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// can I just not exist today?

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// Yeah—I think I'll finally start rewatching Bleach in its entirely—and maybe play more of the PS3 game I have Bleach: Soul Resurrección [ starting next week] to help my muses come back... I miss these two. I'll be here lurking for a bit I guess, see if any threads spark writing, and I will try to work on some easy asks, once I see what's in my ask. 🙏🏽

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✘ — low activity / sporadic posts

✘ — heavily divergent/headcanon based

✘ — personal take on muse / self-made AU

✘ — uncut but tagged nsfw/violent/triggering content

✘ — 20+ years of experience

✘ — multi paragraph work preferred

✘ — favored genres: angst, hurt/comfort, nsfw, & action w/ violence

✘ — drabble/headcanon heavy sometimes

✘ — over 20 other AUs

✘ — multiverse/multiship/multithread

✘ — ask dependent (blog based on ask interaction)

✘ — blog is dual muse Ichigo & Shiro

✘ — I have sideblogs (see pinned for those + more info)

✘ — graphics and icons made by myself. Others resources in pinned post.

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The Anomaly { Kurosaki Ichigo }

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I hate to bug people during probably a tight spot for everyone, but due to some unexpected things (the only car we have needed new brakes which was $660 and the bank was supposed to credit some money into our account but they never did, and then our puppy got neutered), I am out of money.

So I'm offering up doodles for $$$.

$5 for just a line art doodly sketch. quick and easy.

$20 for a more refined line art.

$40 for something with some color/shading.

$60 for something like the banner; that will take the longest time, but it will be a very nice, hi-res image you can use for whatever suits your fancy.

If you have something else in mind, talk to me.

I do also offer crochet and cross stitch items. These will be much more expensive and take more time, but I do have plenty of patterns ranging from blankets to scarves to doilies. The artwork in the third row is available in cross stitch patterns, each $5, as a pdf.

My paypal is mb_phillips@hotmail.com or you can go here. My discord is regularsizedkevin for those who'd like to have a chat about what you'd like.

(Please ignore the name on my paypal. It's my given name.)

And if you would like to just give money for the sake of it, please do! It would be very much appreciated.

If you have any questions, send me an ask or contact me on discord.

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🐝  *  ―  𝑨𝑺𝑲𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑭𝑶𝑹 𝑪𝑶𝑵𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻. ( while it's their main purpose, not all of these apply specifically to a sexual context; they can be used for whatever. feel free to adjust to your needs. )

❛  how far do you want to go?  ❜ ❛  what sounds like fun?  ❜ ❛  can i touch you here?  ❜ ❛  do you want more?  ❜ ❛  is this good?  ❜ ❛  are you sure you're okay with that?  ❜ ❛  what would turn you on?  ❜ ❛  can we try something new?  ❜ ❛  do you want me to stop?  ❜ ❛  do you want me to keep going?  ❜ ❛  should i put on a condom?  ❜ ❛  do you want to spend the night at my place?  ❜ ❛  what excites you?  ❜ ❛  can i go down on you?  ❜ ❛  are you sure you're ready for this?  ❜ ❛  can i help you out of that?  ❜ ❛  do you want me to help you unzip?  ❜ ❛  do you want to just cuddle?  ❜ ❛  how do you like that?  ❜ ❛  can we do something different tonight?  ❜ ❛  are you alright?  ❜ ❛  how do you want it?  ❜ ❛  how does that feel?  ❜ ❛  wanna try a new position?  ❜ ❛  wanna give it a go?  ❜ ❛  can i put it in my mouth?  ❜ ❛  do you like that?  ❜ ❛  are you still doing okay?  ❜ ❛  is it okay if i touch you here?  ❜ ❛  can i kiss you?  ❜ ❛  do you need a break?  ❜ ❛  what do you need?  ❜ ❛  is it okay if we don't do this tonight?  ❜ ❛  i'm gonna put it in now, is that okay?  ❜ ❛  what do you want me to do?  ❜ ❛  does that sound good to you?  ❜ ❛  if you need me to stop, just say the word, okay?  ❜ ❛  do you want me to use my fingers?  ❜ ❛  is there something specific you want me to do?  ❜ ❛  is there something you don't want me to do?  ❜

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Heartbroken Dialogue Prompts That Will Make Your Readers Cry Hard

What's a character without a little heartbreak?

do note that these are my original dialogues, credit @asmoshywrites

"All it took was one situationship to lose faith in love."

