *falls to my knees* NOOOOOOOO

anyways- i love the "very tired" thing... poor guy. hes a very tired emotionally constipated little guy

well that explains why hes sweating all the time...

can't tell if this is more funny, or sad.

he's likes multiple condiments like classic sans, interesting

also the last one is just funny (drawing idea !!)

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Immediately saw a ut version so I just had too

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I LOVE IT WHEN MONSTERS ARE SHOWN TO HAVE A UNIQUE CULTURE SEPARATE FROM HUMANS!!!! I LOVE IT WHEN MONSTERS HAVE THEIR OWN FIGURES OF SPEECH AND TRADITIONS AND HOLIDAYS AND SOCIETAL STANDARDS AND WAYS OF THINKING AND FUNCTIONS OF THEIR SOCIETY!!!!! I LOVE IT WHEN MONSTERS ARE CLEARLY SO MUCH DIFFERENT FROM HUMANS IN WAYS OTHER THAN LOOKS!!!!! I LOVE IT SO MUCH GRGRGFHR

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these are my mutuals. they know who they are

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Was going to make Wine grabs Y/N by the throat but i guess he can be gentle(for now)

🍷 x Y/N

(Mouth to mouth feels gross cuz I’m so aromantic, so we got to lick him. Better?)

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(You can interpret it as Wine & Anonymous, or Wine x Y/N.)

I hate him. I wanna kiss him so bad.

Based on this art from the creator of Fellswap-Gold

He not even using Gaster Blaster on you

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Reader getting attached to Sans despite their best attempts. Wanting to give Sans the ability to be his own person as best they can because they don't want to control or hold power over him. Desperately trying to remove all of their influence from his existence and ready to alter and change anything he wants even on the smallest whim. Vs. Sans' need to feel that his existence is important and that he is wanted. Clinging to everything that was given to him because no matter how big or small, no matter the reason. Never wanting to change a thing about himself because they gave him this voice because they liked the sound and body because they thought it was silly and cute. I hope that if any parts of him lose luster that they'll poor as much care into him again to make him shiny and new all over again

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So Sans has the whole thing in the Judgment Hall where if you save and load there repeatedly, he'll do the passwords and key to his room to prank you.

What if Fell Sans still did that, but depending on how high your LV is, instead of giving you the key to his room, he sends you somewhere else with a trap that kills you. If you reload and entire the room, you doge the first thing that killed you only for yet another thing to kill you instead. Load in, and it happens a third time. It’s only on the fourth load that you manage to avoid everything and read a note left in the room. Instead of a note saying, "The truth is you got owned, nerd," like in the original on the tread mill, it's some commentary on how you're an awful person for having the ability to read it yet still having to hurt so many people.

It'd just be so interesting for him. He lives in a kill or be killed world, and unless you've inspired him with hope in a pacifist run, he believes this is the only way things can be. But even then, he has his limits of looking past it. At a certain point, you're going out of your way to hurt people for pleasure just because. Plus, if you have the ability to go through time, always seem to know what to do what to expect, then you very much have the ability to be better. You doubly are being sick and twisted for the kicks.

And clearly, he can't actually keep you down if anything he's piecing together works the way he thinks it does. He doesn’t think it’ll actually stop you or anything, it's just...

When you enter the judgemental hall for what's supposed to be the first time you've ever been there, you have a look on you face that makes it clear he fucking got you. It's frankly hilarious to him, and what's the harm is showing someone as cruel as that a little karma?

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Thinking about Dreamtale and how the "negative au" vs. "positive au" territories work. Like always, lots of ramblings under the read more

Like I feel when things are in balance, no au is inherently positive or negative. With resets, any timeline is capable of moments of great happiness but also great tragedy. The thing is, they're fluid and ever changing. Even if you do the genocide route, it only mucks up the happy ending. But that's just the ending, which is never permanent anyway.

I feel like the only way for an au to become truly positive or negative, even the rough and tumble aus like fells, is if you forcibly give them an ending or actively alter something so you can't "play" anymore.

Imagine Nightmare cultivating entire timelines to do this. Horror timelines could be a great example. A perminant ending to the original that spirals on so much longer than it should with EVERYONE being as miserable as possible and often doing things against their own best interest because they're reaching a breaking point. Imagine corrupting timelines, forcing more and more negative emotions into a Sans until he snaps and becomes Dust.

Hell, it could be part of the reason Nightmare is so particular with any Killers he has. Because it's such a specific thing of having his soul twisted by a player/creator, Nightmare can’t influence or force that to happen. He needs to have a tighter leash on him because he's so much harder to replace. It doesn’t matter how much he alters a timeline, a home grown Killer is impossible.

