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guys you don't understand i love big buff horses so much

draft horses you are gods most perfectest creations

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I just wanted to share this article about Palestine's right to revolt and why it is important that we support it. It also has sources embedded in the text that debunk misinformation about them and Hamas. I implore everyone to read it and spread this information around.

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hi, are your fics still up on ao3? i had you bookmarked under wagyubeefy, but ao3 gives me a 404 error... I'd love to revisit some of them. Thank you!

They are! I just changed my username to orkbutch :)

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you can tell a lot about someone based on their phone background. it shows what’s most important to them

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I had to write YEARS of posts about British Clownfall and South Korea just straight up speed ran theirs a mere seven minutes longer than it takes to watch Wicked

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I was thinking abt my criticism that movie elphaba is too normie. maybe thats more common in different musical versions of Elphaba idk. Is that a thing, is she Just A Normal Girl and its tragic shes green bc people dont see how Normal Girl she is? I dont trust my memory. i need to know

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just clocked that im talking like a pretentious asshole rn because i feel really confident in my judgements about Wicked as a subject and it brings out a very egotistical part of me. Thats not a bad thing though, the egotistical part of me gets all the creative stuff done, so. I'm trying to accept my ego these days and use it for good instead of feeling insecure and bad about it, which is what I've always done, which is just as self centred but in a stupider way. I will absolutely be delusionally confident about my own artistic skill and taste if it helps me create whatever bullshit yknow

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Do you happen to have any original writing or are you more of a visual artist these days?

I have original writing attempts but nothing near finished, mostly erotic horror short stories I've started or things to flesh out the lore of larger projects for myself. Definitely more visual and performance oriented lately.

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actually i can articulate my one immediate criticism pretty easily now. if u loved the movie's adaption of the characters look away, i have no desire to spoil the fun for people, im just too invested in these goyls

elphaba is too hot/rizzed up in the wrong way bc of how she was played/directed. didnt buy that she was that insecure, which is a really bizarre way to play/direct elphaba. wasn't weird or distinctly awkward, also a very odd choice.

the things that WERE expressions of her insecurity and trauma werent very coherent. shes defensive and angry and witty, but she cries gracefully and solemnly in front of her bullies. she has this uncontrollable emotional depth that expresses itself through powerful magic, but shes always more collected and understated than it feels like she should be at her vital moments. Why is she so stable and reserved? Shes meant to be unstable, and as emotionally immature as Glinda. Very sympathetic yes, loveable and who we're rooting for, but especially when approaching Defying Gravity shes meant to be on the brink of realising her greatness is in embracing all the things that have caused her to be scorned in the past. Not just her skin, but her exceptional, boldly weird instincts that have come from her uniquely challenging life. Being green isolated her, made her different from most other people in how she thinks and exists socially, and that helps her see injustice and outmaneuver her enemies where Glinda and others don't.

But movie Elphaba is not weird. She is actually very normal and likeable, like, normie likeable. ????? Elphaba??? Where is her autistic rizz?? This is just regular rizz. Shes meant to at least be weird in a traumatised defensive way but she really doesn't come off that way to me. It feels like she was directed to pull back on a lot of what makes Elphaba a distinct personality.

Also, her big trauma healing moment of seeing herself as a child felt out of place because it wasn't set up properly - child her should have been shown at least one other time before Defying Gravity - and she never acted childishly, which she absolutely should have for at least ONE of her moments of highest distress if youre going to do this Child Self thing imo.

okay i lost steam. those are my thoughts

just saw wicked. absolutely exhausted. will share thoughts once my vital energies are restored

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My favorite thing about the wicked resurgence is getting to rec your fics to everyone every chance I get. Shame Machine be upon ye

I'm glad my fics have stood the test of time, though I also find them kind of super embarrassing ngl. SM especially because its ironically, very shameless in how revealing it is of all my issues and damage at the time

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someone get my smelling salts or maybe a nosaphed . anyway it was entertaining, i won't have a conclusive opinion on most elements until i see the 2nd part probably, i dislike that they made it 2 extremely long movies. make it two normal movies or make it one extremely long movie and edit your movie so its better.

also tho if it isnt gay at the end then its queerbaiting garbage belong in the dumpster

just saw wicked. absolutely exhausted. will share thoughts once my vital energies are restored

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just saw wicked. absolutely exhausted. will share thoughts once my vital energies are restored

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i know i'm probably one in many and rightfully so! but the wicked movie is making me revisit my gelphie tag ergo your blog and i'm so thankful for your art during that period and your art will always be synonymous with gelphie for me and i hope you get to catch the movie soon! xx

Thank u! I think I'm gonna be seeing it tomorrow, so............... hot takes may be incoming this week 👀

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The way you have always written and drawn gelphie is, frankly, my favourite way they’re drawn and written

thank you, thats because im tje best at it and i have special knowledge

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i'd like to say that reading and seeing your gelphie stuff helped me a lot with how i handled how I felt about my body in its transness and sex. to say i had complex feeling about those two is an understatement. but seeing you write about them and their bodies with a love so regular it was transcendent truly just started a chain reaction of change in me. years late i'm still learning- it's going to be a forever experience- but i look at myself now in the mirror and see what i love. i can think of sex with less baggage and fear, even going so far as sometimes wondering and wanting it. i think about your stuff fondly, always

Thats a lot of what I was trying to do for myself through those fics, so... that makes sense, while also being really lovely and humbling and encouraging to hear. It is a forever journey, but I do think it gets easier and we get wiser, and more capable of love for ourselves. And more capable of trust and vulnerability, of intimacy. That takes a lot of safety with someone else and yourself. Can you trust yourself to be vulnerable and not attack yourself viciously for it? anyway, thank you for the lovely ask.