"I can't stay strong knowing that all this was a sick game."

"Don't you get it?" "I want to hold hands while staring at the stars, laugh at your lame jokes, share a milkshake, but you left me, jerk."

"All along I was a pawn for you to play with."

"It was silly of me to hold out your favourite flowers in the rain while I watched you kiss someone else."

"You lost the spark in your eyes, princess."

"I wasn't a hole in your pocket that needed stitching. I didn't need fixing. Hell! I wasn't even your problem in the first place."

"It was her all along, right?"

"There was a time when you were my favourite chapter, but now all I can think about is burning the book to its core."

"Look at yourself! Time was supposed to heal you, not turn you into a monster."

"You were once my most wonderful dream, but now you turned into my greatest nightmare."

"I rather kill myself than stay with you. You cause someone with life dread to die."

My personal favourite is 1, 3, 5, 7. What about you?

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━━━━ ✘✘ When Shiro left to go meander, Ichigo often felt a tug at his core, a pang of indescribable loneliness, but he was used to it—being alone. Though his spirits were with him, the Anomaly was a hermit, he was used to the solitude.

Ichigo didn't know what the Old Man was, and maybe he never would, but it didn't bother him. If he needed to know he'd be told, but if Shiro, and the Old Man wanted to keep it from him, Ichigo had no care to ask—some things were better left unsaid.

His head shifted on Shiro's lap and Ichigo sighed, content. "Have you been watching me sleep?" He inquired as his eyes stared at the sky, flicking back and forth to Shiro, his eyes Ichigo used to be scared of. They were actually quite stunning, more so than his own regular brown eyes.

Lazily, the Anomaly raised a hand, scarred digits roaming and hovering at Shiro's face, his cheek. He didn't want to touch the spirit without his okay, he didn't know if the other would bite... though he'd probably welcome it after what he had done.

He was a being of instinct that much could never be denied. Even Ichigo knew that much. He was a hollow, a Vasto Lorde, even. He was strong and keeping himself in check was hard. He couldn't afford to lash out.

Which was why Shiro simply left.

His walks, as that's what they genuinely were, never took him far, but he suppressed his Reiatsu so that he couldn't be felt. The only way anyone knew he was around was when they saw him. He was a separate being from Ichigo himself. The thing with the Old Man wasn't what Ichigo thought it was. The Old Man wasn't who Ichigo thought he was.

He couldn't say anything though and even if he could, he wouldn't. Ichigo's mind was far too fractured as it was. He didn't need anything more to cause damage to him. Upon seeing Ichigo's eyes open, he froze. He expected a violent sort of reaction.

So when Ichigo didn't react as he expected him to, the hollow blinked, his golden eyes curious and more than slightly confused. Being called the name he chose for himself, rather than Zangetsu was... nice. Nicer than he expected.

It felt good. Especially to be recognized as who he was rather than what. "Hey, King." His voice would sound as confused as he was without him making it overly obvious. He'd leave if he needed to.

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// Sees some of my friends writing with someone who blocked me for petty shit (I blocked them right back), but I don't have the guts to tell my friends who they should/shouldn't write with—I'm not that guy, but it makes me feel sick 🙃

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"Just give in."

      ✘ As those words were spoken, Ichigo sat in a chair, an odd type of branding tool pressed against his skin. His eyes burned with unshed tears as he felt the marking being permanently etched onto his flesh.

      ✘ Yhwach stood before him, towering over the one he called his son, watching in approval as the Anomaly never fought, or spoke out against the ritual.

      ✘ The tool used was of Quincy make, and pulled Reishi from the surrounding area, using it, along with Ichigo’s energy, to form the brand, marking him as a traitor, as a sign of the loyalty to his father.

      ✘ He had nothing to say against the words, and bowed his head in both humility, and acceptance. He welcomed the coming days being by Ywach’s side, learning about his Mother, and his own untapped powers..

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━━━━ ✘✘ Yes, Ichigo feared his Hollow, and the powers Shiro gave him, but he was slowly coming to terms with having the other around, and so he wasn't as guarded; even telling the Old Man to lighten up on excluding Shiro from being around. He knew the other meant well, but Ichigo cared for them both because they were parts of him, and he'd struggle with it all—the good and the bad.