It also adds more into what "missions" can be. It's not just going in and killing a bunch of people at random. Dead people don't feel emotions, positive or negative. But remove the possibility of a happy ending? Remove just the right person so the dominos in the background don't fall or make someone snap, so they never trust the human no matter what they do, all so that a true pacifistending would be impossible no matter what you did. Maybe even somehow softlocking the human so everyone is stuck in a permanent miserable limbo no matter how often they reset to try and fix it.

And then you have Dream and his "positive aus". These are obviously the ones that get happy endings, the post pacifist where Frisk promises to never reset and everyone lives their days out on the surface in harmony. The ones where everyone is happy and healing and okay.

This can be part of why Ink helps him at first. Creators like making these happy ending aus and Nightmare, of course, would want to sow seeds of political discourse to turn the surface into hell. Dreams stops that, forcing things to turn out fine again and with Ink's help, ensure the happy aus stay on track.

But that's also where Ink and Dream clash. Dream sees a Horrortale and wants to attempt to fix it, but the thing is people love making horror aus. Maybe the first few Ink is fine with fixing up because these one were MEANT to be those softer interpretations that you see floating around. But then Dream comes across one that is truly rotten, something that's more canon compliant to the original horrortale comic, maybe even worse, and Ink stops him from doing anything. such a thing would go against what the creator wants the world to be. Sure, Nightmare is the one who got the ball rolling and sunk it deeper, but these monsters in the underground were never supposed to be saved.

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He canonically has zero frame of reference for culture outside of what he personally experiences and seeks out. I'm imagining for the longest time he has little interest in food or drink outside of sustaining his host, especially since a host ingesting things like alcohol actively forces him out of the body (that's genuinely why he's so anti drugs and intoxicants in general). Once he's actually gets to try some good food that's when he world starts to open a little wider. I love the idea of him creating these horrid abominations of whatever he thinks sound good in the moment. Pizza dough needs some tomato sauce stuff so why not slather it in ketchup. Needs cheese and all his host has in the fridge is string cheese so string it on up and put that there. Meats are the main kind of topping so why not chop up hot dogs to put on it? What? It's just another kind of sausage. Oh! And what if he put twizzlers on it? Toss that bad boy in the oven and see how it is. If it turns out to be inedible he doesn't care about just tossing it since he was eating for pleasure anyway and he has no guilt about wasting. While he won't eat literally anything you give him, and I'm sure a lot of his tastes would be rather basic actually, but because he has no preconceived notions on what things are supposed to taste or be like it mostly gets weird when he's the one cooking. Get this radical dude an ice cream machine and he'll be eating canned tuna ice cream within a weak.

Does Fresh eat a drink water when his hosts need it? When his host is hungry, does he feel that hunger, or does he not feel it because he's eating the hosts soul lifeforce and therefore doesn't feel hunger? Does he only eat or drink when his host is like starving? Does he eat or drink just to look normal? Or is he like a huge foodie who loves food? That last one sounds funny. "Local soulless soul eating parasite tries pizza for the first time ever and loses his mind"

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spent three hours editing a single chapter perfectly in the zone only for my computer to die and because ao3 doesn't have an auto save feature, lost everything

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So, I like Horror Sans, and being a nerd, I've been thinking about him a lot during my recovery with brain damage. A lot of people treat his wounds like brain damage, giving him memory problems, chronic headaches/migraines, speaking difficulties, fugue states, just issues collecting his thoughts. All understandable and reasonable symptoms, but there's something about just what truly horrific, completely life altering, brain damage to such an extent can do to a person that hasn't been explored very much. Yes, he doesn’t technically have a brain, but considering someone with head trauma like him would be in a comatose like start for weeks to a month, we can choke up him taking that hit like he did and being able to walk and talk to that. Plus, we can take inspiration from real injury and science and have wiggle room for it to not be 100% accurate. Anyway-

This is Phineas Gage.

It is one of the earliest extreme cases of brain damage where the patient survived while psychology as a scientific practice was getting on it's feet. If you've taken a psychology class, you've heard of him. He was a railroad worker foreman who had a rod blown through his skull in an accident, destroy most of his frontal lobe.

If you don’t know what the frontal lobe is it's where your ability to reason and make decisions, the ability to control your muscles voluntarily, and your ability to process knew information and recall old information. It's well known for being the part of your brain that inputs logic, the part gives you the ability to remember what happened last time you picked a fight with someone, so instead you choose to walk away despite how much your want to punch them for being a prick.

As I stated before, this man was a foreman, well known for keeping a level head, being responsible, and hard working. After the injury, that completely changed. Everyone agreed he was barely recognizable as himself. He was impulsive, prone to extreme mood swings, impatient, making massive plans only to almost immediately abandon them, and generally seemed to have no control over his desires or ability to distinguish between a want or a need.

Now, let's look at Horror.

I'd say it's safe to say his frontal lobe but also part of his parietal lobe would be utterly fucked. Your parietal lobe controls your ability to process sensory information (mostly touch) and to understand not only where you and your body is, but to process the world around you. You see a massive enough tent, some clowns running around, the right music, and your parietal lobe is what does the work to label that as a circus.