In coming to terms with what he was (every bit of himself), Ichigo wasn't going to tell Shiro to leave unless he had a mental break and/or shut down, but like the fitful sleeping, those were rare these days, but still happened.

It was a while before Ichigo began to stir, eyes moving under lids and his arms shifting to cradle his torso. "Mmm..." His eyes opened, and things came into focus, sensations were made aware.

—His head was pillowed on someone's lap.

Closing his eyes, he registered who it was. "Hey, Shiro." He said after finding his voice, tone cracking a little as he fully woke up, but he didn't make a move to sit up, enjoying the position.

It was odd seeing Ichigo as he was. Especially with the scar visible. Shiro never knew what to expect with the Shinigami. Or, perhaps it was ex-Shinigami since he didn't do anything with his power anymore. The Old Man couldn't leave but the hollow could, and did, quite often. It was unlikely the redhead ever noticed due to his fear of the paler male. That didn't mean he was abandoning Ichigo or anything, the other was still his master even if he hated him. There wasn't a lot he could do about that.

A relaxed reaction hadn't really been expected. Because he was always told to keep his distance by the Old Man. He expected to be attacked or dragged away by the other. He knew the truth but he couldn't say anything to Ichigo.

Not that the redhead would listen anyway.

He paid no attention to the smaller male's scars, markings, or tattoos. They were none of his business. He would be there until he was dragged away, or Ichigo himself rejected him hard enough for him to just leave.

He merely sat there. Ichigo's head on his lap. He didn't touch the other aside from that. He had no reason to do so when he wasn't trusted. Ichigo's relaxed reaction was why he was so curious though. The other never asked him to be close. He only asked him to keep his distance.

Because he knew Ichigo was afraid of him and his power. Everything was his fault. All the pain in Ichigo's life was because of him. Nothing could be done about that, either, he was part of Ichigo no matter how badly the other wished he wasn't.

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tell-me-a-reason-to-live

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“Now it wanders lost and wounded”

Red - Hymn For The Missing

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@my-twisted-cross

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★ ━━━━━━ The Anomaly was unusually content in the grass, shihakusho open at the chest, showing some of the puckered cylindrical scar that was the cause of Ichigo grief, alongside Shiro and what he could manifest within Ichigo. Though, as much as he was afraid of his Hollow powers, and the destruction he could cause, Ichigo knew that Shiro and the Old Man were the closest to him, and they could (and would) never leave his side.

It wasn't strange for them to be close, sometimes Ichigo asked for Shiro's presence, though his sleeping form couldn't (and would never) object to his Hollow spirit being there.

Shaggy hair fell from his neck a little as his head was gently lifted and placed in Shiro's lap, where the tattooed upon scar on the back of his neck settled against fabric.

The Anomaly sighed upon feeling Shiro's presence, and his brow relaxed a bit. His rest would continue to be plentiful until it wasn't, but that wasn't to be seen for now.

Such an odd and quite rare sight it was. Ichigo was typically suffering from some sort of terror in his sleep.

Typically related to none other than Shiro himself though, perhaps, not entirely. Silent footsteps would advance. Closer.

And closer still before the hollow found himself crouched beside Ichigo, golden eyes peering curiously upon the semi-relaxed yet slightly furrowed brow of the redhead.

He'd shift. The movement was both subtle and silent as he did so. He knew a way to help the Shinigami relax. Even though the other still FEARED him to some extent. He was there for him. He'd sit down, legs crossed before he was reaching pale hands forward and lifting Ichigo's head just enough to slip the other male's head upon his lap, rather than the grass.

"Nothin' can hurt ya while I'm here, King." His words were all but silent, almost unspoken as he began carding his slim, pale fingers through the orange hair belonging to the one he called 'King'.

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Better the devil you know than the devil you don’t. 

A redraw of this post from 2018. My Matthew Murdock brainrot is thriving right now

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━━━━ ✘✘ Ichigo was lying down on the grass, arm drawn across his face, his chest slowly rising and falling. He was getting a moment of peaceful rest, but it wouldn't last. His mouth hung open a tad, and a breeze pulled at his hair and shihakusho.

( @shirxsaki )