To have these two structures damaged, or the closest equivalent in a monster, would radically alter Sans' personality, his ability to move, his understanding of the context around him, and connect with others.

He'd become rather self centered on his own desires and beliefs, struggling to even have the patients let alone the want to give other people the time of day. His actions would be impulsive, made on his emotions in the present moment and with little concerns other than the immediate consequences. He'd be prone to loud outbursts, not just rage, but any other emotions like sadness or glee with little ability to realize how he's acting may be overblown or inappropriate. Not only could his ability to put his thoughts into words be a struggle, but his ability to say those words could be affected as well. He'd be very present focused, with pass relations or responsibility mattering little as he keeps marching to the beat of his own drum.

That is, if he could march. He'd not only struggle to know where his limbs are or what he's touching, but his sense of balance would be awful. He'd likely have a constant wobble, having to go slowly and potentially hold onto or lean on things if he wanted to move quickly. God forbid how much he'd bump into furniture or trip and struggle actually grab onto something to catch himself. It's entirely possible he'd have difficulty reading and writing or confusing his left and right regularly. He'd need more time to process a situation and could very easily misidentify what's actually going on could likely lead to him acting even more unpredictable as the world around him is so much more dangerous and he's struggling to fully understand what everyone is doing and trying to keep two steps ahead of everyone around him.

But here's the thing. The brain is also incredibly adaptable in ways your wouldn't believe. Phineas Gage slowly recovered over time. He died twelve years after the incident from epilepsy but over time he slowly regaining his social skills and general functionality. He picked up a job as a stage coach four years after the indecent even. He was never quite the same person he was before, but he wasn't doomed to be what he first was after the indecent.

Imagine what this kind of thing could mean for Sans. Not only would the betrayal cut deep enough and the world falling apart put him through trauma that would shred the soul, but people he trust literally damaged his ability to think logically and control his impulses. Of course he's going to lash out, focus on doing anything he can to survive with little respect for what anyone else thinks. Even forcing his brother to do things and refusing to listen to him unless given no other option. All while he thinks the biggest problems after the indecent is how much his head hurts, how his memory is shot, that it's harder or even down right painful to think, and how he's struggling to cling to his independence while never having the patience or resources to give himself the ability to heal. He doesn't even realize how much he's changed. If you point it out Sans would likely get defensive and aggressive, or brush it off as everyone underground being awful people out to eat each other alive.

But then he gets out to the surface. He gets stable food, a safe place to live. His brother is recovering and as the years pass his mind can finally start pulling itself together and healing, finally. Sans begins to regain his ability to think critically on his own actions and others, his emotional outburst and vindictive behavior start to wind down and fade. He's able to think and start sifting through all the shit he remembers.

The guilt of what he did, the people he hurt for no reason other than pettiness. The stupid decisions he made that hurt himself and/or Papyrus in the long run. All the hindsight he has now. Imagine how much he would bury those memories and thoughts. Justifying everything he could and insisting he had reasons, or that it's just how it was and that everyone was as awful and cruel he was. Or just accepting that what Undyne had done to him and the famine after had ruined him, broken and rotted all the good he had and left him vile and malicious. That he'll never have a chance to truly be who he was before.

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Power came back, and I saw my doctor today. She said I'm probably about halfway to the point point of being able to work at best and that I need another two weeks of at least. Going a lil stir crazy without my usual routine, so a bit disappointing to hear but I'm listening to my doc for my own health. I am noticebly more rambly, sassy, and a bit moody. I'm not sure how that may or may affect my writing, but I feel ready to start again.

As I said, I'm rambly, so I'm putting a read more with explainations on what I plan to do with writing and why.

I'm still not going to be having a new chapter for a while, but I may go back and do some edits to what's already written. Editing things that I retconned will be my biggest priority (like the reader starting things in their room, then living room, and then having a studio apartment). In generally, I'll be smoothing over details and ensuring everything flows well without typos or clunk scentances, but the major events should be unchanged.

I'll definitely make a post once I've gone through everything. If you've been reading since the first first chapter and haven't reread at all, I'll definitely recommend rereading once I've done that. The first chapter, being the oldest, has seen the most changes, and I know I already changed the ending lines once. The most recent being 8,000 words is likely to see some changes just because it hasn't gotten the rereading the following days after it was posted the other chapter have.

In general, I consider all of the chapters to be living and prone to changes at any time. Again, major events won't change, but phrasing and wording will. This is just a part of my process, so sorry if that annoys you, it won't change.

Anyway, if you've read this far, thank you for listening to my chatter. Feel free to message me or send me asks if you want to talk or have questions about me or my fic.

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Started feeling good enough to start writing, aling with then needed brain rot start to consume me and then-

Horrific wind storm that'll last all night knocks out my power

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the author's barely disguised longing for a kinder world